Some influences include Superdrag, of Montreal, Built to Spill, Weezer, Ween, The Microphones, as well as Duster (on a sadder rainy day).
Claire R - (singer, guitars)
Célia
pillowinde Lyrics
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Wrote this song in the time it would have taken me to get there and come back
Davey-O, I know that I've been pushy for a month or so
But you gotta know that I just want the best for us
you know that I wanna fly, its froggy time
Mabel I'm sorry that I didn't show up
Even though I said yesterday that id be there
Some days I just don't feel like existing, I don't really feel like speeding through time
Im just vibing
Secretly I'm tired as hell all of the time
But I wanna do everything in the world
You know that my ambitions are high
Natalie, I'm sorry that those weirdos can be obscene
The internets a cesspools of creepy peeps I'm sorry that we've gotta go through that
Maybe I'm stalling from answering the question
When will I be productive to society
Sometimes I just don't wanna justify, every little movement to myself
Sometimes I need some time to wander around in the dark
Sometimes I fail all of my silly little tasks, silly little world, silly little person I am
Its all gonna blow up under the sun
The lyrics to "Celia" by pillowinde convey a sense of apology and introspection towards different people in the songwriter's life. The song begins with an apology to Celia for not being able to attend a show, but assures her that the time was used to write the song dedicated to her. This suggests a desire for connection and a form of reconciliation despite physical absence.
The second verse addresses a person named Davey-O, acknowledging that the songwriter has been pushy for a while but emphasizing the intentions of wanting the best for their relationship. The mention of "froggy time" adds a sense of lightheartedness and freedom, perhaps indicating a desire to break away from any constraints or norms.
The mention of Mabel reflects another apology for not showing up despite promising to do so. The songwriter reveals their struggle with existence and the desire to slow down time, indicating a need for introspection and a break from the fast pace of life.
The chorus highlights the songwriter's inner conflict. While they exclaim that they are "just vibing" and secretly tired all the time, they express a strong drive to do everything in the world. This reveals the struggle between their ambitions and the exhaustion that sometimes holds them back.
The fourth verse apologizes to Natalie for the presence of obscene and creepy individuals on the internet. This acknowledges the dark side of online interactions and empathizes with the shared experience of encountering such individuals. The mention of stalling from answering the question of productivity reflects a common existential dilemma, questioning one's value and purpose in society.
The song concludes with the realization that sometimes it's necessary to take time to wander in the dark, to fail at tasks, and to accept one's imperfections in the face of an uncertain future. The line "it's all gonna blow up under the sun" could be interpreted as a recognition that everything is temporary and will eventually fade away, relying on the metaphor of the sun as a symbol of time passing.
Overall, "Celia" showcases the songwriter's vulnerability, apologetic nature, and contemplation of life's uncertainties.
Line by Line Meaning
Celia, I'm sorry that I couldn't make it to the show but I hope you'd like to know that I
Apologize for not attending the show and want you to understand that in the time it took to travel, I wrote this song.
Wrote this song in the time it would have taken me to get there and come back
Managed to create this song within the duration of the round trip I would have made to the show.
Davey-O, I know that I've been pushy for a month or so
Realize that I have been persistent in my actions towards you for an extended period.
But you gotta know that I just want the best for us
Understand that my intentions are solely focused on ensuring the optimal outcome for both of us.
you know that I wanna fly, its froggy time
Express the desire to soar and seize opportunities, symbolized by the concept of 'froggy time'.
Mabel I'm sorry that I didn't show up
Apologize for my absence, Mabel, even though I promised to be there.
Even though I said yesterday that id be there
Despite my commitment mentioned yesterday to attend, I failed to fulfill it.
Some days I just don't feel like existing, I don't really feel like speeding through time
Occasionally, I experience a lack of motivation to participate in life and have no desire to accelerate the passage of time.
Sometimes I just want to sit and slow the clock cuz I really don't wanna die
At times, all I desire is to sit still and halt the ticking of the clock, as I am truly afraid of the inevitability of death.
Im just vibing
Engaged in a state of calm and relaxed enjoyment of the present moment.
Secretly I'm tired as hell all of the time
In truth, I am consistently exhausted and fatigued.
But I wanna do everything in the world
Despite my weariness, I possess an overwhelming desire to engage in countless endeavors.
You know that my ambitions are high
Aware that my aspirations are lofty and far-reaching.
Natalie, I'm sorry that those weirdos can be obscene
Express regret to Natalie for the inappropriate behavior of certain individuals who can be unsettling.
The internets a cesspools of creepy peeps I'm sorry that we've gotta go through that
Acknowledge the internet's unfortunate tendency to host a multitude of disturbing individuals and apologize for having to endure such experiences.
Maybe I'm stalling from answering the question
Consider the possibility that I am procrastinating and avoiding providing a response to the question.
When will I be productive to society
Reflect on the timeframe when I will contribute meaningfully to society and make a substantial impact.
Sometimes I just don't wanna justify, every little movement to myself
Occasionally, I find myself unwilling to constantly explain and rationalize every small decision or action to my own self.
Sometimes I need some time to wander around in the dark
There are instances when I require periods of aimlessly exploring unknown realms, even in times of uncertainty or confusion.
Sometimes I fail all of my silly little tasks, silly little world, silly little person I am
At times, I experience failure in completing trivial duties, leading me to perceive the world and myself as insignificant and foolish.
Its all gonna blow up under the sun
Believe that everything will eventually unravel, disintegrate, or reach a breaking point when exposed to the harsh realities of life.
Lyrics © O/B/O DistroKid
Written by: Claire Ruiz
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