Love of My Life
r.f.n. Lyrics

Yo I grew up like the regular thug sold drugs
I had a rough upbringing and had to sell drugs to make ends meet.

Wasn't proud about it, but this is what I gotta do
I didn't like it, but it was necessary to survive.

I copped the Jordan's, and the Fila's, too
I bought expensive shoes to feel good about myself.

Yo, I loved the Bo Jackson's, the orange and blue
I had a favorite pair of orange and blue sneakers that I really liked.

Used to snatch Lee patches, now I wear Cartier glasses
I used to steal patches off of jeans, but now I wear expensive glasses.

Thinkin' that the earth's axis,
I used to believe that the world revolved around me.

Revolves around my waist.. and how the fuck I feel
I thought the world revolved around me and my feelings.

Yo I played ball for Vince, yo I handled the pill
I played basketball and was responsible for passing the ball (the pill)

Then it dawned on me, came strong on me
I had an epiphany and saw things more clearly.

I belonged with these, niggaz thuggin' with me
I felt like I belonged with the other guys who were also involved in criminal activity.

So I switched crews, started rollin' with the older dudes
I started hanging out with older guys who were involved in more serious criminal activity.

Drinkin' brews, did what they say, and paid dues
I drank alcohol and did what the older guys told me to do in order to fit in.

My hands dirty, trying to keep little Lea
I was involved in criminal activity in order to provide for my daughter.

And got jerked, the first time I tried to re-up
I got ripped off the first time I tried to buy more drugs to sell.

People my age, tried to say slow my speed up
My peers told me to slow down and stop being involved in criminal activity.

'Cause I smoked bogies, staked on weed up
I smoked cigarettes and weed to cope with the stress of selling drugs.

[Chorus]
The chorus is a repetition of the main message of the song - I love my life but it's been a struggle.

These is the days of sparkin', I used to roll with Rob Profit
I used to hang out with a guy named Rob and smoke weed a lot.

Troy Outlaw, Freddie Bedrock, and Joe Wood
These are the names of other guys I used to hang out with.

Runni'n in Timbo's ???, shine shoes
I used to run around in Timberland boots and shine them.

Section Two, part of Iraq I grew up at
I grew up in a rough area that was known as Section Two.

Had to learn how to slapbox, instead of a gat
I had to learn how to fight with my fists instead of using a gun.

I never knew rap, all I knew was crack
I didn't know anything about music, I just knew how to sell drugs.

Yo there's rules to this game, and people to blame
There are rules to selling drugs, and people who are responsible for the problems it causes.

When you see another little brother doing the same
When you see another young man getting involved in the same criminal activity you did.

As you used to, Growing up like you
Someone who is going through what you went through as a young person.

Palyin' skully, with his heat out, cellular phone
Playing a street game called skully while carrying a gun and a cell phone.

Getting little drug money, but got the world sewn
Making a little bit of money selling drugs, but feeling like you have control over your environment.

I recall, cause he gonna die, Yo, I cry
Remembering someone who died because of involvement in criminal activity and feeling sad.

It's hard to, get tarred up with God jewel, part two
It's difficult to understand the importance of spiritual beliefs when you are involved in criminal activity.

Smily got shot up to (Rest in peace)
A friend named Smily was killed and is now at peace.

Aiyyo, you realize that you miss a nigga (miss him)
You only realize how much you miss someone after they're gone.

When you realize (realize) that you never gonna see him again
The final realization that someone who has died is gone forever.

Aiyyo, its totally, up to the team, to me
The responsibility for my life and future lies with me and my team.

So don't, make a move if you don't ask me
Don't take action without discussing it with me first.

I'm, casually known, halfly blown
I am not very well-known and somewhat distracted.

In Miami, cause now Uncle Wise came home
I am in Miami because my uncle has returned home.

Jello, copped me a Role', copped them one, too
A friend named Jello helped me buy a Rolex watch.

You keep it real with a person, keep it real with you
If you are honest with someone, they will be honest with you.

Use confidence, Thugged Out aimed for dominance
We are confident in our criminal activity and want to be in control.

Nostradam' in this, he slits wrists just like Glomerus
We are making predictions about our future and see ourselves as being similar to historical figures.

??, Grenad', iced out for Tito
We have expensive and flashy jewelry.

Puerto Rico, we live life now cause we know
We are enjoying life now because we know that things can change at any moment.

The other side of the fence stay friendly
People who are not involved in criminal activity are generally friendly.

Its just war in there, done, there ain't no Henny
Things are different in the criminal world - it's a constant struggle and there is no time to relax or enjoy life.

I can't live that, déjà vu, I did that
I can't go back to that life - it feels like I've already been there.

I gained stats, rumblin' cats over Kit Kats
I have become successful and dominant by fighting and showing my strength.

Now I spit raps, park my Benz where the chicks at
Now I am a successful rapper and enjoy the perks of fame and wealth.

And just live with a big stack
I am now living a comfortable life with a lot of money.