Isolation
ruiner. Lyrics

I know I let myself down again
I am aware that I disappointed myself once more

I’m sorry I did, but I couldn’t resist
I apologize for my actions, but I could not control myself

I keep on going right back to where I started
I persistently return to the same starting point

I’ve been sleeping through the days, guess I’ll waste my life away
I have been spending my days in sleep, indicating a careless and unproductive existence

I think I’m going numb to pain because it’s running through my veins
I believe I am becoming desensitized to pain as it flows within me

The seasons always change, but I’m stuck on the same page
While the world evolves, I remain stagnant and trapped in repetition

I’ve been looking at old photos, but you know it’s not the same
I have been reminiscing over past memories, but they hold no comparison to the present

I can’t keep my mind at bay
I struggle to quieten my thoughts and find peace

But I tell you I’m okay
Despite my struggles, I attempt to convince others that I am fine

Isolation is a constant feeling
I consistently experience a sense of loneliness and solitude

Inside these old walls, the paint is peeling
Within the confines of these aged walls, the paint deteriorates and chips away

I’m looking for a way out before I even walk in
I seek an escape route before even entering a situation

I need an escape from everything
I yearn for relief from the entirety of existence

I needed a break from you and me
I required a pause from our relationship and the dynamic between us

Take me away down 6 feet deep
Transport me to a place six feet beneath the ground, symbolic of death and final rest

Just let me be, please let me be
Please allow me to exist undisturbed and uninterrupted

I’ve barely left my house this week
Throughout this week, I have hardly ventured outside my residence

Locked inside my mind won't sleep
Confined within my own thoughts, sleep eludes me

All this time I lie awake
For an extended duration, I remain awake and conscious

Hoping that it's not too late
Maintaining hope that the situation has not reached an irreversible point

To make sudden moves
To take impulsive actions

Second guess the goals I choose
Doubting and reconsidering the objectives I set for myself

When I hold back
When I restrain myself

I'm sorry
I apologize

To be honest
Speaking truthfully

I'm stirred up, I’m stirred up
I am agitated and emotionally unsettled

Isolation is a constant feeling
Loneliness persistently lingers within me

Inside these old walls, the paint is peeling
Within these deteriorating walls, the paint flakes away

I’m looking for a way out before I even walk in
Before entering, I search for an escape route

I need an escape from everything
I require liberation from all aspects of life

I needed a break from you and me
I desired a pause from the relationship between us

Take me away down 6 feet deep
Transport me to a depth of six feet, symbolizing a profound and final departure

Just let me be, please let me be
Kindly allow me to exist undisturbed and unaffected