Matts describes ten56. as:
"a new band that embodies everything I love about heavy music, something I feel extremely passionate about"
“I just wanted to do something, really heavy and dark. I’ve always had this itch that I wanted to scratch, doing something stupid heavy,” he says passionately."
“I’ve been wanting to sing about gross shit and just go all out crazy on it for so long. But obviously, I can’t just come to the band and change the whole formula.”
BOY
ten56. Lyrics
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Does it make you feel like you have something to feel guilty about?
And when you see, nothing is left of me to destroy
Hope you remember that I was just a boy
I′m sure you tell yourself that this was love
You bathe in bullshit, I drown in disgust
You made me so filthy, now I'll die this way
I won't mourn you
I got enough fucking bodies in my closet now without you
How could I forget?
How your withered hands felt on the back of my neck
They said his cold body was found
With his blue lips laying in the piss on the ground
And you can blame everything on a mental disorder
But you know deep down that this was fucking murder
I watched the roof burn down in the family home
You poured the gas, you lit the match, now you're fucking alone
I hope you know you got me messed up, I′m starting to slip
Fifteen years later, bitch
You still make me sick
Sick
I hope it keeps you up in the cold of the night
I hope your daughter feels the sadness when she looks in your eye
And when you feel like it′s done
Like your demons have gone
You'll hear the screams of our stillborn son
Sleep tight, may the voices speak lightly
Pray to God I keep my lips sealed quietly
Sleep tight, may the voices speak lightly
Pray to God I keep my lips sealed quietly
My spine is aching and creaking
I speak your name when I′m sleeping
Don't feel I′ll ever quit thinking and I've been shrinking and sinking
My thoughts deep under the ground
I can′t see over this cloud
Don't even think of talking to me if you see me around
"Boy" by ten56. is a haunting song that explores the trauma of an abusive relationship, as the lyrics reveal the feelings of the victim towards their abuser. The first verse includes a question "Do you like the way I turned out?" and highlights the guilt the victimizer may feel for the damage caused. The victim also reflects on the possibility that the abuser sees nothing left of them to destroy and hopes they can remember that they were once just a boy. The second verse features the victim admitting that they were bathed in bullshit and drowned in disgust, highlighting the absurdity and revulsion of the situation. The abuser's actions have made the victim feel filthy and they feel they will die in the same way, wishing the abuser will die before them.
The chorus of the song is incredibly powerful as it features the victim promising to never mourn the abuser and highlighting the fact that they already have enough bodies in their closet. The victim remembers the abuser's hands on the back of their neck and wishes to never forget. The bridge provides a powerful and gruesome account of the abuser's death, leaving their body on the floor for all to see.
The song then becomes more personal, exploring the trauma inflicted on the victim's family as the family home is set ablaze. The victim wishes to let go of the pain and move on, but feels they are still stuck in the past fifteen years later. The final chorus has the victim wishing for the abuser to suffer as much as they did and a haunting image of their stillborn son's screams.
Line by Line Meaning
Do you like the way that I turned out?
Do you take pleasure in the way I have become?
Does it make you feel like you have something to feel guilty about?
Does it cause you to feel ashamed and remorseful?
And when you see, nothing is left of me to destroy
When you realize there is nothing more of me to tear down
Hope you remember that I was just a boy
I hope you recall that I was a mere child
I′m sure you tell yourself that this was love
I'm certain you convince yourself that this was an act of love
You bathe in bullshit, I drown in disgust
You immerse yourself in lies, while I'm overwhelmed by revulsion
You made me so filthy, now I'll die this way
You have tainted me to the point of death
Yet you′ll die before me, fucking decay
However, you will deteriorate before I perished
I won't mourn you
I won't grieve for you
I got enough fucking bodies in my closet now without you
I have a sufficient number of dead bodies in my closet, I don't need you added to the list
How could I forget?
How could I overlook or erase?
How your withered hands felt on the back of my neck
The way your decrepit hands felt on the nape of my neck
They said his cold body was found
The report stated that they discovered his lifeless body
With his blue lips laying in the piss on the ground
His lips were the shade of blue, as he lay in his urine on the floor
And you can blame everything on a mental disorder
You can attribute everything to a psychiatric condition
But you know deep down that this was fucking murder
However, you are aware that this was a damn homicide
I watched the roof burn down in the family home
I observed the house ablaze with the family inside
You poured the gas, you lit the match, now you're fucking alone
You poured the gasoline and ignited the fire, now you're alone
I hope you know you got me messed up, I′m starting to slip
I hope you are aware that you have caused me to lose control, and I'm beginning to fail
Fifteen years later, bitch
Fifteen years have passed, and you're still a pathetic woman
You still make me sick
You still make me want to vomit
I hope it keeps you up in the cold of the night
I hope it torments you in the chilly night
I hope your daughter feels the sadness when she looks in your eye
I hope your daughter senses the melancholy in your gaze
And when you feel like it′s done
And when you assume it's over
Like your demons have gone
That your inner demons have departed
You'll hear the screams of our stillborn son
You'll hear the wails of our child who never took his first breath
Sleep tight, may the voices speak lightly
Rest well, may the whispers be gentle
Pray to God I keep my lips sealed quietly
Hope and pray that I don't spill any secrets
My spine is aching and creaking
The agony is twisting and cracking my spine
I speak your name when I′m sleeping
I say your name unconsciously while asleep
Don't feel I′ll ever quit thinking and I’ve been shrinking and sinking
I don't think I'll ever stop brooding, and I'm dwindling and descending
My thoughts deep under the ground
My ideas and notions deeply buried within the earth
I can′t see over this cloud
I can't see beyond this shadow
Don't even think of talking to me if you see me around
Don't even consider speaking to me if you encounter me
Contributed by Austin M. Suggest a correction in the comments below.