Payday
venera Lyrics
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A dispossession of my right to feel
Hide and seek with all my dreams
And you've taken the best of me again
I try to keep my pride
But this humming and broiling is deep inside
Hide and seek with all my dreams
I will bring it to an end
Don't tell me it wasn't meant like this
I will bring it to an end
No time for desperation
Remember things you've said and done
To break my trust is everlasting
Now you have faith but I have none, say it again
It's only your indifference
Hide and seek with all my dreams
Your curse rests on all of my beliefs
Hide and seek with all my dreams
You started to convince me again
I try to move but I'm paralyzed
I want to shout but I just can't decide
Hide and seek with all my dreams, a part of me
A part that I'll always need
I will bring it to an end
I tell myself that it wasn't meant like this
Can I bring it to an end
No time for desperation
Of course it wasn't your intention
You weren't yourself
I'm sick of all this bullshit
I know you far too well
Remember things you've said and done
To break my trust is everlasting
Now you have faith but I have none, say it again
It's only your indifference
Remember things you've said and done
To break my trust is everlasting
Now you have faith but I have none, say it again
You want to have some distance
The song "Payday" by Venera is about a person who feels dispossessed of their dreams and emotions. They feel as though someone has taken the best of them and started a riot within them. The lyrics suggest that this person is in deep emotional turmoil and is struggling to keep their pride intact. They try to move forward but feel paralyzed by their emotions. The person is conflicted between wanting to bring an end to their pain and feeling that they need a certain part of themselves that they will always need.
The song also highlights the importance of trust in a relationship. The lyrics suggest that the person's trust has been broken, and they are feeling the lasting effects of it. Despite the other person's attempts to regain their trust, the singer cannot forget the hurt they have caused. The person struggles to move on from this hurt and is reminded of it every day.
Overall, the song is about the internal struggles that people face when their trust is broken, and they feel dispossessed of their dreams and emotions.
Line by Line Meaning
Hide and seek with all my dreams
My hopes and aspirations are difficult to pursue, like a game of hide and seek.
A dispossession of my right to feel
I feel robbed of my emotions and am incapable of expressing them.
And you've taken the best of me again
You have caused me to lose something valuable yet again.
I try to keep my pride
I attempt to maintain my self-respect.
But this humming and broiling is deep inside
I feel bottled up with intense feelings that I cannot reveal.
You’ve started a riot within me
Your actions have ignited a fervor in me.
I will bring it to an end
I will put an end to this situation.
Don’t tell me it wasn’t meant like this
Do not try to justify your actions, I know what you intended.
No time for desperation
I refuse to give in to despair.
Remember things you’ve said and done
I have not forgotten the hurtful things you have said and done.
To break my trust is everlasting
You have forever tarnished my trust in you.
Now you have faith but I have none, say it again
You may have faith in yourself now, but I do not share that faith.
It’s only your indifference
Your apathy and lack of concern is the root of our problems.
Your curse rests on all of my beliefs
Your negative influence has affected every aspect of my life.
You started to convince me again
You are attempting to persuade me to your point of view.
I try to move but I’m paralyzed
I am immobilized by my inner turmoil.
I want to shout but I just can’t decide
I am torn between the urge to express my emotions and my inability to do so.
A part of me, a part that I’ll always need
A part of me will always be affected by our past experiences.
Of course it wasn’t your intention
I understand that you did not mean to hurt me.
You weren’t yourself
I recognize that you were not in the right state of mind when you hurt me.
I’m sick of all this bullshit
I am tired of being fed lies and excuses.
I know you far too well
I see through your facade and know your true nature.
You want to have some distance
You want to create space between us and retreat from the situation.
Lyrics © DistroKid
Written by: Venera
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