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up to me
Lany Lyrics


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I think I'm fallin' in love with this new girl
She's got a nice place west of the 405
But I miss gettin' drunk with you from a paper bag
Sometimes we drive up the coast on the weekends
And party with her cool friends at the Chateau Marmont
But I miss goin' nowhere with you up and down Fairfax

What hurts the most is just how close we got to
To the life we dreamed, now I'm doin' everything without you

If it was up to me, I'd be with you every night
If it was up to me, I'd let you win every fight
If it was up to me, you would still, still be mine
But it wasn't up to me, up to me

I got my first check, you always said I'd make it
Have you heard they're playin' LANY on the radio?
Wish you were with me celebratin' out in Malibu
I'm not sayin' that my girl's not amazin'
I keep lookin' for a problem but there's nothin' wrong
The only problem is I can't turn her into you

If it was up to me, I'd be with you every night
If it was up to me, I'd let you win every fight
If it was up to me, you would still, still be mine
But it wasn't up to me, up to me
If it was up to me, ink your name on my arm
If it was up to me, closin' down that corner bar
If it was up to me, you wouldn't have broke my heart
But it wasn't up to me, up to me

If it was up to me
If it was up to me
If it was up to me
If it was up to me

Overall Meaning

The lyrics of Lany's song "If it was up to me" tell a story about a guy who has fallen in love with a new girl. He describes her great qualities and how he enjoys spending time with her and her cool friends. However, he can’t help but think about his old flame and how they used to have fun together. He reminisces about the times they used to drive up the coast and go nowhere in particular, the times they got drunk from a paper bag, and the life they dreamed of together. He misses her and how close they were to achieving their goals. Now, he has everything he wanted, but without her. He got his first paycheck and his music is playing on the radio, yet he wishes his old flame was there to celebrate with him.


The chorus of the song is repeated several times, and it conveys the regret the singer feels about losing his ex-girlfriend. He would do anything to win her back, even though he knows it’s not up to him. He wishes he could be with her every night, let her win every fight, and have her back in his life. The song is about him facing the reality that he cannot change the past and move on.


Line by Line Meaning

I think I'm fallin' in love with this new girl
The singer has developed feelings for a new girl.


She's got a nice place west of the 405
The new girl has a nice house on the western side of their city.


But I miss gettin' drunk with you from a paper bag
The singer misses the experiences they had with their former partner, such as drinking from a paper bag.


Sometimes we drive up the coast on the weekends
The singer and former partner used to take weekend drives along the coast.


And party with her cool friends at the Chateau Marmont
The new girl has cool friends and the singer enjoys partying with them at the Chateau Marmont.


But I miss goin' nowhere with you up and down Fairfax
The singer misses mundane activities with their former partner, such as driving up and down Fairfax.


What hurts the most is just how close we got to
The pain of the singer comes from how close they came to what they dreamed of.


To the life we dreamed, now I'm doin' everything without you
The singer is doing everything they planned with their former partner, but without them.


If it was up to me, I'd be with you every night
The singer wishes they could be with their former partner every night.


If it was up to me, I'd let you win every fight
The singer would let their former partner win every argument.


If it was up to me, you would still, still be mine
If the choice were up to the singer, their former partner would still be theirs.


But it wasn't up to me, up to me
However, the decision to break up was not solely up to the singer.


I got my first check, you always said I'd make it
The singer has received their first payment, which their former partner had believed they would receive.


Have you heard they're playin' LANY on the radio?
The singer's song is being played on the radio.


Wish you were with me celebratin' out in Malibu
The singer wishes their former partner could celebrate with them in Malibu.


I'm not sayin' that my girl's not amazin'
The singer acknowledges that their new girlfriend is amazing.


I keep lookin' for a problem but there's nothin' wrong
The singer is looking for flaws in their current relationship but cannot find anything wrong with it.


The only problem is I can't turn her into you
The only issue is that the singer cannot make their new girlfriend into their former partner.


If it was up to me, ink your name on my arm
If the decision were up to the singer, they would tattoo their former partner's name on their arm.


If it was up to me, closin' down that corner bar
Closing down the corner bar with their former partner would be the singer's choice.


If it was up to me, you wouldn't have broke my heart
If the decision were up to the singer, their former partner would not have broken their heart.


But it wasn't up to me, up to me
However, the decision to break up was not solely up to the singer.


If it was up to me
The singer is repeating their longing for what could have been.


If it was up to me
The singer continues to express what they wish could have happened.


If it was up to me
The singer repeats that they have no control over the situation.


If it was up to me
The singer concludes that they are unable to change the past.




Lyrics © Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd.
Written by: David Hodges, Paul Klein, Whakaio Taahi

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