Zeph's debut single Forever & Always was released in 2018. In the year 2021 she released her first official EP 'Scared of Everything'.
Other EPs are 'goodnight moon (demos)', 'ache (demos)', and 'crush (demos)', which all include demos of short songs she originally posted on platforms such as youtube and soundcloud. While her spotify has few things from Zeph, she has compiled a playlist on her youtube channel titled 'little songs by me' which include a few short songs and demos of songs she has yet to release a full version of.
could you love me while i hate myself
Zeph Lyrics
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Could you love me though I don't deserve it
Could you love me like there's no one else
Even though you know I can't return it
Could you love me when the water's rough
Or when I leave you in a desert
Could you love me though I speak with knives
Knowing all too well that you'll get hurt
If you can't answer yes, just go
I'm more trouble than I'm worth
Could you love me while I hate myself
Because I don't know how this works
I never learned how this works
The lyrics in Zeph's song "Could you love me while I hate myself" depict a sense of vulnerability and self-doubt. The singer is questioning if their partner can love them despite their own self-hatred and undeservingness. They also express a fear of hurting their partner unintentionally, as they speak with knives, which suggests that their words can be sharp and pierce through emotions. However, the singer also recognizes that if their partner cannot answer yes to their question, they are more trouble than they are worth, which shows a level of self-awareness.
The overall theme of the lyrics is the struggle to love oneself and question if it affects the ability to be loved by others. This is a common feeling that many people experience and can relate to. The singer's vulnerability and honesty make the song even more resonating. It is important to note that the lyrics do not provide a clear answer, leaving room for interpretation and personal reflection.
Line by Line Meaning
Could you love me while I hate myself
Can you continue to love me even when I despise myself?
Could you love me though I don't deserve it
Is your love for me unconditional, even when I feel unworthy of it?
Could you love me like there's no one else
Can you love me with an intensity and devotion that rivals that of any other love?
Even though you know I can't return it
Are you still willing to love me, despite the fact that I may not be able to love you back?
Could you love me when the water's rough
Will you still love me during tough times, even when things feel tumultuous like rough waters?
Or when I leave you in a desert
Are you able to love me even when I abandon you in a barren, lonely place?
Could you love me though I speak with knives
Can you still love me even when I say hurtful things that may wound you?
Knowing all too well that you'll get hurt
Are you aware that my words may hurt you, but are you willing to love me anyway?
If you can't answer yes, just go
If you cannot love me through all of these challenges, then perhaps it is best for you to leave.
I'm more trouble than I'm worth
I understand that I may be a difficult person to love and that my flaws may make me undeserving of love.
Could you love me while I hate myself
Once again, can you love me through my own self-hatred and loathing?
Because I don't know how this works
My personal issues make it difficult for me to understand how love truly works and how to reciprocate it.
Writer(s): Zephani Jong
Contributed by Evelyn O. Suggest a correction in the comments below.