The music of $uicideBoy$ varies between different sub-genres of rap; while some songs have melancholy tones with lyrical content that focuses on subjects such as depression and suicidal ideation (topics not widely exposed in rap music), others are wildly aggressive, with themes of violence and sexual content. Some of their music is based around life growing up in New Orleans; song titles such as Audubon, Tulane, Elysian Fields and St. Bernard reflect streets and neighborhoods that influenced the life of Arceneaux and Petrou. A large portion of their music focuses on depression and its symptoms, an angle not often received in mainstream hip hop; Arceneaux elaborated on this in an interview with Mass Appeal, stating, “A lot of people take it as emo, or depressed music, or negative music... it’s really just connecting. It’s therapy, through music". Excluding occasional guest producers, the entirety of Suicideboys' discography is self-produced, mainly by Arceneaux under his pseudonym Budd Dwyer (an homage to the former politician of the same name).
$crim was born Scott Arceneaux Jr. on April 11, 1989 in Marrero, Louisiana. Arceneaux originally was inspired by T-Pain and Kanye West to produce music, buying his first laptop which he used to start DJing with money gained from selling drugs. Arceneaux's passion for DJing extended when he started to attend Delgado Community College, where he was hired to DJ parties. He also worked selling used furniture, getting fired for his new hand tattoos after three years.
Ruby da Cherry was born Aristos Petrou (Αρίστος Πέτρου) on April 22, 1990 to an American mother and Greek Cypriot father. Raised in Metairie, Louisiana, Petrou's interest in music began when he was seven, playing violin and then drums when he was ten, eventually joining bands in middle school. He worked at his father's restaurant as a waiter, a job he held until 2015. His experience with the punk rock scene continued as he joined the band Vapo-Rats as its drummer; however, disillusioned with the apathy his bandmates showed towards the future of the band, Petrou left in order to pursue a career in hip-hop with Arceneaux.
Arceneaux and Petrou are cousins, and as such shared a close relationship growing up. Realising that both were interested in taking a musical career seriously, and both dissatisfied with the direction of their lives, the two formed Suicideboys, making a pact that if their musical career didn’t work out, they would both commit suicide. Elaborating on this in an interview with Mass Appeal, Arceneaux states that, “it was pretty much like cutting the hand, bleeding, and making a pact that there’s no plan B, that if this doesn’t happen by the time we’re 30, I’m blowing my head off”.
The duo's first project together, a three-track EP named Kill Yourself Part I: The $uicide $aga, was released in June 2014 on SoundCloud and Bandcamp, attracting attention for their collaboration with notable underground rapper Bones. In the following months, the duo released a further nine iterations of the Kill Yourself series. After a number of collaboration EPs with fellow underground artist Black Smurf, their first full length project titled Gray/Grey was released on March 3, 2015.
Suicideboys' underground breakthrough came with the release of 2015 EP $outh $ide $uicide, a collaboration with established South Florida rapper Pouya, which thrust the duo into the underground rap spotlight. Other 2015 releases include 7th or St. Tammany, YUNGDEATHLILLIFE, High Tide in the Snake's Nest, Grey Sheep EP, I No Longer Fear The Razor Guarding My Heel (part I and II), My Liver Will Handle What My Heart Can't, Now The Moon's Rising and G.R.E.Y.G.O.D.S. with fellow g59 rapper RAMIREZ.
The duo's first foray onto the mainstream musical charts came with the release of Radical $uicide in the summer of 2016. The five-track EP, produced by EDM musician Getter, peaked at number 17 on the Billboard Rap charts. Other 2016 releases include Dark Side of the Clouds, Grey Sheep II, Eternal Grey, I No Longer Fear The Razor Guarding My Heel (part III), G.R.E.Y.G.O.D.S.I.I. with [artis]RAMIREZ, DIRTYNASTY$UICIDE with GERM, and Black $uicide Side C with Black Smurf.
In 2017 the boys released another 10 iterations of the Kill Yourself series, they also dropped DIRTIERNASTIER$UICIDE, with GERM.
On September 7, 2018, their debut studio album I Want to Die in New Orleans was released. A statement posted by the duo's official Instagram account stated, "We started recording this album in the beginning of 2017. Initially we wanted to write about our experiences on the road and express how our lives had become slightly more extravagant."
In late 2018, a rumor arose that the group had broken up following a series of ominous tweets. However, they soon clarified that the tweets were in relation to "personal issues" facing Arceneaux, and that they had in fact not broken up.
FORGET IT
$uicideboy$ Lyrics
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I just wanna see you for a minute
My minds been lost for a minute
For a minute, for a minute
Can't tell you what's goin' on
Don't know what I'm feelin'
Money comes and goes
Every time I go to sleep I dream of you
Every time I close my eyes I just see you
Inside of my heart
I been feelin' through
Rehab after rehab
Come home just to relapse
If it was a choice all these drugs would be through
But it's just so much deeper (yeah)
Carry too much baggage on my people
Even though I love you
Fill the, fill the void, fill the void, fill the void
Even though I love you
Smile at my casket
I'm at peace at my death
And I know it's just another sad song
May or may not sing along
And I know it's just another sad song
May or may not sing along
I'm not livin' life this way
I don't care about the fame
I don't care about the pain
I just wanna see you for a minute
Baby, I'm sorry that I'm finished
Don't know why you left
(H-E-R-O-I-N)
(H-E-R-O-I-N-E)
But you always come back, so
I'll give you back whatever is left in my chest
(N-O-H-E-A-R-T)
(N-O-H-E-A-R-T)
Prolly go broke givin' into false hope
Choke, chokin' from the vomit in my throat
I was too knocked out to notice
Overdose into a comatose
Be my, be my fuckin' slogan
I'm fuckin' broken
I'm fuckin' broken again and I know never to forget
My foes my friends are the same in the end
I hope I regret leavin' both when I am dead
All of the money and fame
Are only fleetin' ways to counteract my shame
All the drugs and bitches that I gain
Are only fleetin' ways to counteract my shame
I'm so lame
Everyday is the same (it's the same)
I'm goin' insane (goin' insane)
And nothin' ever changes, I hate it
I gotta get out my own way
Find a better way
Find a better way
The song "Forget it" by $uicideboy$ is a melancholic tune that explores themes of addiction, heartbreak, and regret. The opening lines of the song, "Pull the trigger, Budd Dwyer, hahaha" refer to the infamous public suicide of Pennsylvania State Treasurer R. Budd Dwyer, who shot himself in front of the media in 1987. This sets the tone for the song's dark and depressing nature, as the artists struggle with their own demons and self-destructive behavior.
The lyrics then shift to the artist's longing for someone or something in their life. They are lost and can't figure out their feelings, with drug addiction being a constant issue for them. They dream of their love interest while carrying a lot of baggage and struggling to overcome their addiction. The chorus repeats the idea that the artist just wants to see their beloved one for a minute and apologizes for failing.
The second verse delves deeper into the artist's addiction struggles, as they have lost everything and desire to find a better way. The lyrics paint a bleak picture of hopelessness and despair, with references to heroin and the emptiness they feel. They feel broken and alone, and even though they have achieved fame and success, they struggle to find meaning in their life. The song ends with the artists expressing their hope to find a better way and ultimately overcome their addiction.
Line by Line Meaning
Pull the trigger, Budd Dwyer, hahaha
Laughing while referring to a politician's public suicide by gunshot.
I just wanna see you for a minute
Expressing the longing to see someone for a brief period of time.
My minds been lost for a minute
Acknowledging a sense of disorientation or confusion.
For a minute, for a minute
Reiterating the brief period of time being referred to.
Can't tell you what's goin' on
Admitting that the situation is confusing and hard to explain.
Don't know what I'm feelin'
Expressing a lack of understanding or clarity about personal emotions.
Money comes and goes
Acknowledging the cyclic nature of financial gain and loss.
Save a few, spend a few
Describing a balanced approach to managing finances.
Every time I go to sleep I dream of you
Revealing that someone is frequently on the artist's mind.
Every time I close my eyes I just see you
Further emphasizing the persistent thoughts of a specific person.
Inside of my heart
Reflecting on personal emotions and feelings.
I been feelin' through
Continuing to explore one's own emotions and how they affect the artist.
Rehab after rehab
Admitting that personal struggles with addiction have necessitated multiple periods of rehabilitation.
Come home just to relapse
Acknowledging the difficulty of returning to one's home environment after treatment for addiction.
If it was a choice all these drugs would be through
Reflecting on the struggle to overcome addiction, and acknowledging that it is not a simple choice.
But it's just so much deeper (yeah)
Implying that there are underlying factors that make overcoming addiction and substance abuse a difficult task.
Carry too much baggage on my people
Acknowledging the impact that one's own personal struggles can have on friends and loved ones.
Even though I love you
Reaffirming that love is still present, despite personal struggles.
Fill the, fill the void, fill the void, fill the void
Expressing a desire to fill an inner emptiness or void.
Smile at my casket
Being at peace with the inevitability of one's own death.
I'm at peace at my death
Further emphasizing the artist's sense of calm towards the idea of their own mortality.
And I know it's just another sad song
Acknowledging that the message being conveyed is likely to be perceived as melancholy or depressing.
May or may not sing along
Reflecting on the potential response of listeners to the sad tone of the song.
I'm not livin' life this way
Acknowledging that current circumstances and actions are unsatisfactory.
I don't care about the fame
Expressing a lack of interest in acquiring a public persona or notoriety.
I don't care about the pain
Acknowledging that personal struggles and hardship have become numbing or unimportant.
Baby, I'm sorry that I'm finished
Expressing regret or remorse for a relationship that has ended.
Don't know why you left
Expressing confusion or lack of understanding about the reason for a relationship ending.
(H-E-R-O-I-N)
Spelling out a drug name commonly associated with addiction and substance abuse.
(H-E-R-O-I-N-E)
Spelling out the gendered version of the drug name.
But you always come back, so
Reflecting on the cyclical nature of addiction and drug abuse.
I'll give you back whatever is left in my chest
Describing the artist's willingness to give all that they have left to an addiction that has taken so much.
(N-O-H-E-A-R-T)
Spelling out the idea that the artist has lost their empathy or emotional capacity for others.
(N-O-H-E-A-R-T)
Repeating the idea for emphasis.
Prolly go broke givin' into false hope
Acknowledging the futile nature of feeding an addiction that cannot be overcome.
Choke, chokin' from the vomit in my throat
Describing the physical toll that addiction and substance abuse can take on one's body.
I was too knocked out to notice
Reflecting on the disorienting effects of drug abuse and addiction.
Overdose into a comatose
Describing the dangerous and potentially fatal consequences of drug abuse.
Be my, be my fuckin' slogan
Reflecting on the way that addiction can monopolize one's thoughts and actions.
I'm fuckin' broken
Acknowledging the emotional damage caused by addiction and substance abuse.
I'm fuckin' broken again and I know never to forget
Reflecting on the cyclic nature of addiction and the importance of remaining vigilant in recovery.
My foes my friends are the same in the end
Acknowledging the fluidity of personal relationships and the way that they can shift over time.
I hope I regret leavin' both when I am dead
Expressing remorse for potentially leaving personal relationships in a negative state at the end of life.
All of the money and fame
Reflecting on the emptiness of external achievements without personal fulfillment.
Are only fleetin' ways to counteract my shame
Acknowledging that external achievements can only temporarily alleviate internal emotional struggles.
All the drugs and bitches that I gain
Reflecting on the way that addiction and substance abuse can lead to unhealthy personal relationships.
Are only fleetin' ways to counteract my shame
Repeating the previous statement for emphasis.
I'm so lame
Expressing self-deprecation and a sense of personal inadequacy.
Everyday is the same (it's the same)
Reflecting on the monotony of life amidst personal struggles and substance abuse issues.
I'm goin' insane (goin' insane)
Acknowledging the psychological toll of continued substance abuse and addiction.
And nothin' ever changes, I hate it
Expressing frustration and hopelessness in the face of continued struggle.
I gotta get out my own way
Acknowledging the internal, personal nature of addiction and the importance of actively taking steps towards recovery.
Find a better way
Acknowledging the need for a new approach, one that leads to long-term recovery rather than temporary relief.
Lyrics © Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd.
Written by: Aristos Petrou, Scott Arceneaux
Lyrics Licensed & Provided by LyricFind
@trash9005
"this song may be about suicide or self-harm" and you know this is fire
@brokenmentality
They overlook the fact that $B's music helps someone move on in life.
@Edcdrugs36
@@brokenmentality for fucking real
@mauriciodiaz7322
Ong i mean I even have the number saved in my contacts
@Mahoyage
lit my fav type of song
@trash9005
Holy shit, when did this get so much likes
@L0ner999
Bro when the suicide hotline is at the bottom you know it's a banger
@doctorx2307
Lmaooo
@RIPEm-iy3jx
lmao
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