Lost
1.9.9.9 Lyrics
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I just wanna be by your side
Oh, oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh, oh
Raspa Beats, Beats
Looks like I'm lost again
I don't wanna be living in pretend
Now I'm feeling like my mind is always turning
My world is always swirling
I don't know where to go
Guess I'm lost inside the dark
I can't even see the light
I'm trying to just keep my head up high
But at least thoughts of suicide get my mind always going right
Now I just try to keep the fight alive, alive
I don't wanna be up in my grave
I don't wanna be the same
I don't wanna be insane
I don't wanna feel this pain
I guess I gotta take a stand
But I'm going, going through this
I just thought that I could be normal
But what's normal in this game of life
I don't wanna be victim
To these demons, I'm lost again
Don't let me fall down
Don't let me be all alone
Don't let me be all alone
Don't let me fall on my face
I don't know if you see my pain
I don't know if you feel the same
Feel like I'm just running through my brain
Going insane
Trying to numb the pain of the past
It is never gonna last
Pain in my heart, man, I'm falling right apart
But they don't understand it
I'm going again
They don't understand it
I'm running to the end
I'm running to the end
I'm running, trying to find my way
Trying to go back
Trying to stay strong
But I'm just falling back
I'm puffing on that bong
I'm hating my life
I'm so alone
I'm lost again
Lost again
Don't let these demons take me over
I can't go back
"Lost" by 1.9.9.9 is a song that explores the theme of drug addiction and its dire effects on a person's mental and physical health. The song starts with the artist waking up from a bad dream, and as he narrates his story, it becomes evident that he is struggling with addiction. He talks about seeing shadows and hearing a voice calling out to him, which could be hallucinations caused by the drugs. He admits to having lost his sanity and being dependent on morphine and saline. The chorus keeps reiterating the same lines, emphasizing that the singer is stuck in a vicious cycle of addiction and cannot find a way out.
Throughout the song, the artist seems to be calling out for help, with lines like "Listen to my voice, I'm speaking loud and clear," and "If you're far away, just work your way over here." He craves for a way to escape, but at the same time, he is unsure and hesitant, asking himself whether he should reveal his secret or not. The last verse of the song reveals that he has given up on trying to escape and is resigned to his fate. He chooses to numb himself by indulging in more drugs and states, "So I guess I'll do them both we'll be in hell soon."
Overall, the song is a poignant commentary on addiction and how it can consume a person's life entirely. The vivid imagery used in the lyrics, coupled with the evocative music, makes for a powerful track that leaves a lasting impact.
Line by Line Meaning
Woke up from a bad dream, I told you my story
I had a nightmare and I confided in you about my troubles.
Talked about the bad things, visions getting blurry
I discussed the negative things happening to me and my vision became unclear.
Wasted off the lean, devil was appearing
Under the influence of drugs, I felt like the devil was present.
Started seeing shadows in my room her name was calling
I hallucinated and heard a voice calling out a name in my room.
I had my eyes closed, I sit in sorrow
I am sad and overwhelmed, keeping my eyes closed in despair.
Took to many drugs and hope I wake up tomorrow
I consumed an excessive amount of drugs and hope to survive and live until the next day.
I lost my sanity, gave it to xannies
I became insane and addicted to benzodiazepines.
Now I've got dependency to morphine and saline
I am now addicted to morphine and saline.
Listen to my voice, I'm speaking loud and clear
Pay attention to me, I am speaking in a clear and direct manner.
If you're far away, just work your way over here
If you are distant, find a way to come be close to me.
I've got a little secret something that I hold near and dear
I have a personal secret that is important and valuable to me.
But I don't know if I should tell you serpents starting to appear
I am hesitant to share my secret, as I am starting to sense deceit or betrayal from others.
I've got a couple pints poured up in the next room
I have a couple of pints of alcohol ready in the next room.
I've got a couple blunts rolled up in the next room
I have a couple of marijuana joints rolled up in the next room.
What kind of high am I searching for, I couldn't tell you
I am unsure of what kind of feeling or experience I am seeking through my drug use.
So I guess I'll do them both we'll be in hell soon
I am resigned to try both drugs at once and anticipate negative consequences.
The devil is fighting me, uh huh
I feel like I am struggling against evil forces.
Demons inside of me, uh huh
I believe that there are negative and harmful entities or emotions within me.
They're speaking in spite of me, uh huh
These demons are working against me and causing harm or suffering.
Their voice like a symphony, uh huh
These negative feelings or entities are unified and harmonious.
Ohh, ohh (uhh, uhh)
Vocalizations of emotion and feeling.
Lyrics © DistroKid
Written by: Hunter Ness
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