So Many Tears
2Pac Lyrics
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Though I walk through the valley of death
I shed so many tears (if I should die before I wake)
Please God, walk with me (grab a nigga and take me to Heaven)
Back in elementary, I thrived on misery
Left me alone, I grew up amongst a dyin' breed
Inside my mind, couldn't find a place to rest
Tell me, can you feel me? I'm not livin' in the past
You wanna last? Be the first to blast
Remember Kato, no longer with us, he's deceased
Call on the sirens, seen him murdered in the streets
Now rest in peace
Is there a heaven for a G? Remember me
So many homies in the cemetery, shed so many tears
Ah, I suffered through the years, and shed so many tears
Lord, I lost so many peers, and shed so many tears
Now that I'm strugglin' in this business, by any means
Label me greedy gettin' green, but seldom seen
And fuck the world 'cause I'm cursed, I'm havin' visions
Of leavin" here in a hearse, God ,can you feel me?
Take me away from all the pressure, and all the pain
Show me some happiness again, I'm goin' blind
I spend my time in this cell, ain't livin' well
I know my destiny is Hell, where did I fail?
My life is in denial, and when I die
Baptized in eternal fire, I'll shed so many tears
Lord, I suffered through the years, and shed so many tears
Lord, I lost so many peers, and shed so many tears
Now I'm lost and I'm weary, so many tears
I'm suicidal, so don't stand near me
My every move is a calculated step to bring me closer
To embrace an early death, now there's nothin' left
There was no mercy on the streets, I couldn't rest
I'm barely standin', bout to go to pieces, screamin', "peace"
And though my soul was deleted, I couldn't see it
I had my mind full of demons tryin' to break free
They planted seeds and they hatched, sparkin' the flame
Inside my brain like a match, such a dirty game
No memories, just a misery
Paintin' a picture of my enemies killin' me in my sleep
Will I survive til the mornin' to see the sun?
Please Lord, forgive me for my sins, 'cause here I come
Lord, I suffered through the years (God) and shed so many tears
God, I lost so many peers, and
Lord knows I tried, been a witness to homicide
Seen drive-bys takin' lives, little kids die
Wonder why as I walk by
Broken-hearted as I glance at the chalk line, gettin' high
This ain't the life for me, I wanna change
But ain't no future right for me, I'm stuck in the game
I'm trapped inside a maze
See this Tanqueray influenced me to gettin' crazy
Disillusioned lately, I've been really wantin' babies
So I could see a part of me that wasn't always shady
Don't trust my lady, 'cause she's a product of this poison
I'm hearin' noises, think she's fuckin' all my boys, can't take no more
I'm fallin' to the floor, beggin' for the Lord to let me in
To Heaven's door, shed so many tears (dear God, please let me in)
Lord, I've lost so many years, and shed so many tears
I lost so many peers, and shed so many tears
Lord, I suffered through the years, and shed so many tears
God, I lost so many peers, and shed so many tears
The opening lines to So Many Tears by 2Pac are powerful and demonstrate his faith in God despite his many struggles. The lyrics progress to delve into the hardships he personally faced growing up, including losing friends and facing danger on the streets. He also explores his current struggles in the music industry, where he has become a victim of greed while struggling with personal demons that led him to contemplate death.
Throughout the song, 2Pac continuously emphasizes the pain in his life that he has had to endure. He points out the irony of his Thug Life tattoo being a testament to his reputation despite his wishes to move towards a better life. Additionally, the numerous references to death, including Kato's murder and his desire to be taken to Heaven, only cement the feeling of mortality that is prevalent in the song.
Line by Line Meaning
I shall not fear no man but God
I fear only God and no human being
Though I walk through the valley of death
Even in the face of danger, I will stay strong
I shed so many tears (if I should die before I wake)
I have cried so much and fear that I might die soon
Please God, walk with me (grab a nigga and take me to Heaven)
God, please guide me and take me to heaven if I die
Back in elementary, I thrived on misery
I grew up in a sad environment and it affected me gravely
Left me alone, I grew up amongst a dyin' breed
I was abandoned and grew up in a community that was doomed
Inside my mind, couldn't find a place to rest
My mind was troubled and I couldn't find inner peace
Until I got that Thug Life tatted on my chest
I found solace in adopting a tough and rebellious lifestyle
Tell me, can you feel me? I'm not livin' in the past
Do you understand my pain? I don't dwell on the past
You wanna last? Be the first to blast
To survive, you must react aggressively and quickly
Remember Kato, no longer with us, he's deceased
I remember Kato, who has passed away and is no longer with us
Call on the sirens, seen him murdered in the streets
I witnessed Kato being killed on the streets and called for help
Now rest in peace
May Kato find peace in death
Is there a heaven for a G? Remember me
Is there a place in heaven for a gangster like me? Don't forget me
So many homies in the cemetery, shed so many tears
I have lost many of my friends and shed countless tears for them
Now that I'm strugglin' in this business, by any means
As I face difficulties in the music industry, I will do whatever it takes
Label me greedy gettin' green, but seldom seen
People call me greedy for making money, yet they rarely see me
And fuck the world 'cause I'm cursed, I'm havin' visions
I feel cursed by the world and have disturbing premonitions
Of leavin' here in a hearse, God, can you feel me?
I fear I will die and want God's guidance and empathy
Take me away from all the pressure, and all the pain
I want to escape from the stresses and hurt of life
Show me some happiness again, I'm goin' blind
I yearn for happiness and clarity in my life
I spend my time in this cell, ain't livin' well
I'm trapped in jail and my life is in shambles
I know my destiny is Hell, where did I fail?
I feel like I'm doomed to go to Hell, but I don't know why
My life is in denial, and when I die
I'm in denial about my life, and I'm scared of death
Baptized in eternal fire, I'll shed so many tears
If I go to hell, I will be in eternal pain and cry so much
Now I'm lost and I'm weary, so many tears
I'm lost and tired, and I've cried so much
I'm suicidal, so don't stand near me
I'm contemplating suicide, so stay away from me
My every move is a calculated step to bring me closer
I'm intentionally moving towards death
To embrace an early death, now there's nothin' left
I'm ready to die, and I feel like I have nothing to live for
There was no mercy on the streets, I couldn't rest
The streets were ruthless, and I couldn't find peace
I'm barely standin', bout to go to pieces, screamin' 'peace'
I'm on the verge of breaking down, and I long for peace
And though my soul was deleted, I couldn't see it
I lost my soul and my identity, but I was unaware
I had my mind full of demons tryin' to break free
I had demons in my mind that were taking over
They planted seeds and they hatched, sparkin' the flame
The demons inside me grew and ignited a fire
Inside my brain like a match, such a dirty game
My head felt like a bomb ready to explode, it was a nasty game
No memories, just a misery
I have no happy memories, only pain and sadness
Paintin' a picture of my enemies killin' me in my sleep
I imagine my enemies murdering me in my sleep
Will I survive til the mornin' to see the sun?
I wonder if I'll live to see the next day
Please Lord, forgive me for my sins, 'cause here I come
I ask God to pardon me for my wrongs as death approaches
Lord knows I tried, been a witness to homicide
God knows I tried my best, but I've seen people get killed
Seen drive-bys takin' lives, little kids die
I witnessed innocent people, including children, being killed by drive-by shootings
Wonder why as I walk by
I wonder why these tragedies happen as I pass by
Broken-hearted as I glance at the chalk line, gettin' high
I feel sad as I see the outline of a body on the ground and turn to drugs for comfort
This ain't the life for me, I wanna change
I don't want this life, I want something different
But ain't no future right for me, I'm stuck in the game
There is no promising future for me; I'm trapped in the cycle of crime and violence
I'm trapped inside a maze
I feel like I'm in a never-ending maze
See this Tanqueray influenced me to gettin' crazy
Alcohol made me act out and lose my mind
Disillusioned lately, I've been really wantin' babies
I've been disillusioned and now want a family
So I could see a part of me that wasn't always shady
I want a family to see a better side of myself that isn't tainted by my past
Don't trust my lady, 'cause she's a product of this poison
I don't trust my girlfriend because she's been influenced by the negative environment around us
I'm hearin' noises, think she's fuckin' all my boys, can't take no more
I hear rumors that my girlfriend is cheating on me with my friends, and I can't handle it
I'm fallin' to the floor, beggin' for the Lord to let me in
I collapse and pray for God to let me into heaven
To Heaven's door, shed so many tears (dear God, please let me in)
I've cried countless tears and beg for God's mercy to let me into heaven
Lord, I've lost so many years, and shed so many tears
I've lost so many years and cried so many tears
God, I lost so many peers, and
God, I lost so many friends and associates, and...
Lord knows I tried, been a witness to homicide
God knows I tried my best, but I've seen people get killed
Seen drive-bys takin' lives, little kids die
I witnessed innocent people, including children, being killed by drive-by shootings
Wonder why as I walk by
I wonder why these tragedies happen as I pass by
Broken-hearted as I glance at the chalk line, gettin' high
I feel sad as I see the outline of a body on the ground and turn to drugs for comfort
This ain't the life for me, I wanna change
I don't want this life, I want something different
But ain't no future right for me, I'm stuck in the game
There is no promising future for me; I'm trapped in the cycle of crime and violence
I'm trapped inside a maze
I feel like I'm in a never-ending maze
See this Tanqueray influenced me to gettin' crazy
Alcohol made me act out and lose my mind
Disillusioned lately, I've been really wantin' babies
I've been disillusioned and now want a family
So I could see a part of me that wasn't always shady
I want a family to see a better side of myself that isn't tainted by my past
Don't trust my lady, 'cause she's a product of this poison
I don't trust my girlfriend because she's been influenced by the negative environment around us
I'm hearin' noises, think she's fuckin' all my boys, can't take no more
I hear rumors that my girlfriend is cheating on me with my friends, and I can't handle it
I'm fallin' to the floor, beggin' for the Lord to let me in
I collapse and pray for God to let me into heaven
To Heaven's door, shed so many tears (dear God, please let me in)
I've cried countless tears and beg for God's mercy to let me into heaven
Lord, I've lost so many years, and shed so many tears
I've lost so many years and cried so many tears
God, I lost so many peers, and shed so many tears
God, I lost so many friends and associates, and cried so many tears
Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group, Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC, Anthem Entertainment, Missing Link Music
Written by: Stevie Wonder, Eric Baker, Gregory Jacobs, Tupac Shakur
Lyrics Licensed & Provided by LyricFind
A.Bosconian
I am not afraid of anything or anyone other than God.
Even when I am in the darkest of times and places.
I have cried so many tears because of the pain and hardships I have faced in my life.
I ask God to guide me and be with me in my journey through life.
Even as a child in elementary school, I found myself attracted to and surrounded by sadness and hopelessness.
I was abandoned and grew up among a generation of people who were doomed to fail.
My mind was constantly struggling, and I could not find a sense of peace or comfort anywhere.
I found a sense of identity and belonging when I got the tattoo of 'Thug Life' on my chest.
Do you understand the struggles and pain that I have experienced in my life?
I am not dwelling on my past mistakes, and if you want to be successful, you shouldn't be either.
In order to defend yourself and your community from violence, you must be the first one to take action. We should never forget Kato, who was killed due to senseless violence.
Kato is no longer with us and has passed away.
I witnessed violent crimes, and I've seen the aftermath of people being killed on the streets.
I hope Kato, and all those who have passed before him, are resting in peace.
Is there a place in heaven for someone like me, who has lived a life of violence and crime?
Remember me and all of my friends who have died and are now buried in the cemetery.
I address God.
I have experienced a lot of suffering throughout my life.
I have cried so many tears because of the pain and hardships I have faced in my life.
Now that I am struggling in the music industry.
I will do whatever it takes to succeed, even if it means being labeled as greedy and only focused on making money.
Even though I am chasing success, I rarely get to enjoy it or be seen by others.
I feel cursed and have a negative outlook on the world.
I am having visions of dying and leaving this world in a coffin.
I ask God if he can understand what I am going through and help me.
I want to be relieved of all the stress and suffering I feel.
I want to experience happiness again, which has been absent from my life for some time.
I feel like I am losing sight of what's important in my life.
I feel trapped in my current situation, and my quality of life is suffering as a result.
I already feel like I am destined to go to hell, and I question where I went wrong in my life.
I am unable to come to terms with my reality.
When I die, I fear that I will be punished forever in the afterlife.
I feel lost and tired.
I have cried so much that I am now having suicidal thoughts, so please don't be near me.
Everything I do feels like a complicated and difficult step.
To bring me closer to what I want to achieve.
I am prepared to accept death at any moment since I feel like I have nothing to live for.
Things were very rough and merciless on the streets.
I was never able to find peace or rest in that environment.
I am close to falling apart and screaming for peace.
Even though I was empty and lost, I couldn't understand or recognize it at the time.
My mind was plagued with negative thoughts and emotions, which were trying to escape constantly.
The negative thoughts and emotions had been planted long ago and have now taken root, and the flame of negativity is now growing stronger.
Just like a match can light a fire, the negative thoughts in my brain can also do the same, causing pain and suffering.
I have no good memories to comfort me, only sadness and suffering.
I am afraid of being attacked and killed by the people who hate me, even in my sleep.
I wonder if I will survive through the night to see the light of the new day?
I ask God for forgiveness for my past mistakes and wrongdoings.
I am trying to face my problems and come out stronger and better.
The Lord knows I have tried my best, and I have witnessed violent deaths in my community.
Drive-by shootings have resulted in the loss of many lives, including innocent children.
I wonder why these tragedies are happening in my community as I walk around and see the devastation.
I am saddened as I look at the markings on the pavement where someone has been killed, and the only way I can deal with this pain is by getting high.
I understand that this isn't the kind of life that I want for myself, and I want to change it.
I want to change my life for the better.
I feel like there is no future for me, no matter how hard I try to change.
I am trapped in the cycle of crime and violence that exists in my community.
I am lost and confused about how to get out of this situation.
The alcohol has influenced me to act more recklessly and dangerously.
I have lost faith and become cynical about life recently.
I have been wanting to have children and start a family.
I want to see a better version of myself in my children, someone who isn't always involved in negative activities.
I don't fully trust my partner because of the negative influence of our environment.
My partner has also been affected by the negative influences of our environment, and I am hearing strange noises because of how paranoid I am.
I am paranoid that my partner is cheating on me with my friends, and I can't handle the stress anymore.
I am begging God to forgive me and let me into heaven when I die.
I have lost many friends and acquaintances to violence and death.
As a result of these losses, I have cried many tears and experienced a lot of sadness.
I have experienced a lot of pain and suffering throughout my life.
A.Bosconian
The lyrics of Tupac Shakur's song "So Many Tears" explore the themes of paranoia, pain, and death. The first verse of the song presents Tupac's fearlessness of men, but not of God. The rapper then describes his life growing up, where he felt like he was surrounded by misery but found a sense of identity and belonging in the Thug Life culture. He mourns the deaths of his friends, particularly Kato, who was murdered in the streets. Tupac questions to himself whether there is heaven for a "G" and reflects on the many homies who died; that are now in the cemetery.
In the second verse, Tupac reveals his struggles in the music industry, where he feels overwhelmed by the pressure and pain. He admits to being greedy and having a vision of dying young. Tupac requests God to free him from the pain and suffering he experiences in life. The final verse of the song sees Tupac lost, weary, and suicidal. He delves into his struggles with addiction, and he starts to hear voices and experience demons in his mind. Tupac desires to change, but he feels trapped in the game, and he is unsure of his lady's loyalty.
Overall, Tupac Shakur's "So Many Tears" is a poignant song that reflects the artist's tumultuous life and his struggles with death and paranoia. The lyrics also tackle the harsh realities of growing up in the ghetto and the impact that violence and loss have on the psyche of an individual.
@IRANITaabad
Lets look at Tupac's life.
- Spent his childhood running from the FBI due to the actions of the Shakurs. His step father Mutulu Shakur[3] who was on the ten most wanted list for domestic terrorism. His own mother, spent time in prison on a trial for plotting to blow up New York police departments with the infamous panther 21. His God father was geronimo pratt[4] who was targeted by the FBI illegal Cointelpro. And his god mother is Assata Shakur[5] who is also wanted for domestic terrorism, that Tupacs step-dad broke her out of prison and is now living in Cuba. Bush in 2003 put a $1 million reward on her head during the revival of targeting domestic terrorists at the start of the war on terror
- At 16 became the youngest national Chairman of the New African panthers, himself then getting FBI attention. His FBI file, only 104 pages out of 4000 are released to the public, the rest 3896 pages are censored for "National Security".
- Quit the New African Panthers when he believed the Nation of Islam infiltrated it, the next leader after Shakur was surprise surprise, a member of the NOI.
- Got into a constant war of words with the Nation of Islam throughout his rap career. They would follow him everywhere, trying to make it look like they where associated with him. To get his approval, because he was a Shakur. Tupac hated the Nation of Islam because his family where connected to Malcolm X, and his family blame the Nation for his assassination.
- Became famous to the general public when released 2pacalyspe now, becoming the legendary rapper. Immediately denounced by the Vice President Dan Quayle due to its anti-american political content. It was obvious they knew who he was by his second name, even if the average rap fan didn't.
- Gets mentioned by name at the Republican Nation Convention
From the help of Mutulu Shakur from prison, starts a movement entitled "Thug Life". Tupac helps enforce truces between rival gangs, including the bloods and the crips under "Thug Life". The plan was to get them to stop killing each other, unite, police their communities, and eventually fight the government. He was seducing gang bangers and trying to turn them into soldiers. After that his life turns to shit and seems to be getting arrested and targeted by police on a weekly basis, most of which is was baseless, but people only remember him getting arrested, not acquitted. His "out of control" image increases.
- Two Police officers are beating a black motorist. Tupac approaches them and they fire shots at him. Tupac goes back to his car and gets his gun and returns fire, hitting both officers, one in the thigh and one in the buttocks. The charges are dropped against Tupac when it turns out both officers are intoxicated, and the gun they used to fire against Tupac was stolen from an evidence locker. Everyone else just remembers "Tupac shot two cops".
- With the help of Dan Quayle and other Republicans, they persuade family members of slain cops to sue Tupac over his music, stating that his music causes the violence. Seriously, here is even a court video of one of the cases against him in 1995
- The republicans convince Time Warner to drop interscope records due to Tupac being one of their artists.
- Two criminals, Haitian Jack and James "Henchman" Rosemand try to extort Tupac. He tells them to fuck off and ends up on their hit list. Both later turn out to be working for the FBI since the late 80s until the late 90s.
- Haitian Jack (The FBI Agent) introduces Tupac to a woman, the same woman accuses Tupac of rape and sexual assault.
Tupac gets shot by the orders of James Rosemand (another FBI Agent) 5 times in 1994, survives.
- Goes to prison for sexual assault, but found innocent of rape. Released after 11 months when new evidence helping prove his innocence is found. The prosecution states they "lost it" and it was not deliberate.
- The Jewish Defense League (JDL) threaten to kill Tupac due to his familys politics. He tells them to fuck off. This is in Tupacs (released) FBI files.
- Tupac refuses to remain silent about Jimmy Henchman and Haitian Jack, announces them as FBI informers, and publicly humiliates any other rappers being extorted by them, or associated with them (Biggie, Puffy, etc).
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If you're watching this in 2024 you're a legend!
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Timeless! Thug Life Bro!
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@Hermitixlight
Is there a heaven for me...?
I was an emotionally bankrupt adolescent when I was listening to this song.
Now, at the age of 40, am still the same man.
Life is tough man, but hang in there.
There is a heaven somewhere, I/we just haven't found it.
Peace and light be with you.
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