Reload
A.Paul Lyrics

You grew with me from the ground you know you my people
You have been with me since the beginning, and you are like family to me.

Lately I been stressed out fell into a deep whole
Recently, I have been overwhelmed and fallen into a state of deep despair.

I know I ain't been around you don't see me no more
I am aware that I have been absent and you may not see me as often as before.

I ain't tryna bring you down its not you its me bro
I don't intend to bring you down; it's not your fault, it's mine, my friend.

I just need to reload
I simply need to take a break and recharge.

I need to reload
I require time to replenish and rejuvenate myself.

Got way too many problems I ain't tryna freeload
I have numerous issues, but I don't want to burden others with them.

I know you gon hold me down that's cuz you a G bro
I know you will support me and stay loyal to me because you are a genuine friend.

But ima make you proud I just gotta reload
However, I will make you proud, but first, I need to take a break and recharge.

I just need to reloaddd
I simply need to pause and rejuvenate myself.

When I come back bussin that's the end of discussion
When I return with great success, there will be no more doubts or debates.

Now I'm catchin buckets you could hate it you could love it
Now I am achieving great things, and whether you approve or not is up to you.

On a Sunday I try to hit the altar and pray
On Sundays, I make an effort to go to the altar and engage in prayer.

Cuz the Lord knows me well I made lots of mistakes
Because the Lord knows me deeply, I acknowledge I have made numerous errors.

Fell into a deep depression and I altered my state
I descended into a profound state of sadness, which caused me to change.

I built my body to a god but then I lost all the weight
I sculpted my physique to be god-like, but then I lost all the progress.

They say I'm harboring hate
Others claim that I am holding onto resentment.

You see it all in my face
You can observe all my emotions and inner turmoil just by looking at my face.

I think I lost all my faith
I believe I have completely lost my faith and trust in something.

Some of y'all could relate
Some of you may be able to empathize with my situation.

I took a trip while I was running thought it cost me the race
I went on a journey while I was pursuing something, but it felt like it made me lose the competition.

But I was stuck in my ways it had me jogging in place
However, I was trapped in my old habits, which made me feel like I was making no progress.

I had a partner try to help me take my problems away
I had someone who tried to assist me in solving my issues.

But instead I isolated pushed him farther away
Instead, I pushed him away and distanced myself, causing our relationship to become more strained.

They say its harder to change when you get larger in age
It is said that it becomes more challenging to change as you grow older.

Gotta deal with wins and losses that's just part of the game
One must confront both victories and defeats because that's an inherent part of life.

So now I often refrain from thinking thoughts of this pain
Nowadays, I try to avoid dwelling on thoughts that bring me pain.

I learnt lessons cried tears and got washed in the rain
I have learned valuable lessons, shed tears, and felt rejuvenated after being drenched in the rain.

I came back made stacks and we popped that champagne
I returned and achieved great success, leading us to celebrate and open a bottle of champagne.

I know you was routing for me so I'll always do the same
I am aware that you were supporting me, so I will always reciprocate the same level of support.

Yeah I took a couple loses with it all on the line
Yes, I experienced a few defeats when everything was at stake.

Had to go and get it back its all part of the grind
I had to go and regain what I lost because that's part of the hard work and dedication.

I hit you with a stone face but in my heart I was crying
I showed you a stoic expression, but internally, I was overwhelmed with sadness.

Cuz I was running through the maze and got caught in the vines
Because I was navigating through a complex situation but got entangled and stuck.

I really thought I was fine
I genuinely believed that I was okay and handling things well.

Thought I was smart I was blind
I thought I was intelligent, but I was actually unaware or ignorant of certain things.

Repetition turns to habit and the father is time
Repeating actions over time develops into habits, and time serves as the catalyst for this transformation.

I fell into a deep hole that felt farther to climb
I sank into a profound state of despair, which seemed even more difficult to overcome.

But it was all in my mind
However, it was all a creation of my thoughts and perceptions.

I had to start with my spine
I had to begin by addressing the core of my being and making changes from within.

You know I always would ride
You know I would always support and be there for you.

You know the Kar got a drive
You know I have the determination and ambition to succeed.

That's just part of my design
That is simply an inherent aspect of my personality and nature.

Like a star gotta shine
Similar to how a star must radiate light, I too must showcase my brilliance and talents.

Time was rougher than a diamond carved up out of a mine
The passage of time was exceedingly difficult, surpassing the challenges faced while extracting diamonds from a mine.

But I came back polished
Nevertheless, I returned refined and improved.

Need a team to be a baller
In order to be successful, one requires a supportive team behind them.