Clove Smoke Catharsis
AFI Lyrics


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Lean against the night and laugh
As I try to scale the wall
Ignored futility fills the air
You're only there to watch me fall
Watch me fall, watch me

If only pure sweetness was offered
Why's this bitter taste left in my mouth?
And if I could catch my breath
Just to exhale, I'd know that I held it in too long

From above comes a faint smile
A new vantage, such a view
Familiarity, now disowned
Just sit and stare as I walk away
Walk away, watch me

If only pure sweetness was offered
Why's this bitter taste left in my mouth?
If I could catch my breath
Just to exhale, I'd know that I held it in too long

If only pure sweetness was offered
Why's this bitter taste left in my mouth?
If I could catch my breath
Just to exhale, I'd know that I held it in too long

If only pure sweetness was offered
(The bitterness)
Why's this bitter taste left in my mouth?
(Pure sweetness)
If I could catch my breath




(My breath)
Just to exhale, I'd know that I held it in too long

Overall Meaning

The lyrics in AFI's song Clove Smoke Catharsis appear to be about a relationship that has gone sour. The singer is trying to climb a wall, but their efforts are in vain, almost as if they are trying to reach their partner. The partner, however, is seemingly detached, and is only there to watch the singer fall. The bitterness of the situation is evident, as the singer questions why there is not more sweetness offered, and why bitterness is the only taste left in their mouth.


The second verse continues to highlight the broken relationship, as the singer references a "faint smile" from above, perhaps indicating that their partner is amused by the singer's struggle to reach them. The singer no longer feels familiar with their partner, and as they walk away, the partner only sits and stares, rather than making an effort to repair the relationship. The repetition of the chorus emphasizes the singer's frustration and desire for a resolution, while also indicating that they feel as though they have held their breath for too long.


One interpretation of the song could be that it is about a toxic relationship, where one partner is detached and distant, while the other is desperate to make things work. The bitterness mentioned throughout the lyrics could represent the hurt and pain caused by the failed relationship. Overall, the lyrics in Clove Smoke Catharsis are emotional and raw, showcasing the band's ability to delve into complex themes and emotions.


Line by Line Meaning

Lean against the night and laugh
I'm trying so hard to climb over this obstacle, but instead, you just stand there and laugh, like it's a big joke to you.


As I try to scale the wall
I'm attempting to overcome this challenge but I keep encountering setbacks and failures.


Ignored futility fills the air
My efforts are all for nothing, and the feeling of despair is becoming overwhelming.


You're only there to watch me fall
You're not helping me, just standing by idly, waiting for me to mess up.


Watch me fall, watch me
You're enjoying my failures and setbacks, taking pleasure in my pain.


If only pure sweetness was offered
I wish things were easy and uncomplicated, without obstacles or pain or conflict.


Why's this bitter taste left in my mouth?
My experience has been difficult and painful, and I can't quite shake the negative emotions associated with it.


And if I could catch my breath
If I could just pause and take a minute to recover from this hardship.


Just to exhale, I'd know that I held it in too long
I've been holding onto this pain and stress for too long, and I just need to release it and let it go.


From above comes a faint smile
Someone is looking down on my situation, possibly with judgment or contempt.


A new vantage, such a view
This observer has a different perspective or outlook than me, which may be why they're smiling.


Familiarity, now disowned
I'm feeling disconnected from something or someone that was once familiar to me.


Just sit and stare as I walk away
Even though I'm leaving, this person or thing isn't following me or fighting to keep me around.


Walk away, watch me
I'm leaving this situation behind, and their reaction is to observe me leaving and not try to stop me.


If only pure sweetness was offered (The bitterness)
Once again, I'm wishing for an easy, uncomplicated existence but instead, I'm left with bitterness and pain.


Why's this bitter taste left in my mouth? (Pure sweetness)
I don't understand why this situation can't be easy and happy, why I'm always encountering setbacks and hardships.


If I could catch my breath (My breath)
If I could just take a break from all of this adversity, maybe I could start fresh with a better mindset.




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