Farewell
Aburden Lyrics

This isn't something that I want to say
I'm hesitant to share my true feelings about this situation

Around, around, around we go
We keep going in circles with this issue without any resolve

So sick of not being enough for you
I'm tired of feeling like I don't measure up to your standards

If you looked up to me / Feels like I failed you
I feel like I let you down after you once admired me

Maybe I'm not the one / I need something new
Perhaps I'm not the right person for you and I need to move on

I'm just a go-to / Something you once looked up to / Maybe I'm just overthinking this like I always do
To you, I'm just a resource you can rely on, but I tend to overanalyze situations

A subject to the idea of you / I don't take kindly to the truth / I assume this is just another excuse / Like the drugs I abuse / Its my noose / How many times do I have to tell you / It ain't always easy to break loose
I'm trapped by my attachment to you and my vices, and it's difficult for me to confront the reality of our situation

Have you ever thought for just a minute I guess not ?
Have you considered seeing things from my perspective, even for a brief moment? Apparently not.

So there you go I finally found your fucking weak spot
I've discovered your vulnerability and can now use it to my advantage

This isn't for you / I'm not against you
This action I'm taking isn't directed towards you, and I'm not trying to harm you

I'm seduced by two and only two / Now I feel like I'm up for review and / I have something to prove / To you? Well fuck you / I'm seduced by two and only two
I'm caught between two choices and I feel like I'm being evaluated. I have a need to prove myself, but I'm not doing it for you.

Have you ever thought what it would be like / Through my point of view? / Feeling like you have everyone looking up to you / I guess I'm not enough for you / Have you ever thought what it would be like not to be you? / I guess not so there you go I found your weak spot. / I guess I'm not enough for you
Have you ever considered how I feel, given that I'm constantly under scrutiny? It seems like I'm never good enough for you. Have you ever thought about what it's like to be in my shoes, or is that too much to ask?

This isn't something that I want to say (Want to say) / Around around around we go / Around around around we go / So sick of not being enough for you / Around around around we go / Around around around we go
I'm still grappling with vocalizing my thoughts about this, but we're still stuck in this vicious cycle of me feeling inadequate.