Portrait
Aiden Lyrics


Jump to: Overall Meaning ↴  Line by Line Meaning ↴

Two men entered and I thought I was dreaming.
I heard the sounds of what were laughter.
And expected the door to slam off the hinges.
The dark initiates my fear and I tell myself nothing can hurt me.
Nothing can hurt me.
The blanket weighs 300 pounds pinning me on my stomach.
Although my eyes are open, I see nothing but a spiraling glow
that radiates an alarm clock on a nightstand.
Hands are gripping me.
The sheets are twisted, I'm suffocating.
I smell nail polish.
I picture my mother out in the garden
on a spring day planting new strawberry seeds.
The earth aroma as she turns the soil lingers.
And I imagine my life as a princess.
Nothing can hurt me.
It's 5:47 a.m. and the sun looks as though
it's just about to defeat the night sky.
A battle between good and evil
that rages on through centuries unnoticed.
My night gown is tangled above my hips.
I went to sleep with panties on and I smell blood.
My breasts are exposed and sore.
One of them has bite marks.
Blinding light from the bathroom crushes my eyes.
I try to stand up and the weight of the world buckles my knees.
Nothing can hurt me.
The dawn breaks and this veil I carry around for secrecy is about to melt.
Something inside my veins explode.




And I realize I'm not looking at a portrait now.
We are all living in it

Overall Meaning

In the song "Portrait" by Aiden, the artist vividly describes a terrifying experience of being vulnerable, helpless, and violated. The lyrics begin with the singer feeling safe and secure until two men enter, abruptly shattering the calmness. The sounds of laughter that accompany their entry are expected to be friendly, but as they initiate the darkness, fear sets in. Despite being reassured that nothing can hurt themself, a heavy blanket weighs them down, and they see nothing but a spiraling glow of an alarm clock. Suddenly, hands are gripping them, and the sheets twist, suffocating them. A strong smell of nail polish overpowers them, causing them to recall a pleasant memory of their mother planting new strawberry seeds in the garden. As they imagine themselves as a princess and convince themselves that nothing can hurt them, the lyrics take a turn for the worse.


The song's lyrics depicts that in the morning when the sun is about to rise, the new day conjures up a battle between good and evil that has been going on for centuries unnoticed. The singer is woken up to find themselves in a state of undress, with their nightgown tangled above their hips, and their breasts exposed and sore from having bite marks on them. The bathroom's blinding light crushes their eyes, and as they try to stand up, their knees buckle under the weight of the world. However, even in that moment of vulnerability, the singer convinces themself that nothing can hurt them. The dawn breaks, and the veil of secrecy is about to melt away as they realize that they aren't looking at a portrait but living in it.


Overall, "Portrait" is a song that poignantly describes the feeling of vulnerability and the struggle to stay strong in the face of being violated.


Line by Line Meaning

Two men entered and I thought I was dreaming.
I had a dream in which two men appeared and made me think I was still asleep.


I heard the sounds of what were laughter.
I could hear strange noises that sounded like laughter.


And expected the door to slam off the hinges.
I anticipated something violent to happen and imagined that the door would be broken.


The dark initiates my fear and I tell myself nothing can hurt me.
I am scared because it is dark, but I reassure myself that I cannot be harmed.


Nothing can hurt me.
I repeat to myself that I am safe and nothing can hurt me.


The blanket weighs 300 pounds pinning me on my stomach.
I feel trapped and suffocated under the heavy weight of the blanket.


Although my eyes are open, I see nothing but a spiraling glow that radiates an alarm clock on a nightstand.
I am wide awake, but all I can see is a spiral light that comes from an alarm clock nearby.


Hands are gripping me.
I feel hands holding onto me.


The sheets are twisted, I'm suffocating.
The bed sheets are tangled and I am struggling to breathe.


I smell nail polish.
I can smell the strong scent of nail polish.


I picture my mother out in the garden on a spring day planting new strawberry seeds.
I imagine my mother gardening and planting new strawberry seeds.


The earth aroma as she turns the soil lingers.
I can smell the earth and soil as my mother digs and cultivates the garden.


And I imagine my life as a princess.
I daydream about being a princess.


Nothing can hurt me.
I repeat to myself that I am safe and nothing can hurt me.


It's 5:47 a.m. and the sun looks as though it's just about to defeat the night sky.
It's early morning and the sun is beginning to rise, symbolising the end of darkness.


A battle between good and evil that rages on through centuries unnoticed.
I reflect on the never-ending battle between good and evil that goes unnoticed through time.


My night gown is tangled above my hips.
My nightdress is twisted and uncomfortable around my hips.


I went to sleep with panties on and I smell blood.
I realise that I have woken up without my underwear and sense blood around me.


My breasts are exposed and sore.
My chest is uncovered and tender to the touch.


One of them has bite marks.
I see bite marks on my breast and feel violated.


Blinding light from the bathroom crushes my eyes.
I am blinded by the sudden brightness of light coming from the bathroom.


I try to stand up and the weight of the world buckles my knees.
I lose balance as I try to stand up, feeling overwhelmed by a weight that seems too heavy to bear.


Nothing can hurt me.
I repeat to myself that I am safe and nothing can hurt me.


The dawn breaks and this veil I carry around for secrecy is about to melt.
As the sun rises, I realise that my secret will soon come to light and I will have to face the truth.


Something inside my veins explode.
I feel something internal within me explode and change.


And I realize I'm not looking at a portrait now.
I suddenly realise that the dream I had was not just a picture I was looking at, but a real experience that has affected me.


We are all living in it.
We are all part of a bigger picture and everything we do, dream, and feel becomes part of our existence and reality.




Contributed by Annabelle Y. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
To comment on or correct specific content, highlight it

Genre not found
Artist not found
Album not found
Song not found
Comments from YouTube:

V M

I will always love this band.

kub!k

exactly! Every album sounds totally different, and that's what I love about these guys. They could have made 4 "Nightmare Anatomy" albums and made it big, but they chose to do the music they themselves wanted!

Heather Gordon

I feel like there should be more comments on this. Aiden is an amazing band 😄💀🕸️🎃🦇🧡💜🖤

Emma

This band changed a lot from album to album. Just look at Nightmare Anatomy, it's nearly completely different from this in both style and concept. I think their diversity is part of what makes them the Aiden I love.

ClasslessKing

You know what? I miss the old 'Nightmare Anatomy' days, but if they had to go through all of the stylistic changes to get to 'Disguises' and 'Some Kind Of Hate', I'd do it a million times over. GREAT albums.

Lee Bonnar

Still one of my favourite bands! Goth punk I'll called em for years

Leonel Rodriguez

AIDEN ALWAYS IN MY HEART <3

Sammy Raine

I miss Aiden so much 😭

Richard Rojas

This band will always be fucking amazing!

ClasslessKing

The only downside I can see to having two albums out in one year is that we are going to have to wait quite a while for a new album after that. Here's to hoping for another William Control album, as well.

More Comments

More Versions