Shadow
Aina Abdul Lyrics

If I were to steal all the times that you've been given
If I could turn back the clock and relive all the moments you've experienced

I swear I won't waste not even a single moment
I promise I would make the most of every single second

But to be in your arms while we still got the chance
I would give anything to hold you close right now

Cause missing you like this it hurts so bad
Being apart from you is a pain that I can barely handle

I see myself dying every time I watch you goin'
Every time you leave, it feels like a little part of me is dying

But there's nothing I could do to change your last decision
I know deep down that you've made up your mind, and there's nothing I can do to change it

I keep asking myself what I'm doing here?
I can't help but wonder why I'm still holding on when it feels like you're slipping away

Cause things won't go the way I've always wanted
I'm starting to realize that things may not turn out the way I've always hoped they would

You told me that I'm your everything
You made me feel like I was the most important person in the world to you

But why can't you stay and keep fighting for me
I don't understand why you can't put up a fight to keep our love alive

Why
I'm desperately searching for an explanation

Baby
My affectionate term of endearment for you

Guess I'll be living in your shadow
I know that I'll never be able to fully escape the memory of you

Forever you'll be my halo
But at the same time, you'll always have a special place in my heart

I want you
I still want to be with you, despite everything

If I would've missed all the chances we've been given
If I had let any opportunities slip by

Know I'd be living in the world so miserable
My life would be empty and full of sorrow

Yes I am without you
I'm lost and incomplete without you

Yes I do without you
But somehow, I need to find a way to continue living without you

You knew It's gonna hurt me so bad
You were aware that leaving me would cause me immense pain and suffering

But why you keep asking me to stay strong for us
Despite your knowledge of how much I'm hurting, you keep insisting that I remain hopeful and resilient for our love's sake

As if there's still hope for us
But I'm starting to think that the hope for us is fleeting or non-existent

You left me hanging over your text
You left me in suspense and uncertainty with your vague message

I feel like I'd die till the day you're fully mine
The longing and desire for you is so strong that it feels like it could kill me

Why
Once again, I'm searching for answers

Guess I'll be living in your shadow
I can't escape your memory, even if I try

Forever you'll be my halo
But at the same time, you'll always be a symbol of light and hope in my life

Baby you
Despite everything, I still love and care for you deeply