Shadows
Air.K & Cephei Lyrics

You ever just have thoughts
Have you ever experienced the anxiety of having relentless thoughts?

Like thoughts in your head
Thoughts that are constantly whirling in your mind?

When you wish you was dead
When you reach a point where death seems the only escape from your problems?

Think of the shit that these people done said
Recall the words and actions of people who have hurt you?

Flows through your mind, what's the concept of time
These thoughts keep flowing through your mind, and you question the very concept of time?

Everytime that I cry heard the demons instead
Instead of finding relief in crying, you hear the voice of your inner demons?

Demons leaning, creeping, pushing me down to the deep end
The demons within are pushing me towards the abyss?

Hold me down, what is love, what's the meaning
These demons are weighing me down, and I wonder about the meaning of love?

I don't know and you won't either so just leave it
I am clueless about the meaning of love, and there is no point in seeking an answer?

Life flashes in my eyes like a sequence
Life sometimes feels like a series of flashing images?

Or a movie
Like it's all just a movie and I am a passive viewer?

Lately my mind making me choose
Recently, my mind is constantly pushing me to choose between living or dying?

Between wether to live or die it's confusing
I'm confused about whether living or dying is the right choice for me?

Putting my pain and my heart into this music
I channel my pain and emotions into my music to find an outlet?

Only reason why my ass ain't lose it yet
Music is the only thing that is keeping me from going crazy?

I've been scheming but I'm not getting even
Although I plan my revenge, I never act on it?

It's darkness inside me, that shit don't mean I'm a demon
The dark thoughts inside me don't necessarily make me a demon?

I'm no angel either so I'm just in between then
I'm neither a good person nor a bad person - I'm just in between?

I don't need a halo, no horns or no wings
I don't need any symbols to define me as a person?

My g you must tripping
My friend, you must be mistaken?

I pull up on the scene, I got good intentions
I come with good intentions wherever I go?

Forgetting you dudes like I got dementia
I forget about people who hurt me, as if I have dementia?

Erase all my pain with a pad and a pencil
Writing helps me release all my pain and emotions?

I know I'm fucked up and at times I can be stuck man, this shit really sucks man
I know I'm messed up and I get stuck in my problems, making it all feel worse?

Swear it's all mental
It's all in my mind, and it's hard to break free from it?

Healing myself to me is detrimental
The process of healing myself is doing more harm than good?

Fucking me over Ye nobody meant to
People may have hurt me unintentionally?

Thats what they all say "I never meant to hurt you"
That's what everyone says after causing pain - 'I never meant to hurt you'?

But anyways I just want some better days
Despite everything, all I hope for is better days?

I just wanna see some light cause this room be full of haze
I want to find some clarity in my life, that's often clouded with confusion and doubts?

Wanna go away but every single turn I take feels like a maze
I want to get away from my problems, but every step feels like entering a new maze?

Hoping it'll be a over soon but it's just gonna repeat every day
I seek an end to my problems, but they just keep repeating day after day?

This shit just repeats everyday
My problems are constant and never-ending?

I think I might go insane
Under the constant pressure, I fear losing my sanity?

Feels like my emotions are stuck inside a cage
It seems like my emotions are confined and not allowed to be expressed fully?

One day I'll be telling all these stories up on stage
Someday, my experiences will become my art, and I'll share it with the world on stage?

One day imma be a legend, never gon loose faith
I have a strong belief that someday, I'll become a legend, and I'll never lose the faith?

Never gon' loose faith
I will never give up or lose my faith?

Before she suck my dick, I tell her use a toothpaste
I take hygiene seriously during oral sex, and I ask her to use a toothpaste?

Me and Kush be smoking kush up in the booth aye
I smoke weed with my companion in the recording booth?

She ask me if I'm winning, bitch I never loose aye
She asks me if I'm succeeding, but I never lose?

She ain't my missus, thats some pussy I just used aye
She's not my partner, and I just used her for sex?

I'm sipping liquor out the bottle like its cool-aid
I drink liquor like I'm drinking cool-aid?

These Bitches. heh
I'm not fond of women who use me for their pleasure?

They a headache
Women can be troublesome and give me headaches?

I can't figure out where my heads at
I'm unable to understand my own mindset?

And I got shawdows in my head
I have depressing thoughts and voices in my mind?

Keeping me in place
These thoughts are holding me back and keeping me stagnant?

Keeping me from going insane
These thoughts are also holding me back from losing my sanity?

People tellin me too change
People are pressuring me to change who I am?

Ye I got shadows in my head
Yes, these depressing thoughts and voices are always in my mind?

Devil rotting my brain
The devil is the force behind these dark thoughts, slowly destroying my mind?

Angels tryna keep me safe
On the other hand, there are angels trying to protect me and keep me safe?

I guess I'm never gon change nah
Regardless of these internal forces and external pressures, I am who I am and will never change?