No Good
Albert B. Lyrics

Mind racing, it's no time to be complacent
My thoughts are moving fast and I can't afford to be lazy

Just trying to find a place I'm not preoccupied with hatred
I'm searching for somewhere I can be without feeling angry

Feeling pretty stationary, shit is scary
I'm feeling stuck and it's frightening

I'm not ready for this shit, I'm an adult but fucking barely
I'm not fully equipped for adulthood, even though I'm technically there

Mommy wasn't there for me
My mother wasn't present in my life

But I don't care, nah
I say I don't care, but that's not really true

Shit at least I mean I wish that's how I felt but
I want to feel like I don't care, but I know that's not the case

Honestly I probably need some help
I think I might need professional support

Cause this shits been fucking with me like, you probably couldn't tell, huh?
I'm struggling internally and it might not be obvious on the outside

But nah I keep it to myself
I don't tend to share my problems with others

Shit thats got me twisted inside, nobody gets it
I feel like I'm in a confused and overwhelming state, and no one understands me

Need to refill my prescription, or else I'm finna flip shit
I need to restock my medication, or I might lose control

Just trying to get a grip, stupid fucking idiot
I'm attempting to regain my composure, but I feel foolish for letting myself get here

As long as I can see a profit
As long as there is a benefit for me, I don't see anything wrong

I don't really see a problem
I don't perceive an issue

Probably I don't really give a fuck as much as I say it
In reality, I likely care more than I let on

I don't really believe it, I'm on a precipice stressing shit
I don't truly believe what I'm saying, and it's causing me a lot of stress

And preventing from sleeping
It's making it hard for me to fall asleep

Cause I've been tossing and turning
I've been unable to settle down in my bed

I'm toe to toe with some shit
I'm facing some difficult situations head on

I see myself I'm second guessing
I'm doubting myself when I reflect on my choices

Guess I'm supposed to be sick
Maybe it's expected of me to have some type of ailment

So tie a knot the spot the rosary supposedly sit
I'm trying to make sense of my struggles by turning to my religion

She says she knows me, hold it
Someone claims to understand me, but I'm hesitant to believe it

Y'all don't really know me for shit
None of you truly know who I am

Cause every day is different than the last one
Each day feels unique and unpredictable

My shit is bumper to bumper
I'm feeling completely overwhelmed with everything going on in my life

Y'all need to back up
I need some space and breathing room from others

Ass on the couch, got my head through the ceiling
I'm sitting on the couch, but my thoughts are somewhere else entirely

Just trying to get it sorted
I'm attempting to figure things out

And I don't really fuck with opinions
I don't value or listen to others' views

And I'm not really trying to talk
I don't want to engage in conversation

Shit I need someone to listen
Actually, I crave someone to just hear me out

I used to wear my heart on my arm and now it's different
I used to be more vulnerable and expressive, but I've changed

Made mistakes I admit it
I'm owning up to my errors

I'm not too proud to be honest
I'm willing to be truthful about my shortcomings

But honestly I'm focusing on getting food in my stomach
My main concern right now is just taking care of my basic needs

And putting thoughts on the page
I'm channeling some of my emotions into creative writing

To put my thoughts on display
To let others see a part of my mind

I'm embarrassed and well aware of all the trouble I make
I'm self-conscious of the problems I cause

And lately my train of thought been on some other shit
My mind has been preoccupied with something completely different

My shit been crazy lately
I've been experiencing a lot of chaos recently

I don't really fuck with it
I don't like it at all

But this spliff, my lungs are hazy and congested
But smoking this joint is clouding my thoughts and breathing

I've been shady and defensive
I've been acting suspicious and guarded

If you hate me you don't get it
If you dislike me, you don't understand my struggles

Bet you hate me, I don't sweat it
I'm pretty sure you have negative feelings towards me, but I'm not too worried about it

I been knowing shit is petty
I'm aware that my actions and feelings are trivial

Complacing but not pathetic
I'm settling for what I have, but I'm not completely hopeless

Evasive and independent
I'm avoiding others and don't rely on them for help

You hate me, I'm fucking right there with you
If you dislike me, I probably feel the same towards myself

Stay away because the night is simple
I'm isolating myself because it's easier and less complicated

It's quite the pickle but
It's a difficult situation, but

I've been paying dues
I've been putting up with a lot recently

And trying to keep the costs minimal
And attempting to keep the negative consequences to a minimum

Smoking weed out the window in my living room
I'm smoking marijuana near the window of my living area

Shit, apparently depression's an accessory now
Depression seems to be a common thing now

And honestly, that shits been stressing me out
And truthfully, it's been causing me a lot of stress

I took a trip to the limits of sanity
I've been dealing with stressful situations that are pushing me to my limits

Left my brain on Saturn
Left behind my mental stability and sense of peace

And came back to Earth to act like nothing fucking happened?
And now I'm trying to go about my life like everything is okay?

Shouldn't people ask me why I'm not happy?
Shoudn't others be concerned with my wellbeing and ask why I'm not content?

I act like everything's kosher
I'm putting on a facade that everything is fine

But actually I'm panicking
But in reality, I'm freaking out inside

Package up my anxieties
I need to deal with and organize my worries

Put it inside this rapping shit
And express it through my music

And cross my fingers I can figure out what's happening
And hope that I can make sense of my situation

It's no good
It's not okay

It's no good
It's not right

It's no good
It's not positive

It's no good
It's not healthy