Lose My Cool
Amber Mark Lyrics

I was so full of pain just stuck in my head
I was consumed with emotional pain and couldn't think clearly or focus on anything else.

There was no one that could get me out of it
I felt helpless and alone and like no one could understand my pain or help me through it.

Yes, I think the drinking was a bit excessive
I acknowledge that I drank more than I probably should have in an attempt to escape from my pain, and that it wasn't healthy or effective.

Just to be frank, the drinking ain't what caused me to be aggressive
Although I drank too much, it wasn't the main cause of my aggressive behavior or negative emotions - that came from deeper within me.

My heart has been taken over
My emotions are in control and completely overtaking me.

Everyday I get colder to 'em
I am becoming more and more emotionally numb and disconnected as time goes on.

I realize need to let go expression from the get go to 'em
I have come to realize that I need to let go and express my emotions from the very beginning, rather than bottling them up until it's too late.

Feeling it like I just need to speak my brain
I am overwhelmed with the need to express my feelings and speak my mind.

Yes I know it might seem like I'm going to cause you pain (yeah)
I am aware that my honesty and raw emotion may be difficult or painful for others to hear or deal with.

Boy you got to realize I've got to get all this crazy
You need to understand that this release of emotions is necessary for me to finally deal with and move on from this 'crazy' pain inside me.

I've got to lose my cool
I need to let my guard down and lose my composure in order to truly express my emotions and work through my pain.

I was so full of pain, just stuck in my head
My emotional pain and negative thoughts had a firm hold on me and I couldn't escape them.

There was no way for me to get over it
I couldn't find a way to heal or move on from this pain on my own.

So I kept it bottled up all inside of me
I didn't want to burden others with my pain or show my vulnerability, so I kept it all to myself.

'Til I felt the pressure I could no longer breath yeah you know
The weight of my emotional pain became too much to bear and I felt like I was suffocating or drowning under the pressure.

I've got to lose my cool now baby
I am determined to finally let my emotions out and not hold back any longer.

I've got to lose my cool now darling
I need to be vulnerable and open up to the person I care about most.

I may act a fool now baby yeah
I may look silly or foolish while expressing my emotions, but it's worth it in order to finally find peace and healing.