Beyond my control
Anja Garbarek Lyrics

It happens that someone knocks at my door
Occasionally, there is a knock at my door

And the whole house starts to shake
As the knock occurs, my house begins to shake

So that it gets really hard to stand up
The shaking makes it challenging to remain upright

And even worse to walk
Additionally, it is difficult to walk when the house is shaking

I usually fall down on the floor
Often, I end up on the ground as a result of the shaking

And I stay there until that someone decides to leave
I remain on the floor until the person who knocked chooses to depart

And the house calms down
Once the person leaves, the house stops shaking

And I look through the curtains
I peer outside through the window coverings

To see if he would regret
I want to know if the person who knocked would feel remorse

To see if he would try again
Additionally, I am curious if the person will make another attempt to visit

It happens that someone calls me on the phone
On occasion, someone will phone me

Then my heart gets so scared
When the phone rings, I become frightened

That it jumps right up into my throat!
This fear causes my heart to leap into my esophagus

I swallow like crazy
To remedy this, I swallow excessively

Hoping my heart will glide back down
I am hopeful that my heart will descend back into my chest

So I can talk to that someone
This will enable me to converse with the person who phoned

Maybe talk to a friend
Perhaps I will be able to communicate with a friend

But it is too late
Regrettably, it is too tardy for me to answer the phone

It is beyond my control
I am unable to manage or influence the situation

If I don't open up the door
If I do not welcome people inside

It is beyond my control
I am powerless to change the circumstance

If I don't answer your calls
If I cannot pick up the phone when you dial

I'm not to blame. It isn't my fault
I am not accountable for this outcome, as it is not my error

It was you that made my heart shake
It is your actions that cause my heart to tremble

It was you that made my heart jump
Additionally, I am distressed due to your actions

And it happens that I take a walk outside
Occasionally, I go for a stroll in nature

Just to get some nice fresh air
I do this to inhale the outdoors and unwind

And it happens that I see someone I knew
On occasion, I encounter someone I previously knew

A long, long time ago
This person is someone from my distant past

Then I just seem to disappear
Upon seeing this person, I appear to vanish

Becoming one with a wall
I blend in with the wall behind me

Becoming one with a lamp post
Similarly, I meld with a nearby lamp post

Becoming one with a tree
Then, I fuse with a tree farther away

Becoming one with a street
I subsequently merge with the street below me

Becoming one with a house
Finally, I become part of a house nearby

Becoming one with a door
And, I mix in with a door adjacent to me

Becoming one with you all
I become invisible to everyone around me

It is beyond my control
Once again, I am powerless in this situation

If I just seem to disappear
If I suddenly become unnoticeable

It is beyond my control
I am unable to alter what is happening

If I am suddenly not here
Should I vanish inexplicably

It was you that came my way
Your arrival led to my disappearance

I'm not to blame. It isn't my fault
Once more, I am not responsible for this

It was you that made my heart shake
Your actions cause me fear and anxiety

It was you that made my heart jump
Furthermore, your behavior is upsetting