Bittersweet
Anson Lyrics

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I've been searching for a long time,
Just to find out if I mean right,
Am I okay?
Am I honest?
Was I lying to myself?
I remember way back when

I was trying so hard,
Stole my father's car,
Trying to get away,
How did I make it that far?
Grabbed a bottle of Jack and got lost in a fantasy I made for me,
But I'm still stuck right here,
I don't know if I made it clear,

That I crashed into a wasteland,
Dived down deeper than I should have,
When I'm falling down strung out and faded,
Back before the drugs and the medication,
Things were looking up, how did I get here?
Locked up in my room, too tired to be scared,
Trying not to call on my temptations, but just like her lipstick I still taste it
A bitter so sweet,

I've been waking to the sunrise,
Asking questions that I can't find,
Am i so close to the answers, i don't believe them cause I'm blind,
I can't see at all,

I've been giving it up,
Living life on luck,
Stuck in the middle of my fake friends who don't give a fuck,
Long nights we spend in L.A.
All the noises wash over me,
It's all make believe,
But I'm still stuck right here,
I don't know if I made it clear

And I don't want to be a bother, but you know it's criminal how lost we all can be,
Is it typical to turn our backs on ourselves, with our hearts turned out on our sleeves,

And I don't want to live this way, I don't want to live ashamed,
I don't want to live this

Overall Meaning

The lyrics of Anson's song "Bittersweet" reflect a journey of self-discovery and the struggles that come with it. The song opens with the artist contemplating his own authenticity and whether he has been honest with himself. He touches on his past mistakes, like stealing his father's car and getting lost in a self-made fantasy fueled by Jack Daniels. Although he made it through these tough times, he feels stuck in a wasteland where drugs and medication have taken over. He asks himself how he got there and why temptation still lingers, leaving a bitter but sweet taste in his mouth.

As the song progresses, Anson continues to search for answers, waking up to the sunrise and questioning what he sees. He feels lost and has turned to luck and fake friends in a place where everything seems make-believe. He acknowledges that we can all be lost at times, but it is criminal to turn our backs on ourselves and hide our vulnerabilities on our sleeves. He ultimately expresses his desire to live life differently, to not be ashamed, and to find a new path that aligns with his true self.

Overall, "Bittersweet" is a powerful and introspective song that highlights the human struggle to find one's own identity and fight against societal pressures and temptations.

Line by Line Meaning

I've been searching for a long time,
I've been trying to figure out if I'm doing the right thing for a long time

Just to find out if I mean right,
I'm trying to determine if I'm doing good things or not

Am I okay?
Am I mentally and emotionally stable?

Am I honest?
Am I truthful in my actions and intentions?

Was I lying to myself?
Was I deceiving myself in some way?

I remember way back when
I remember a time from my past

I was trying so hard,
I was putting in a lot of effort

Stole my father's car,
I took my dad's car without permission

Trying to get away,
I was attempting to flee from something

How did I make it that far?
I'm surprised that I was able to get so far without consequences

Grabbed a bottle of Jack and got lost in a fantasy I made for me,
I drank alcohol and daydreamed to escape from reality

But I'm still stuck right here,
I'm still in the same situation

I don't know if I made it clear,
I'm not sure if I expressed myself well enough

That I crashed into a wasteland,
I made a big mistake that led to a bad situation

Dived down deeper than I should have,
I went further into something than I should have

When I'm falling down strung out and faded,
When I'm struggling with addiction and losing control

Back before the drugs and the medication,
Before I started using drugs and taking medication

Things were looking up, how did I get here?
My life was going well before, but now I'm not sure how I ended up in this bad place

Locked up in my room, too tired to be scared,
I'm isolated in my room and too worn out to feel afraid

Trying not to call on my temptations,
I'm attempting to resist my urges

but just like her lipstick I still taste it
I still crave the thing I'm trying to resist

A bitter so sweet,
It's a mix of pleasure and pain

I've been waking to the sunrise,
I'm starting a new day

Asking questions that I can't find,
I'm struggling to find answers to my questions

Am i so close to the answers, i don't believe them cause I'm blind,
I might be close to finding the answers, but I'm doubtful because I can't see clearly

I can't see at all,
I'm completely lost

I've been giving it up,
I've been giving up on things

Living life on luck,
I'm living my life without a clear plan or direction

Stuck in the middle of my fake friends who don't give a fuck,
I'm surrounded by insincere friends who don't care about me

Long nights we spend in L.A.
We spend long nights in Los Angeles

All the noises wash over me,
All the commotion around me is overwhelming

It's all make believe,
None of it is real

And I don't want to be a bother, but you know it's criminal how lost we all can be,
I don't want to be a nuisance, but it's disturbing how directionless we all can be

Is it typical to turn our backs on ourselves, with our hearts turned out on our sleeves,
Is it common for us to neglect ourselves and reveal our emotions to others?

And I don't want to live this way, I don't want to live ashamed,
I'm unhappy with the way I'm living and don't want to be ashamed

I don't want to live this
I don't want to continue living like this

Lyrics © TUNECORE INC
Written by: Anson Li

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