In 1989, Stephan Groth and Jon Erik Martinsen formed Apoptygma Berzerk in Norway. They wrote several songs, one of them "Ashes To Ashes" would later be released as a 12" single on the Norwegian label Tatra Productions in 1991. Martinsen left the band shortly afterwards feeling uncomfortable with the direction of the band's music. Since then the band had many lineup changes, Groth being the only constant members.
Stephan Groth claims that the band name was randomly picked out of a dictionary. Apoptygma is an old Greek word for the fold of a woman's garment. Technically the 'y' ought to be pronounced like a long 'u', but the band's name is commonly pronounced a-pop-TIG-ma or a-pop-TEEG-ma.
Apoptygma Berzerk released six studio albums so far: Soli Deo Gloria in 1993, 7 in 1996, Welcome To Earth in 2000, Harmonizer in 2002, You and Me Against the World in 2005, and Rocket Science in 2009.
The first two albums, Soli Deo Gloria and 7 were a similar style of synthpop and EBM. Welcome to Earth featured an evolved EBM/synthpop sound. Harmonizer featured a softer, more synthpop-oriented direction. You and Me Against the World represented an almost complete change in style for the band, from EBM to indie rock-oriented sound. Rocket Science continued the rock-oriented direction of their sound.
They also released three compilations (The Apopcalyptic Manifesto in 1998, The Singles Collection in 2003 , Sonic Diary in 2006), three live albums (APBL98 in 1999, APBL2000 in 2001, Imagine There's No Lennon in 2010) and three live DVDs (APBL2000 in 2001, The Harmonizer DVD in 2004, Imagine There's No Lennon in 2010).
In total, the band issued six EPs: Victims of Mutilation in 1990, The 2nd Manifesto in 1992, Mourn EP in 1997, Unicorn EP in 2004, Black EP in 2006, and Green Queen in 2009.
List of former band members:
Jon Erik Martensen: keyboards (1989)
Per Aksel Lundgreen: keyboards/manager (1991–1994)
Anders Odden: guitars (1992-1999)
Geir Bratland: keyboards/backing vocals (1995-2009)
Fredrik Darum: producer/live guitarist (1999–2001)
Ted Skogmann: drums and guitar (1999–2002)
Fredrik Brarud: drums (2002-2009)
Audun Stengel (Angel): guitars (2002-2009)
Anders Odden: guitars (2003-2006)
Official site: http://www.apoptygmaberzerk.de
Mourn
Apoptygma Berzerk Lyrics
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I couldn't resist, why should I?
I want to relax, I want to feel free
I want to be you, do you want to be me?
I look at you, I look at your face
You took my hand, just in case
Forever with you, you're all I can see
Now I am you, do you want to be me?
Why are you always hiding?
Why are you always mourning?
(repeat)
The lyrics to Apoptygma Berzerk's "Mourn" delve into themes of identity, desire, and self-reflection. In the first two lines, the singer describes feeling lost in the "depths" of someone else's eyes, suggesting that they are captivated by this person, perhaps even to the point of losing themselves. Despite this, the singer insists that they couldn't resist this attraction and asks why they should have tried to do so in the first place. This reflects a desire for freedom from the constraints of social norms and expectations, as well as a willingness to embrace the unknown.
As the song progresses, the singer becomes more insistent in their exploration of identity and desire. They want to relax and feel free, and they express a desire to be the person they are fascinated with, impelling them to ask whether the other person wants to be them. The phrase "just in case" suggests a sense of uncertainty about the other person's intentions, as if the singer is aware that their desires might not be reciprocated. Despite this, the singer describes feeling as though they are now one with the other person and can only see them. The final lines of the song repeat the questions, "Why are you always hiding? Why are you always mourning?" which can be interpreted as an acknowledgment of the emotional complexities of the situation or simply a plea for the other person to reveal more of themselves to the singer.
Line by Line Meaning
Lost in the depths, the depths of your eyes
Enchanted by the profoundness of your eyes, I feel captivated and lost in them.
I couldn't resist, why should I?
I am unable and unwilling to resist your charm and allure.
I want to relax, I want to feel free
I crave a moment of tranquility and liberation from the chaos of the world.
I want to be you, do you want to be me?
I aspire to be like you and wonder if you feel the same way about me.
I look at you, I look at your face
I observe your countenance and demeanor.
You took my hand, just in case
You held my hand, an act of reassurance and comfort.
Forever with you, you're all I can see
I envision an eternal life with you, and you are the only thing I can perceive.
Now I am you, do you want to be me?
Having become one with you, I wonder if you desire to take my place.
Why are you always hiding?
I am curious as to why you always retreat and conceal yourself.
Why are you always mourning?
I am perplexed by the constant sorrow and grief that you seem to bear.
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@mnmlstellar
🖤 #lyrics
Lost in the depths, the depths of your eyes
I couldn't resist, why should I?
I want to relax, I want to feel free
I want to be you, you want to be me
I look at you, I look at your face
Reach for my hand, just in case
Forever with you, you mourn, i can see
Now I am you, do you want to be me?
Why are you always hiding?
Why are you always mourning?
@wilhelminamarquart240
Love your music always Stephan
@heidileeshire5959
Very deep lyrics. Nice!😊😘
@zewxkervokkhan
Greetings from México!!!
@mnmlstellar
🖤 #lyrics
Lost in the depths, the depths of your eyes
I couldn't resist, why should I?
I want to relax, I want to feel free
I want to be you, you want to be me
I look at you, I look at your face
Reach for my hand, just in case
Forever with you, you mourn, i can see
Now I am you, do you want to be me?
Why are you always hiding?
Why are you always mourning?
@johnnydeath2
Beautiful song.
@d.kuhscheisse-volkerrecht5349
Synthipop at its best!
@JoaoSoares66
Greetings from Portugal!!! LIKE you very much!!!
@giancarlobailoni146
Wonderful sound
@mizterymiztica
Who’s still bumping this song in 2022??!!! 🤩 Got introduced to this song thanks to my parents bad ass music taste!!!
@clvrswine
Lame.