Problems
As One Lyrics

I got a problem saying no
I struggle with asserting my boundaries and saying no to people.

Also got a problem saying fuck you, nigga
I have difficulty expressing my anger and standing up for myself.

Got a problem with how much I been in my phone
I spend too much time on my phone, neglecting real-life connections.

Still leave people on read when they text me what you up to, nigga
I ignore messages from friends and keep them waiting for a response.

I got friends trying to pull me out my home
My friends want me to socialize and engage with the world outside my home.

Wish I felt better, I would love to, nigga
I want to feel better and enjoy life, but my emotional state hinders it.

But black clouds a bitch and half tho
Depression is a formidable and overwhelming force.

Soft boundary, people pleaser
I have weak boundaries and often prioritize others' needs over my own.

That shit will fuck you up, oooh, nigga
This behavior will have negative consequences and harm your well-being.

I guess I got a problem with my self-worth
I struggle with valuing myself and my own worth.

I admit it, for a minute I been wrestling with it
I acknowledge that I have been grappling with this issue for a while.

That's what happens when you put everyone else first
When you prioritize others above yourself, you end up facing these challenges.

Tendency to just accept the things I'm given
I tend to passively accept whatever is given to me without questioning or demanding more.

Turn around and give what little I have
I then take whatever little I have and give it away to others.

I stretch myself thin so that my people don't feel like me
I exhaust myself trying to prevent my loved ones from experiencing the same struggles as me.

I mean I'm alive, it can't be that bad
I convince myself that things can't be too bad since I am still alive.

Never suicidal, but more times I feel I'd rather just not be
While I am not suicidal, I often feel like I would rather not exist.

This too shall pass, this too shall pass
People often say that in difficult times things will eventually get better.

They say that in times like these
This saying is commonly mentioned during challenging moments.

That's true, that's fact
It is a valid and undeniable reality.

Reverend Collins say lean on the one who made us
Reverend Collins advises relying on the creator for support and guidance.

How I'm supposed to put my faith in a God slave owners gave us
It is challenging for me to trust in a God who was used to justify slavery.

Matter fact slave owners made us
Actually, it was the slave owners who shaped our existence.

Nevermind that's for another time
Let's not delve into that topic now, it requires separate discussion.

I know that she means well
I understand that she has good intentions.

But that don't help my tired mind
However, her good intentions do not alleviate my exhausted mental state.

Yeah this too shall pass, but I come right back
Even though difficult times will pass, I find myself returning to similar struggles.

Vicious circle, eyes filling up as I write that
It feels like a never-ending cycle, and tears fill my eyes as I write about it.

Empty vessel, dont got it in me to fight back
I feel emotionally drained and lack the energy to resist or stand up for myself.

Chief Keef, that shit, I don't like that
I don't enjoy or resonate with Chief Keef's style of music.

Uncomfortable, feeling like I've outgrown it all
I feel uneasy and as if I have surpassed or moved beyond my current circumstances.

Feeling chained in, feeling like I might snap
I experience a sense of confinement and vulnerability, fearing that I may lose control.

I got a problem letting go
I struggle with releasing and moving on from things that weigh me down.

All my baggage and my trauma yeah I carry that
I continue to carry the emotional baggage and past trauma with me.

Every time I put it down
Whenever I try to let it go or set it aside.

It ends up back in the backpack
It inevitably returns and becomes a burden once again.

And honestly I think it's kind of scary that
To be honest, I find it frightening that:

Any day I could explode
At any moment, I could lose control and become overwhelmed by my emotions.

And bleed on people I love
I might unintentionally hurt those who are dear to me.

People who ain't leave the scars
These are individuals who have not caused my emotional wounds.

And I cant have that
I cannot allow myself to inflict pain on them.

So I'd rather be left alone
As a result, I prefer to be in solitude and avoid potential harm to others.

Know it ain't the right approach
I am aware that this is not the correct way to handle my problems.

That recluse shit all I know
Being a recluse and isolating myself is the only method I am familiar with.

Guess that's my bad
I suppose it is my fault or flaw.