I Deserve Better
BMike Lyrics

Don't you tell me this ain't what you want (nah, yeah)
Don't try to deny your true feelings and intentions towards me

We almost had it, we were almost there
Our relationship had potential and was close to succeeding

These apologies are overdue
I should have apologized sooner and taken responsibility for my actions

Now it's too late because I'm over you (over you, over you)
I have moved on from this relationship and it is too late for us to reconcile

Yeah, she's over me, now I want her back
I realize the importance of her now that she has moved on

I don't even wanna tell her that
I fear rejection or judgment from her

Maybe it's pride, maybe it's ego
My own confidence or sense of self-worth may be getting in the way of repairing our relationship

Maybe the fact is I'm still attached
I am still emotionally attached to her and our relationship

Maybe I do need to let it go
I may need to come to terms with the end of our relationship and move on

Maybe I just need the time to grow
I recognize the need for personal growth and self-reflection before entering another relationship

Cuz' she was so focused on loving me
She put all her energy and effort into our relationship

And I was focused on models and centerfolds
I was distracted by superficial and materialistic things instead of appreciating the love and commitment she offered me

Issues with commitment
I struggle to fully commit to a relationship

Issues with the distance
We struggled with being physically or emotionally distant from each other

Issues with these issues cuz' he's fucked up with his feelings
My emotional turmoil and confusion has caused problems in our relationship

Problems with the motion
There were issues with our relationship's progression or lack thereof

Problems with devotion
I had difficulty staying committed and dedicated to our relationship

And when he left her, this is what she told him
When she finally ended things, she had these grievances to express

I deserve better
She recognizes her self-worth and that she deserves a better partner

You should've treated me better
She feels mistreated and neglected in our relationship

Should've but couldn't, but why didn't you
She questions my ability or willingness to treat her better

And you were like, this was my fault, my fault
I accept responsibility for our relationship's failures

None of the any others, was my fault, my fault
I take sole responsibility for our relationship ending and do not place the blame on anyone else

So happy never, ever, ever
She will never be happy in a relationship with me

Shot the bullet in my heart without no beretta
Her rejection or ending of our relationship deeply hurt me

And I aimed it at you, and you act like, all of this was my fault
I may have lashed out or placed blame on her for the end of our relationship, despite taking full responsibility

Baby girl, I know that it's all my fault
I acknowledge and take accountability for my mistakes in the relationship

Broken promises, it's all my fault
I did not keep my promises and this mistake was mine alone

But you know, it's all my fault
I want to ensure she knows that her pain was not her fault or responsibility

I wished that, that it all worked out
I regret the end of our relationship and wish things had gone differently

Don't you say, dont' take it personal
I am acknowledging that her hurt is personal and valid

Cause even though left, it hurt to go
I was hurt by the end of our relationship as well

Now those memories, are on my mind
I cannot stop thinking about our past and what could have been different

And I still think about it, all the time
This relationship still weighs heavily on my mind

All I did was try to make here mine
I made an effort to fully commit and possess her in the relationship

All I did was try to show, even if the rain fall
I tried to demonstrate my love and devotion, even during difficult times

The sun still gone shine
I was confident that things would ultimately work out between us

Maybe I shouldn't of let her in
I question if it was a mistake to get emotionally involved and open up to her

It's probably the worst thing I've ever did
I regret getting involved in the relationship at all

Cuz' I was so focused on loving here
I was fixated on my own emotions and desires and did not prioritize her needs in the relationship

And she was focused on someone who never did
She was devoted to me, while I was not truly devoted to her

Problem with no closure
We did not have closure or resolution to our relationship

Probably the older
Our lack of closure may be harder to bear as time passes

And this is what he said when it was over
This is my reflection on our relationship after it has ended