Bay Laurel was a Swedish gothic rock band founded in 1990.
Founding mem… Read Full Bio ↴Bay Laurel was a Swedish gothic rock band founded in 1990.
Founding member Mattias Jonsson (bass) was an ex-Celestial Signs member, whilst Rickard Löfgren (vocals) and Johan Carlsson (keyboards) both had prior affiliations to the death metal outfit Dawn of Decay. In May 1995 Daniel Bergstrand produced the album "Under a Clouded Sky", issued on the Noxious label, the band comprised Löfgren, Jonsson, Carlsson, guitarists Anders Karlsson and Petter Miller with Tobias Gustafsson on drums. "Days of Joy" followed in December 1996.

Their EP "Bitter Intoxins" was released in February 1998 and included cover versions of Depeche Mode's "To Have and to Hold", David Bowie's "Heroes" and Leonard Cohen's "First We Take Manhattan". This set was recorded minus Miller, Jonsson and Gustafsson with the introduction of bass player Dan Borg and drummer Chris Montgomery. The band released "Where Pain Comes to Die" in May 2000.

Bay Laurel disbanded in 2001.

In Nothingness
Bay Laurel Lyrics

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I'm lost within my dreams.
Hiding from the life that I'll never see.
Nothing to see and nothing to feel.
My body is no longer a part of me.
I'm away... I'm alone...

In nothingness I can't see your endless suffering.
I can't see your red eyes.

In nothingness I can close the doors to the world.
I'm in nothingness while time dies.

I see faces in fear. I hear screams in pain.
I'm standing impassive with indifferent eyes
because I don't feel the reality in the world outside
and I don't feel the fear that is dragging me down.
I'm away... I'm alone...

In nothingness I can't see your endless suffering.
I can't see your red eyes.
In nothingness I can close the doors to the world.
I'm in nothingness while time dies.

Searching hands are trying to help but for me they are
stealing.
Trying to take my inner world from me.
Taking my world from me.
Please let me be.

Don't talk to me becuase I'm not even listening.
Don't take my hand to make me see the fear.
Take away the flowers you've brought me because
they are reminding me of the world outside.
I'm fading away into a deeper life
where dreams are dwelling and feelings are gone.
I'm all alone when you're all here.

I'm alone...
In nothingness.

Overall Meaning

The lyrics of "In Nothingness" by Bay Laurel express a deep sense of detachment from the world and an escape from the reality that surrounds the singer. The song expresses a sense of being lost in dreams, hiding from the challenging aspects of the world that the singer believes he/she will never experience. The lyrics present a feeling of nothingness and emptiness, as the singer indicates that they can’t feel anything and that their body is no longer a part of them. They feel alone in their world of nothingness and see the lives of others troubled and pained but can't feel it nor help them.

The singer distances themselves from the outside world and acknowledges that they don't feel fear or any other emotions. They see the fear and pain of others, but it doesn’t affect them because they reside in a state of nothingness where they can close their minds to the world outside. The lyrics portray a sense of a struggle between the singer’s desire to be alone in their inner world, and the outside world's efforts to reach out to them. The singer sees the world outside as a thief trying to take their inner world away from them, which only increases their flight into nothingness.

In conclusion, Bay Laurel's song "In Nothingness" is a depiction of a person's detachment from the world and their retreat into their inner world. They desire to escape the challenging aspects of reality and seek a deeper sense of peace and tranquility in their dreams.

Line by Line Meaning

I'm lost within my dreams.
I am trapped in a world of my dreams, disconnected from reality.

Hiding from the life that I'll never see.
I am avoiding the world and experiences that I will never have.

Nothing to see and nothing to feel.
I am numb to my surroundings and emotions.

My body is no longer a part of me.
I am disconnected and detached from my physical body.

I'm away... I'm alone...
I am removed from everything and everyone, in isolation.

In nothingness I can't see your endless suffering.
I am in an empty void where I cannot witness the pain and misery of others.

I can't see your red eyes.
I am blind to the tears and sadness of others.

In nothingness I can close the doors to the world.
I am shutting out the world and all its experiences.

I'm in nothingness while time dies.
I am in a void that is frozen in time, without change or progress.

I see faces in fear. I hear screams in pain.
Even though I am disconnected, I perceive the world's suffering.

I'm standing impassive with indifferent eyes
I am emotionless and unmoved by what I perceive.

because I don't feel the reality in the world outside
I am detached from reality and cannot connect emotionally to the outside world.

and I don't feel the fear that is dragging me down.
I am numb to the emotions of fear and anxiety.

Searching hands are trying to help but for me they are stealing.
People are trying to help me, but it feels like they are taking from me instead of giving.

Trying to take my inner world from me.
People are attempting to cut me off from my dream world.

Taking my world from me.
They are removing me from the only world where I can find solace.

Please let me be.
I plead with those who try to pull me back into reality to leave me be.

Don't talk to me becuase I'm not even listening.
I am so disconnected that I cannot even hear or respond to those around me.

Don't take my hand to make me see the fear.
I do not want anyone to force me to confront my fears.

Take away the flowers you've brought me because they are reminding me of the world outside.
Even the kind gestures of others serve as painful reminders of the outside world that I am avoiding.

I'm fading away into a deeper life where dreams are dwelling and feelings are gone.
I am slipping further into my dream world where emotions and sensations are absent.

I'm all alone when you're all here.
Even when surrounded by others, I am still alone in my disconnected state.

I'm alone... In nothingness.
I am completely alone in the empty void of nothingness.

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