In 1999 Beate was asked by Bugge Wesseltoft to make a record for Jazzland rec. He gave her freedom to make the record she wanted. Beate meant that the best way to really make a record of her own was to make it completely by herself - composing, arranging, text writing, programming, recording and producing. Since she had a studio at home, she would do as much as possible there, on her own Macintosh computer.
After a while Marius contributed more to the creation of the record. Dividing up the labour, Marius took care of the groove elements and Beate was in charge of the melodies, harmonies and lyrics, with some exceptions both ways. Since the work was done in private surroundings, the record was entitled “Home”. Most of the recordings were done in Beate’s 6 meters flat in Oslo except for the strings, vibraphone and drums, which were done in Bugge’s room (Bugge Wesseltoft's studio).
Because of the co-operation between Beate and Marius, the project name “Beate S. Lech” was abandoned and “Beady Belle” was created. Beady Belle worked solidly on this record for one and a half years.
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Beady Belle Lyrics
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There is a thing i need to figure out
And please don't question me cause then i might walk
And will not make out what it's all about
It's my mentality or maybe my heart
And i don't know if i am weak or strong
When someone does me an injustice it starts
'Cause I start feeling sorry for the nuisances
And I start feeling sorry for myself
And i start feeling sorry for this stupid situation that appears
When my anger starts to cry
What is the reason that I crumble and sigh?
That I don't dare to be the angry one?
The thought of hurting someone just makes me cry
So I avoid opposing anyone
'Cause I start feeling sorry for the nuisances
And I start feeling sorry for myself
And i start feeling sorry for this stupid situation that appears
When my anger starts to cry
'Cause I start feeling sorry for the nuisances
And I start feeling sorry for myself
And i start feeling sorry for this stupid situation that appears
When my anger starts to cry
I feel like a bull in a big arena
With matadors profiting from my death
I know what's to come is distress and pain
As I feel their agitated breath
I'm being scam over and over again
I'm just trying to hide my fright
I know that my passivity will cause me pain
But still I don't dare to fight
'Cause I start feeling sorry for the nuisances
And I start feeling sorry for myself
And i start feeling sorry for this stupid situation that appears
When my anger starts to cry, cry
The lyrics to Beady Belle's "When My Anger Starts to Cry" explore the complex emotions that arise when one is faced with a situation that evokes feelings of anger, injustice, and powerlessness. The singer of the song is struggling to understand their own response to such situations - they are torn between feeling weak and feeble, and feeling sorry for the people and circumstances that have caused their anger. The opening lines of the song see the singer seeking the help of a psychologist to "figure out" what's going on inside their head, but at the same time, they are terrified of being questioned too much as they fear that this might cause them to leave before they have found any answers.
The song is not about suppressing anger but rather examines why some people struggle to embrace and express it. Throughout the song, the singer is asking questions about themselves and their own emotional responses, questioning why they are unable to act on their own anger and why they feel sorry for the people who have wronged them. They lament the fact that they are unable to be the "angry one" and that the idea of harming someone else brings them to tears. The song ends with the singer acknowledging their own passivity, recognizing that it will only lead to more pain, but still, they do not dare to fight.
Overall, "When My Anger Starts to Cry" is a poignant and introspective exploration of the conflicts and contradictions inherent in human emotions.
Line by Line Meaning
Hello psychologist, i've come here to talk
I am seeking professional help to figure out an issue.
There is a thing I need to figure out
I have something that I need to understand in order to move forward.
And please don't question me cause then I might walk
Please do not push me to reveal more than I am comfortable with or I may leave.
And will not make out what it's all about
I will become overwhelmed and unable to understand my thoughts and feelings.
It's my mentality or maybe my heart
The issue I am facing may stem from either my mindset or my emotions.
And I don't know if I am weak or strong
I am unsure of whether I am strong enough to handle this issue and move forward.
When someone does me an injustice it starts
When I feel like someone has wronged me, my problems begin to manifest.
Then I turn feeble and my drive is gone
I become weakened and lose motivation to act.
'Cause I start feeling sorry for the nuisances
I begin to feel empathy and guilt for the people who have caused me harm.
And I start feeling sorry for myself
I also feel bad for myself and the situation I am in.
And I start feeling sorry for this stupid situation that appears
I feel frustrated with the situation and my inability to easily move past it.
When my anger starts to cry
My emotions become overwhelming and I feel the need to express them.
What is the reason that I crumble and sigh?
I am questioning why I become so overwhelmed and unable to act when faced with difficult situations.
That I don't dare to be the angry one?
I am afraid of expressing my anger because of the potential repercussions and how it may impact others.
The thought of hurting someone just makes me cry
The idea of causing harm to others emotionally upsets me.
So I avoid opposing anyone
I avoid situations where I may be forced to confront and possibly harm others.
I feel like a bull in a big arena
I feel trapped and unable to escape difficult situations.
With matadors profiting from my death
Others may be benefiting from my struggles and pain.
I know what's to come is distress and pain
I am aware that difficult times are ahead and it will not be easy.
As I feel their agitated breath
I sense the strong emotions of those around me and it only adds to my own overwhelming feelings.
I'm being scammed over and over again
I feel like I am being taken advantage of and deceived repeatedly.
I'm just trying to hide my fright
I am attempting to mask my fear and anxiety from others.
I know that my passivity will cause me pain
I am aware that my lack of action and assertiveness will lead to further struggles and suffering.
But still I don't dare to fight
Despite knowing the consequences, I am still afraid to stand up for myself and assert my needs.
'Cause I start feeling sorry for the nuisances
Once again, I begin to feel empathy and guilt for those who have wronged me.
And I start feeling sorry for myself
I also feel bad for myself and the situation I am in.
And I start feeling sorry for this stupid situation that appears
I feel frustrated with the situation and my inability to easily move past it.
When my anger starts to cry, cry
My emotions become overwhelming and I feel the need to express them.
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