Messiah
Beautiful Eulogy Lyrics

I can't always rely on my desires
I cannot constantly depend on my own wants and cravings

But I treat them like the Messiah
But I treat them as if they are the savior of my life

Whatever it is that gives that feeling that we can't live without
Whatever it is that gives us a sense of longing and necessity

The joys we try to get that only God can give we highly doubt
The happiness we seek to obtain, which only God can truly provide, we often question

What allures and arouses the heart we can't figure out
We cannot fully understand what attracts and excites our hearts

But it's the quickest way to account for what we prize and are most proud about
But it is the fastest explanation for the things we value and take the most pride in

These 'gods' make promises but always lie to us
These false idols make promises but consistently deceive us

The kind of lies that says they'll keep us safe and satisfy us
Deceptive lies that claim they will protect and fulfill us

We blame the lies outside of us
We attribute the lies to external sources

But it's the lie that lies inside that captures the depth of desires and false messiahs
However, it is the internal lie that truly captures the extent of our desires and idolatry

We seek pleasure in anything, we overestimate everything
We search for satisfaction in everything, and we exaggerate the value of everything

Endlessly trusting in empty entities
Continuously placing our trust in things that hold no real substance or worth

Secretly searching for anything in moments of blessing
Covertly seeking fulfillment in any possible thing during moments of abundance

While exiting edicts of Eden over our ecstasy
While disregarding divine instructions from the Garden of Eden in our pursuit of pleasure

When a good God gives good gifts we generally tend to twist the list
When a benevolent God bestows blessings upon us, we often distort the purpose and meaning of those gifts

And take the list of good gifts that God tends to give and make general 'gods' out of gifts
And we transform the specific gifts God gives us into general idols or false gods

I suppose what exposes the worship in most of us
I imagine that what reveals our devotion to idols is

Is a close look at most of our thoughts, fears, and emotions
A deep examination of our thoughts, fears, and emotions

No matter what I do
Regardless of my actions

I can't ever make it last
I cannot make it endure or persist

I just repeat my past
I simply replicate my previous mistakes

I'm so broken
I am deeply damaged and shattered

So much I thought I knew
So many things I believed I understood

All the things that I pursued
All the things I chased after

I'm worse off than before
I am in a worsened state compared to my previous condition

The saddest fact is that I search for satisfaction
The most disheartening truth is that I constantly seek fulfillment

As if I lack it when in fact I lack nothing
As if I do not possess it when the reality is that I am not lacking anything

That's the reason for my lackluster prayer life
That is why my prayer life is uninspired and lacking in passion

And my lust for distractions, it's so easy to see in hindsight
And my intense desire for diversions becomes evident when reflecting back on my actions

I must confess it's the mess I acknowledge when I'm
I have to admit that the chaos and disorder is what I recognize when I am

Stalling on my responsibilities and don't apologize, but make excuses
Procrastinating on my duties without offering apologies but instead providing justifications

Like my physical exhaustion is a license for narcissism
Treating my physical fatigue as a justification for self-centeredness

And speaking recklessly without caution
And speaking without care or prudence

I often wonder, why I'm so awkward in conversations
I frequently question why I am so uncomfortable and inept during social interactions

Wishing I could switch places, envious of others
Desiring to exchange positions with others, feeling jealous of their circumstances

But my envy is a reflex of my ignorance
However, my jealousy is a reaction stemming from my lack of understanding

'Cause I don't know the details of their daily existence
Because I am unaware of the intricacies of their everyday lives

I just assume the weight I carry is the heaviest
I simply presume that the burdens I bear are the most overwhelming

But I've never been a heavyweight
Yet, I have never been burdened with significant challenges

My legs get heavy when I wait
I become burdened and weighed down when I am patient

Hope deferred so I prefer the immediate
When hope is delayed, I choose instant gratification instead

And exchange the true God for what seems more expedient
And substitute the genuine God for what appears to be more convenient

It's meaningless
It lacks significance and purpose

Help us not be haste when it comes to temporal blessings
Assist us in not being impulsive when it involves temporary blessings

And always see them for what they're actually meant to be
And consistently recognize them as what they are truly intended to be

A mere extension of Your love and kindness
Simply an outpouring of Your affection and benevolence

Extended to an undeserved humanity
Given to humanity who does not deserve it

Help us not see greater value in the gifts You give
Assist us in not placing higher importance on the gifts You bestow upon us

And not become distracted from their intended desires
And not allow ourselves to be diverted from their original purposes

May we regard the world and all that is in it
May we consider the world and everything within it

As nothing compared to the satisfaction of knowing
As insignificant when compared to the fulfillment of knowing

Our Messiah
Our Savior