Back To Nothing
Benton Falls Lyrics

I follow you around.
I am always near you, always trying to be close to you.

Like I follow the sea.
My love for you is vast and never-ending, like the endless ocean.

But I see you're not.
Unfortunately, it is clear to me that you are not interested in me.

Interested in me.
You do not feel the same way about me as I do about you.

And I fall for your shadow.
I develop feelings for an image of you that is not really you.

It's all I've got.
At this point, this is the only connection I have to you.

And when you're walking away from me.
As you move farther away from me, my connection to you becomes weaker.

All I've got is lost.
Without you, I feel completely lost and alone.

And I forgot what I'd lost.
I lost track of what was important in my pursuit of you.

With this line that I'd crossed.
I crossed a boundary, perhaps confessing my love for you, and it changed everything.

And now everything has changed back to nothing.
Things did not go as planned, and now we are back to square one where there is nothing between us.

I see you by the pay phone.
I see you in a moment where you are likely not talking to me.

As I'm walking home that night.
I am walking away from a situation where I saw you but did not talk to you.

My emotions were unaffected.
I did not feel anything in that moment. My emotions were numb.

And my eyes were disconnected.
I was not able to make a meaningful connection with you in that moment.

The point is that I've created this crush.
This entire situation is because of my own perception, my own desires, my own creation of a crush.

To help me out.
I created this crush to make myself feel better or perhaps to distract myself from something else.

To help me out of this.
I hoped that this crush would help me escape from my current reality.

Twice as lonely.
Being with you, yet not able to connect with you, makes me feel twice as lonely.

When I'm with you.
Even in your presence, I feel the intense loneliness of unrequited love.

But I don't miss you.
Despite my love for you, I do not miss you when you are not around because it would only make my pain worse.

When you're around.
Although I don't miss you, I still feel the intense pain of unrequited love every time I see you.