Borland states that Black Light Burns is the culmination of the various projects he has been working on ever since he quit Limp Bizkit in 2001. Things began with Big Dumb Face, a solo project that Borland had worked on during his time with Limp Bizkit. Borland didn't take the project too seriously, and used it to basically test the waters, and see how hard it would be to do something serious on his own, without the aid of his band mates. After he quit the band, he began working on several different projects. The first of which was supposed to be an instrumental album one could listen to and simply relax. Simultaneously, he began Eat The Day. With this project, he became cocky, and thought because of his previous success with Limp Bizkit, duplicating that success with a new band would be simple. Borland soon found out this wasn't the case. Eat The Day eventually unravelled itself, as, in Borland's words, "I think everybody involved in that project had different ideas about the direction that it should go". Borland became self-absorbed, and along with continuous pressure from the label, and struggles finding a lead singer for the band, the project eventually disbanded.
In terms of their lineup, the band is somewhat of a successor to the brief project The Damning Well, which consisted of mostly the same members. The main difference this time around being that Borland has taken vocals into his own hands, after many attempts to find a proper vocalist in various projects.
After the 'failure' of Borland's various projects, he returned to Limp Bizkit once again, turning down the spot as Nine Inch Nails touring guitar player. According to vocalist Fred Durst, Borland only agreed to return to the band on the condition that their label, Geffen, agreed to support his solo project, Black Light Burns.
It began only as a side project, with Borland writing many of the songs during his time off from Limp Bizkit, but soon things in Limp Bizkit became very quiet, and Borland himself stated that Black Light Burns was now his main project, and anything else he did, including Limp Bizkit, was a side project. Eventually arguments broke out on MySpace between Borland and Durst, and Borland left Limp Bizkit once again, although according to him, the band members had already gone their separate ways, he simply decided not to return.
The Black Light Burns song titled "I Have a Need" was instrumentally written to be included on the Limp Bizkit release The Unquestionable Truth (Part 1) in 2005, but was cut in order for the EP to remain mostly metal oriented. It features Limp Bizkit's bassist Sam Rivers on the track, and Wes was allowed to use the song for Black Light Burns when the song was turned down for use by Limp Bizkit.
On June 16, Borland announced that the band and Geffen Records had parted ways. There was little word in the following months over the situation regarding a new label, though as of October 25, the band is in negotiations with a label, and are hoping to release their debut album early 2007.
Borland has stated that he is the only constant in Black Light Burns, as the other members of the studio lineup are expected to be mostly unable to participate in touring with Black Light Burns, such as the notoriously busy Josh Freese.
The initial touring lineup of Black Light Burns includes Nick Annis (previously in Open Hand, Turn of the Screw) as a guitarist and Marshall Kilpatric (previously in The Esoteric) on drums, as well as Wes Borland himself.
Black Light Burns' first tour was previously set to begin in fall of 2006 with From First to Last, who Borland also plays bass for on and off. This tour was to feature Borland doing double duty as the singer/guitarist for Black Light Burns and then bassist for From First to Last afterwards. However, Sonny Moore (singer of FFTL) developed a node on his right vocal chord and has to get surgery, thus ending Wes Borland's current touring stint with From First To Last.
In late 2007-early 2008, after a scheduled break from touring for the their label to secure an overseas release of Cruel Melody, Black Light Burns announced plans for a covers album that also includes remixes and b-sides from Cruel Melody, and a DVD containing live and behind the scenes footage of the band. Artists PJ Harvey, INXS, The Jesus Lizard, Love and Rockets, The Swans, Fiona Apple, Lard, and Borland's own old side project Big Dumb Face will be covered for the release. The two discs will be released together in spring of 2008.
On March 30, 2008 Wes Borland made a post on the band's MySpace about how he filled in for the band X Japan and was "looking forward to coming home and getting back to work on the next BLB album", by which he means the second full length Black Light Burns album, due to the fact that their cover song album was already complete by that point in time.
As of August 2008, at the ETP Conference, it was announced that Borland is now the current Marilyn Manson tour guitarist.
Also Two new songs have appeared on http://www.myspace.com/wesleyborland. They are entitled Cats and Cats And Cats, B4Lf3r
Much like Nine Inch Nails, Black Light Burns consists of two entities, the studio band, and the live band. Some members of the band that recorded in the studio may not be able to tour with the band, and future live members might contribute to future CD releases, therefore lineup changes could occur. Borland did all of the vocals, guitar, and bass on the album.
Studio Line-up
1. Wes Borland - (previously in Limp Bizkit, Eat The Day, Big Dumb Face)
2. Danny Lohner - (previously in Nine Inch Nails, A Perfect Circle)
3. Josh Freese - (The Vandals, Nine Inch Nails, A Perfect Circle, many more)
4. Josh Eustis - (Telefon Tel Aviv)
When asked on Black Light Burns's MySpace if the studio band listed above would return for the band's second record, Wes Borland replied "Probably not. Marshall is the full time drummer for BLB now, but Danny Lohner may be returning for some input on the next record."
Live Line-up
1. Wes Borland - Vocals, Guitar
2. Marshall Kilpatric - Drums (previously in The Esoteric, Today is the Day)
3. Nick Annis - Guitar (previously in Open Hand, Turn Of The Screw, shortly played for Seether while on tour in Ozzfest)
4. Dennis Sanders Jr.-Bass
Wes Borland's MacBook Pro will be playing the keyboard or loops that the four above bandmembers can't/won't be playing live. According to Borland, Josh Eustis, who played keyboards and sound design on Cruel Melody, was supposed to join the live lineup, but opted to do production instead, leaving Borland to use his laptop to reproduce samples and keyboards live.
One of Yours
Black Light Burns Lyrics
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I think of your face, and I pretend that I'm not alone
I'm lining up all the love and the trust and the good things
But there's a hole in my heart where I once kept a piece of home
[Chorus:]
What if one of yours turned a color
You didn't mean for it to be?
Would you hear it say:
Let me go
This isn't what I wanted, I can't be here anymore
Let me go
This isn't what I needed, I can't exist here anymore
I've been thinking about my money
And how I gave it all away
I've been thinking about the people
And how I should have never let 'em stay
I've been thinking about how I always have to write just one more song
Well, you know me, and that'll never change
But I meant well all along, and I was wrong
[Chorus]
Replace the silence with deafening sound
Send away the people; I want no one around
This is my greatest mistake, I hope you realize
I die every time I look in your eyes
[Chorus]
In Black Light Burns's song One of Yours, the lyrics describe the internal struggle of trying to make the right choices but feeling lost and alone. The singer tries to distract himself by thinking of someone they care about, but they can't fill the empty space in their heart. They are trying to hold onto love, trust, and good things, but it's not enough. The chorus asks the listener to consider what if someone they care about changes, becomes someone else, or wants to leave? It's a plea to hear them and respect their desire to let go if it's not what they wanted or needed.
The second verse reflects on the singer's regrets and how they gave away their money and let people stay too long. They are struggling to find meaning in their creative pursuits and feel like they are always chasing something more. The last lines of the verse reveal the singer's intention to do good, but they made mistakes. The bridge then shifts the tone of the song to one of despair and loneliness. The singer would rather have noise and chaos than silence and face the reality of their failure. They want to be alone with their pain, and the weight of their mistakes is overwhelming.
Overall, the song is an emotional ballad about the struggle to make the right choices and the consequences of our actions. It's a complex and relatable theme that many of us can connect to on a personal level.
Line by Line Meaning
Sucker myself into believing that I'm doing the right thing
I deceive myself into thinking that my actions are just.
I think of your face, and I pretend that I'm not alone
I imagine your presence so that I don't feel lonely.
I'm lining up all the love and the trust and the good things
I'm putting all the positive aspects of my life in order.
But there's a hole in my heart where I once kept a piece of home
I feel an emptiness inside that was once filled by something familiar.
What if one of yours turned a color
What if something you cherish changes unexpectedly?
You didn't mean for it to be?
Was it a conscious decision or just an accident?
And what if one of yours became another?
What if something or someone you know transforms into something else?
Would you hear it say:
If it could talk, what would it say?
Let me go this isn't what I wanted, I can't be here anymore
I want to leave because this situation is not what I desired or can tolerate anymore.
Let me go this isn't what I needed, I can't exist here anymore
I have to get out of here because this environment does not fulfill my necessity to survive.
I've been thinking about my money
I'm reflecting on the material possessions I possess.
And how I gave it all away
I'm considering how I have squandered my resources.
I've been thinking about the people
I'm pondering about the relationships I have with others.
And how I should have never let 'em stay
I realize that maybe it was a mistake to let certain people stay in my life.
I've been thinking about how I always have to write just one more song
I'm preoccupied with the need to create music all the time.
Well, you know me, and that'll never change
I'm implying that it's difficult to change a part of who I am.
But I meant well all along, and I was wrong
Even though I had good intentions, I made mistakes.
Replace the silence with deafening sound
I want to fill the emptiness with excessive noise.
Send away the people; I want no one around
I feel like isolating myself from everyone.
This is my greatest mistake, I hope you realize
I believe that the worst error I've made in my life is becoming clear.
I die every time I look in your eyes
I feel emotional pain when I make eye contact with you.
Let me go this isn't what I wanted, I can't be here anymore
I want to leave because this situation is not what I desired or can tolerate anymore.
Let me go this isn't what I needed, I can't exist here anymore
I have to get out of here because this environment does not fulfill my necessity to survive.
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