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Blue October Lyrics

In the day by day collision
The parts of our lives that come together and clash against each other each day

Called the art of growing up
The process of learning and maturing over time

There's an innocence we look for in the stars
A longing for the pure and innocent things in life

To be taken back to younger days
A desire to return to the carefree days of childhood

When there was no giving up
When we had boundless hope, energy, and optimism

On the people we held closest to our hearts
The people who meant the most to us then and now

Yeah it is you that I remember in that glowing
A nostalgic memory of someone who brought light and happiness to our past

It is you that took my first away from me
A confession of loss and pain from a traumatic event caused by someone close

It is you I set my standards to to every walk of life
A misguided attempt to model life and behavior after a person who caused harm

I haven't met another you since you were with me.
A realization that the person was unique and irreplaceable but also carried a dark legacy

I freak out with a razor blade cut me
A reaction to severe emotional pain manifested physically

I freaked out, thinking people didn't love me
A sense of isolation and loneliness fueled by trauma

I watched closely as the you I knew forgot me
A recognition that the person who once cared had moved on, leaving behind unresolved issues and unresolved feelings

In letting go, I am so proud of what I've done yeah
A sense of strength and empowerment that comes from processing and moving on from trauma

In a way, I failed religion
A loss of faith in traditional beliefs and institutions

I spit the wine from my mouth to cup
A rejection of the symbols and rituals of religion

And I reached for something more than just your God
An attempt to find meaning and purpose beyond traditional religion

Uncle, you spared not your children
A direct accusation of abuse against a family member

And while your praying hands are up
A bitter criticism of the hypocrisy and betrayal of religious figures who abuse their power

There's no forgiveness for you! You sick fuck!
A rejection of the idea of forgiveness for someone who caused such harm and destruction

It is you that I remember in their bedroom
A haunting memory of the person who caused harm in a place of supposed safety

It is you that took their first away from them
A recognition of the devastating loss and pain caused by the abuser

It is you they set their standards to
A tragic outcome where the abuser becomes a model for behavior and life

You wounded them for life
A statement of fact about the long-lasting damage caused by abuse

You were a preacher and suppose to be above men
A harsh indictment of the double standard and hypocrisy of religious authority figures who abuse their power

Sing with me
A call for solidarity and shared experience with others who have suffered trauma

Carry on yeah carry on yeah carry on, carry on! yeah!
A final rallying cry of strength and perseverance in the face of adversity

I tried, I tried I tried letting go I tried
An acknowledgement that letting go of the trauma and pain is not easy and takes effort and time