If Only
Bridge Lyrics

If the sun and moon were aligned
In a perfect world, everything would line up and everything would be possible.

And they both crashed to the stars
That perfect world is an idealistic fantasy that is impossible to attain.

If you weren't so far behind
If only others could understand and empathize with the situation and emotions of the singer.

You have a gun aimed at my heart
The artist feels threatened and vulnerable to those around them.

I can not fall victim to my rage
The artist is trying to prevent themselves from succumbing to their negative emotions and impulses.

Feeling like a slave I do not reach out
The singer is feeling trapped and helpless, but refuses to ask for help or sympathy.

I may never fucking see a stage
The singer is doubtful about their future success and ability to make it in the spotlight.

Hopping off this plane if I feel compelled
If the artist doesn't feel comfortable or safe, they are ready to leave or escape the situation at any time.

Oh if only you knew
The artist wishes that others could have a deeper understanding of their struggles and emotions.

(If only) I've been having battles with myself
The artist is struggling internally with negative thoughts and emotions.

Thoughts underwater—let 'em drift away
The singer is trying to let go of negative thoughts and emotions and move past them.

I've been screaming, yelling up to God
The artist is angry and frustrated with their life and is seeking some kind of divine intervention or guidance.

Throw the kid a book, let me flip the page
The singer is seeking a fresh start or new perspective in life.

I cannot expect to walk this road
The singer is acknowledging that life is difficult and unpredictable.

Damage to my soul, leaving behold
The singer feels wounded and hurt by their experiences and past mistakes.

I don't want to feel this world anymore
The artist is exhausted and overwhelmed by the struggles and negativity of the world around them.

All my life, all my life, they calling me up(?)
The artist has been dealing with criticisms, doubts, or expectations from others for a long time.

If I would've known what I know now
The singer wishes they had more experience and knowledge to better navigate their struggles.

If only I knew
The singer wishes they had more foresight and insight to better navigate their struggles.

If I could go back and do it all
The artist wishes they could undo their past mistakes and experiences.

I would change a thing
The artist wishes they could change the outcomes of their past experiences and decisions.

I would double up
The artist would try harder and put in more effort to avoid making the same mistakes again.

How can you keep talking while you fall
The singer is frustrated with those who continue to criticize or lecture them despite being in a vulnerable, struggling state.

You get double-crossed, we just double up
The artist is surrounded by people who are untrustworthy or manipulative, but they will only work harder to overcome any obstacles they face.

So I'm not really hearing what you say
The singer is too preoccupied with their own struggles to pay much attention to other people's opinions or criticisms.

Pain has never got me anywhere anyway
The singer acknowledges that their past pain and struggles have not led to any positive results or personal growth.

All I really think about is this
The singer is preoccupied and consumed by their own struggles and problems.

Try to box me in
The artist is fighting against feeling trapped or limited by their situation or surroundings.

Put that thing away(?)
The artist is demanding that others put away any weapons, physical or metaphorical, that threaten them or make them feel unsafe.