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Bumpy Knuckles Lyrics

As a child I felt lonely and helpless
When I was young, I experienced feelings of isolation and powerlessness.

Low cash from a neighborhood wealthless
Growing up in a disadvantaged neighborhood, my family lacked financial resources.

I'll stick a wino, and rob him for his last penny
I resorted to desperate measures, such as mugging a homeless person, to obtain money.

Happy days around my way we didn't find many
In my neighborhood, finding moments of joy and contentment was a rare occurrence.

Momma said that I was outta line talkin smack
My mother reprimanded me for using disrespectful language.

Extension cords to this young nigga's black back
As punishment, I endured physical abuse, like being struck with extension cords.

A juvenile, thirteen, now I'm locked up
At the age of thirteen, I was arrested and incarcerated.

Scared to cry, I don't wanna get fucked up
I suppressed my tears out of fear of facing further harm and mistreatment.

Fifty push ups a strain on my young chest
Performing fifty push-ups was physically challenging for my still-developing chest muscles.

I paint the pictures that I pose for a sleeveless
I vividly express my experiences through my art, baring my soul without any barriers.

I see my momma only supervised when she cry
My mother's presence was only noticeable when she shed tears, revealing her own pain.

She said my baby brother's comin he aint far behind
My mother informed me that I would soon have a younger sibling.

Somebody tell me how I ended up like this
I seek understanding and explanation for how my life has unfolded in this manner.

I wait for God to give me strength, I'ma fight this
I rely on my faith and hope God will provide me with the strength to overcome my struggles.

I refuse to bend down cuz I'm young and wild
Despite my circumstances, I resist succumbing to defeat because of my youth and rebellious spirit.

Do or die that's this young nigga's rough style
I adopt a mentality of taking extreme risks because that's the tough and fierce persona I portray.

They'll never find me
I believe that I can elude detection and remain hidden from those who seek to harm or capture me.

I hit the street full grown, momma's gone now
As a mature adult, I navigate the streets without the guidance or presence of my mother.

Had a heart attack I'm living on my own now
After my mother experienced a heart attack, I am left to fend for myself and live independently.

My black boots and my state green all I own
The only possessions I have are my black boots and a state green outfit.

And a burning desire for a microphone
I possess an intense passion and longing to pursue a career in music.

I see my little man Tiah bless me wit a burner
My young companion named Tiah provides me with a firearm as a blessing or gift.

Any coincidence I'm feeling like Nat Turner
Drawing a parallel, I compare myself to Nat Turner, a historical figure known for his rebellion against slavery.

Twenty stick ups in thirty days they see me comin
Within a short period, I engage in numerous robberies, and people become aware of my presence and actions.

Everybody on the block duck and start runnin
Upon seeing me approach, everyone in the neighborhood quickly takes cover and flees.

A old lady told me baby boy calm down
An elderly woman advises me to relax and find inner peace, despite the chaos and violence I am involved in.

But like in Vietnam war I got to bomb now
Referring to the Vietnam War, I feel compelled to engage in acts of aggression and destruction.

My cash was up a little somethin, somethin, takin shake
My financial resources had increased significantly, and I decided to purchase drugs or narcotics.

I blasted reddie at the weedgate and took his papes
I fired a weapon at someone guarding a location where marijuana is sold, then stole their money.

Cuz I done came a long way, in a short time
Considering the progress I have made, despite a limited timeframe, I feel a sense of accomplishment.

And I'm willing to die tryin to get mine
I possess an unwavering determination to obtain what I desire, even if it means risking my life.

Alotta niggas think I'm cool wit 'em, guess what
Many individuals believe that I am friendly and on good terms with them, but there is a surprising revelation to come.

Them niggas in for a shock cuz I'm fucked up
Those individuals will be shocked to discover that I am in a state of chaos and internal turmoil.

You'll never find me
I am confident that I can keep evading detection and remain hidden from those who pursue me.

I got a little crew now I'm selling weight
I have a small group of associates, and I engage in selling drugs to support myself financially.

White mickeyed out Navigator, tight straight
I own a white Navigator customized with luxury features, like tinted windows and a sleek appearance.

I got the butter soft seats watch a video
Inside my vehicle, I enjoy the comfort of buttery soft seats while watching a video.

Stag a lee, everybody in the city knows
Known by the name Stag A Lee, I have gained notoriety and recognition throughout the city.

I make my rounds and I'm checkin how my work's moving
I travel to various locations to assess the progress and efficiency of my drug-selling operations.

Shit is picking up nice, life is improving
The drug business is thriving and my overall quality of life appears to be getting better.

I got the baddest bird in Brooklyn, she six months
I have the most attractive and desirable woman in Brooklyn as my romantic partner, and we have been together for six months.

She keep a eye on my whole house, my youngsters
My girlfriend maintains surveillance over my entire household and takes care of my children.

I got my honey on the side she don't know about
I have another woman on the side, and my main girlfriend is unaware of this relationship.

I'm on my way to see her now, I'm a blow her out
I am currently heading to meet my secret lover, and our encounter is bound to be passionate and intense.

I pull up to see her standing in the door waiting
Upon arriving at her location, I find her eagerly waiting for my arrival at the door.

Shorty fine like a porn star masturbating
Describing the attractiveness of my secret lover, she possesses an allure akin to that of a pornographic actress engaging in self-pleasure.

She said, 'Daddy are you hungry, would you like to eat
My lover inquires about my hunger and offers to prepare a meal for me.

Would you let me rub your back, can I kiss your feet'
Expressing her willingness to provide physical pampering and affection, she seeks permission to massage my back and kiss my feet.

I told her, 'Baby make the bed cuz I need rest'
In response, I request her to make the bed, as I am in need of some rest and relaxation.

She sucked me down until I fell asleep, God bless
She proceeds to perform oral sex on me, leading to a state of relaxation and eventually falling asleep.

I see my momma with my eyes closed, kinda strange
In my dreams or imagination, I am able to see and interact with my mother, which feels peculiar.

Time to wake up and touch something, outta range
After awakening from my slumber, it is time for me to engage in illicit activities that are considered outside the boundaries of normalcy.

White clouds with the softness I hear the music
As I float in a state of euphoria, represented by white clouds, I am enveloped by soothing and melodic sounds.

What the hell is going on here I'm 'bout to lose it
Overwhelmed by confusion and a loss of control, my emotions become unstable.

Momma why you talking to me like you right here
Speaking directly to my deceased mother, I wonder why I can hear her voice and feel her presence as if she is still alive.

She said, 'Son you outta focus now, come clear'
In response to my confusion, my mother advises me to regain clarity and refocus on my life's direction.

She said, 'Your life'll be a milestone for everyone
My mother predicts that the way I live my life will serve as a significant example and inspiration for others.

Because your layin in the bed that you made son'
She suggests that the consequences and circumstances I currently face are a direct result of my own actions and choices.

Look how they found me
Despite my attempts to remain hidden, others eventually discover and locate me.

Searchin' to find me
People are actively searching and seeking to locate my whereabouts.

Searchin' to find me
The search for me continues, with individuals determined to discover my location.

Searchin' to find me
Efforts persist in trying to find and locate me.

Searchin' to find me
The search for my whereabouts remains ongoing.

My soul will be free before they find me
I express my belief that I will attain freedom and liberation before those searching for me are able to locate me.