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Bumpy Knuckles Lyrics

As a child I felt lonely and helpless
When I was young, I didn't have much, and I often felt very alone and powerless.

Low cash from a neighborhood wealthless
Growing up in a poor neighborhood meant that my family didn't have much money.

I'll stick a wino, and rob him for his last penny
I was so desperate for money that I would even rob homeless people to get what I needed.

Happy days around my way we didn't find many
Growing up in my rough neighborhood, there weren't many happy moments to be found.

Momma said that I was outta line talkin smack
My mother would scold me for being disrespectful and talking back.

Extension cords to this young nigga's black back
My mother would physically punish me by hitting me with extension cords, leaving marks on my back.

A juvenile, thirteen, now I'm locked up
I got into trouble and ended up being put in juvenile detention when I was just thirteen years old.

Scared to cry, I don't wanna get fucked up
I didn't want to show any weakness or vulnerability, so I held back my tears even when I was scared or upset.

Fifty push ups a strain on my young chest
As part of my punishment, I had to do fifty push-ups, which was physically taxing and difficult at my young age.

I paint the pictures that I pose for a sleeveless
Despite my tough exterior, I have a creative side where I like to draw and paint pictures to express myself.

I see my momma only supervised when she cry
Even when my mother was around, she was often overwhelmed and emotional, leaving me to take care of myself.

She said my baby brother's comin he aint far behind
My mother told me that she was expecting a new baby, meaning I would soon have a new sibling.

Somebody tell me how I ended up like this
Despite my hardships, I still wonder why I ended up in this situation.

I wait for God to give me strength, I'ma fight this
I pray for the strength to keep going and persevere through my struggles.

I refuse to bend down cuz I'm young and wild
I refuse to let my circumstances break me, even though I'm young and reckless.

Do or die that's this young nigga's rough style
I have a tough, 'do or die' attitude towards life that comes from growing up in a hard environment.

They'll never find me
Despite my rough exterior, I still have a vulnerability and fear of being found or caught.

My hit the street full grown, momma's gone now
As soon as I was able to, I took to the streets on my own since my mother was no longer around.

Had a heart attack I'm living on my own now
After my mother had a heart attack, I was forced to take care of myself completely.

My black boots and my state green all I own
All I have to my name are my black boots and my state-issued green clothing.

And a burning desire for a microphone
Despite my tough exterior, I have a passion and talent for music, and want nothing more than to perform on stage with a microphone.

I see my little man Tiah bless me wit a burner
My young protege Tiah gave me a gun (a 'burner') as a sign of respect and admiration.

Any coincidence I'm feeling like Nat Turner
I feel powerful and invincible, like the historical figure Nat Turner who led a famous slave rebellion.

Twenty stick ups in thirty days they see me comin
I've been involved in twenty robberies over the past month, and people are starting to take notice.

Everybody on the block duck and start runnin
My reputation is getting so bad that people start running away when they see me coming.

A old lady told me baby boy calm down
Even an old woman tries to tell me to calm down and be less violent.

But like in Vietnam war I got to bomb now
Despite being told to calm down, I feel like I have to go to war and make something happen - like in Vietnam.

My cash was up a little somethin, somethin, takin shake
After some successful robberies, I had a bit of money and was able to buy some drugs (a 'shake') to celebrate.

I blasted reddie at the weedgate and took his papes
I robbed a drug dealer named Reddie at a 'weedgate' (a location where drugs are often sold), taking his money and papers (which might reveal information about him).

Cuz I done came a long way, in a short time
Despite my humble beginnings, I feel like I've come a long way in a short amount of time and deserve my success.

And I'm willing to die tryin to get mine
I don't care if I have to risk my life, I will do whatever it takes to get what I want.

Alotta niggas think I'm cool wit 'em, guess what
Many people think I'm cool (friends) with them, but in reality, they're in for a rude awakening.

Them niggas in for a shock cuz I'm fucked up
Those people who think I'm their friend will soon find out that I'm actually dangerous and messed up.

You'll never find me
Despite being successful and feared, I am still running and hiding from something I can't escape.

I got a little crew now I'm selling weight
I have a small team of people who help me sell drugs (our 'weight' or supply).

White mickeyed out Navigator, tight straight
I drive a fancy white Lincoln Navigator with expensive modifications.

I got the butter soft seats watch a video
My luxury car has comfortable, 'butter soft' seats and a video entertainment system.

Stag a lee, everybody in the city knows
I go by the nickname Stag a Lee, and everyone in the city knows who I am and what I do.

I make my rounds and I'm checkin how my work's moving
I travel around to different drug-selling locations and check on how our product is selling.

Shit is picking up nice, life is improving
Business is good, and my life is getting better and more comfortable.

I got the baddest bird in Brooklyn, she six months
I have a very attractive woman (a 'bird') in Brooklyn who I consider to be the best.

She keep a eye on my whole house, my youngsters
She watches over my home and takes care of my kids (a younger generation).

I got my honey on the side she don't know about
I have another woman on the side who I'm seeing secretly.

I'm on my way to see her now, I'm a blow her out
I'm heading to meet up with my secret lover to have sex with her.

I pull up to see her standing in the door waiting
When I arrive, she's already waiting for me at the door.

Shorty fine like a porn star masturbating
My secret lover is very attractive, with a body like a porn star, and is openly sexual with me.

She said, "Daddy are you hungry, would you like to eat
My secret lover is affectionate with me and asks if I'm hungry and would like something to eat.

Would you let me rub your back, can I kiss your feet"
She offers to give me a massage and kiss my feet, which shows her respect and submission to me.

I told her, "Baby make the bed cuz I need rest"
I ask her to make the bed, as I want to take some time to rest and relax.

She sucked me down until I fell asleep, God bless
My secret lover performs oral sex on me until I fall asleep, which feels good and helps me relax.

I see my momma with my eyes closed, kinda strange
In my dreams, I see my mother even though she has passed away, which feels both comforting and strange.

Time to wake up and touch something, outta range
It's time to wake up and get back to my reality, which is often far from my dreams or hopes.

White clouds with the softness I hear the music
As I wake up, I feel like I'm surrounded by white clouds and softness, and hear music playing.

What the hell is going on here I'm 'bout to lose it
Despite the calm and comfort around me, I feel like something is off and I'm starting to lose control.

Momma why you talking to me like you right here
In my confused state, I feel like my mother is actually talking to me and present in the room with me.

She said, "Son you outta focus now, come clear"
In this dream-like state, I feel like my mother is trying to communicate with me and tell me to focus and come back to reality.

She said, "Your life'll be a milestone for everyone
As if she's prophesying my future, my mother tells me that I will do something significant that will impact everyone around me.

Because your layin in the bed that you made son"
My mother reminds me that I have created the circumstances and consequences of my own actions, and must live with the results.

Look how they found me
As if waking from a dream, I realize that I'm still trying to hide and run from something, and I'm not sure how long I can keep it up.

Searchin' to find me
Despite all of my success and riches, I still feel lost and alone, as if someone is searching to find me and reveal my secrets.

My soul will be free before they find me
I hope that my soul will be free and at peace before anyone is able to track me down and reveal my secrets to the world.