Be There
Cam Meekins Lyrics

I never realized how much effort it took
I didn't appreciate how much work was needed to maintain our relationship

I made a mistake, but just a second look
I was too impulsive and made a bad decision

I mean I know that you don′t talk to me
I understand that you don't want to communicate with me

Cut me off blocking me
You've completely shut me out, making it hard to reconnect

I zoned out properly when you said you was off of me
I didn't fully comprehend when you said you were done with me

It's hard to hear the woman you love
It's painful to listen to the person you care about the most

Telling you stories bout′ how she couldn't grow up
Sharing her struggles with growing up and maturing

You would hold her down mentally, controlling her
You were emotionally manipulating and dominating her

Making her feel worse
Your actions and words made her feel even more low

She said fuck the Tiffany and clothes, and fuck the purse
She no longer cares about material possessions because they remind her of our toxic relationship

I mean how could you do this to me
I can't believe you treated me so poorly

But she don't even know though
She doesn't realize the full extent of what she did to me

It′s put together as I look i′m just another Joe Schmoe
To the outside world, I appear ordinary and unremarkable

The car all that is is a ride
My car is just a mode of transportation

The money don't mean shit when I die
Money doesn't matter in the grand scheme of things

The worst thing she took was my pride
You hurt my ego and sense of self-worth the most

I break it down slowly, like a pound of that kush
I'm taking my time to process my emotions, like when you slowly break down marijuana

I burn it down slowly now just to give me a push
I'm taking small steps to move on and motivate myself

I still see your clothes now, when i′m doing my laundry
Your clothes are still around and it reminds me of you

I keep cleanin um' in case she wanna′ come cop' em
I'm washing your clothes just in case you want to pick them up

I′m out my mind wit' it
I'm going crazy over this situation

I had to let her know though
I needed to communicate my feelings to her

I hope she hear this song, cuz' I ain't′ tryna' let her go though
I created this song to express my desire to not let go of our relationship

I threw it all away, just for another ho though
I ruined everything we had for someone else who wasn't worth it

It′s crazy how we sabotage ourselves as we grow old
It's strange that we make poor decisions as we mature

Drive around at night, thinking about crashing my beemer
Sometimes I have thoughts of self-harm and destruction

Now i'm hitting clubs, seven day I haven′t seen her
I'm using partying and socializing to distract myself from the breakup

Feeling so depressed, realizing now that I need her
I'm feeling down and recognizing that I still want her in my life

I'd rip my fucking heart out if could [?]
I'm so distraught that I would do something drastic if I could

So can I please just have some peace of mind for once
I just want a moment of calm amidst my chaos

I know i′m not the only one
I realize that others have gone through similar struggles

And I hope you'll been there to support me
I want you to be there for me and offer help and comfort

And I Hope you'll be there to show love
I'm hoping for your affection and care

Gettin' closer to God cuz′ it's just me and myself
I'm turning to religion and spirituality because I feel alone

Livin′ in this cold world, tryna' hustle and kill it
I'm trying to succeed and thrive in this difficult world

I'm not gonna′ let it die
I refuse to give up

Why? come and talk to me inside
I'm questioning why you won't speak to me or work things out

Might break down and cry when i look in her eyes
I might become emotional when I see you in person

This real shit, true story homie
These lyrics are genuine and based on true events

Live right next to her, when she′s on the green line
I live near you and use the same public transportation as you

Wonder who she text to
I'm wondering who you're talking to and if it's someone new

I'm getting crazy
I'm starting to feel unstable and erratic

Jelousy? Nah′ I ain't′ got that in me
I'm not jealous, just hurt

Just trying to be me, and not who I pretended to be
I'm trying to be my authentic self and not conform to other's expectations

Come back home we still got a tv show to finish
I'm using humor and nostalgia to try and reconcile with you

She said there can't be no us, and nah Cam we′re finished
You've made it clear that we can't be together anymore

Music changed my life, but it also made my untouchable
Music has had a tremendous impact on my life, but it's also caused problems in my personal relationships

It's lonely at the top and Boston makes me not fuck with you
Success can be isolating, and living in the same city as you makes it harder to move on

I'm open [?], feel like this fight is never ending
I'm feeling vulnerable and the conflict between us seems never-ending

See her online grinning, where′s my two dollars and ten cent man
I see you happy online, but I also remember lending you money

I don′t give a fuck about any of your friend man
I don't care about your friends, I'm only concerned with us

She a vegetarian, uh, told her I'm a pieces
You're a vegetarian and I'm a Pisces

Born march fourteen one nine ninety three
I was born on March 14, 1993

Six one seven
The area code for Boston, where we both live

I meditate my mind
I practice meditation to clear my thoughts and find inner peace

Exercise my strengths, energize my grind
I focus on my strengths and work hard to achieve success

Back when Katie Couric still did the today show
Referring to a specific time period in the past

He was still in grade school playing in my takeo
A memory of someone from the past

Uh, over these beats and uh, only the facts uh
These lyrics are truthful and presented over a instrumental beat

Do to Do to Do uh
Non-lyrical vocalization

Where yall′ at
Asking where the listeners are from

It's the ones who say the least who get the most respect
The quiet and understated people often garner the most admiration

So I′d rather speak with beats than to speak with my breath
I prefer expressing myself through music rather than spoken words

And i'd rather speak peace than to speak of some breast
I'd rather talk about peace and positivity, rather than objectify women

And i′d rather be me than to get your respect
I value being true to myself over gaining approval from others

Cuz' I know on these beats my words often reflect
My lyrics are a reflection of my true self

The situation that i'm in on a particular day
The events and emotions I experience on a given day

But particularly I ain′t trying to say
I don't have anything specific to express at this moment

Cuz′ I am not a product you're buying the product is me
I refuse to compromise my art and identity for commercial success