The Death of an Illusion
Capstan Lyrics

I once heard my mother say that heaven isn't really so far away but recently somethings changed in me and I know this will kill her but I'll have to disagree.
I used to believe in heaven like my mother did, but my recent experiences have made me disagree with her, even though it may hurt her feelings.

Because I've grown tired of the stained-glass and ceiling tiles, prescription pills and the blind faith trials.
The traditional religious practices and rituals, along with dependency on medication, no longer resonate with me and I don't believe in them anymore.

It's genocide in a different style.
The negative impact of blindly following religion and taking prescription drugs can be just as damaging as actual genocide.

I won't ask for forgiveness.
I won't apologize for my beliefs because I believe that they are true.

I'm no longer afraid.
I have overcome my fear of going against the norm and expressing my own beliefs.

Because I've found faith in myself and the people I love. Not through medication or forgiveness from above.
I now have faith in my own abilities and the support of my loved ones, rather than relying on medication or divine intervention.

Left in the dark with no divine light. Only helping hands and my own will to fight.
Without the guidance of religion, I rely on myself and those around me to find my way and overcome obstacles.

With experience we unearth the roots to grow.
Through our life experiences, we can discover the underlying causes of our struggles and use them as a catalyst for growth.

At one point in time our rope ends or unwinds and leaves your mind tangled and closed.
Sometimes we reach a point where our beliefs no longer serve us and we become stuck and closed off from new ideas.

Role searching, it's what defeats and mangles most.
The search for one's true purpose can be challenging and lead to confusion and self-doubt.

But what keeps your heart soul surfing lends to living on as ghosts.
By staying true to our heart and soul, we can live on through the memories and impact we leave on others.

Maybe we're not all living in hell but we've been conditioned to live in a prison cell.
We may not be in literal hell, but societal norms and expectations can feel like a prison that limits our freedom and growth.

Hide me from whatever concept this instills or hang me from the rafters of this people mill.
I don't want to be associated with the beliefs and practices that limit our growth and well-being, even if it means being rejected or punished by society.

Death is an architect. It's shaping days and taking names through heart attacks and common disconnects.
Death is a natural part of life that can happen in unexpected ways and affect anyone, regardless of their beliefs or status.

And at least I can say I'll be ready for it.
I am at peace with the inevitability of death and feel prepared to face it on my own terms.