Ten
Chill Bump Lyrics

When I die, fuck it I wanna go to hell
I have lived a pretty bad life, so when I die, going to hell makes more sense.

′Cause I'ma piece of shit
I am not proud of myself.

Dwelling in my lonely shell
I am alone and depressed.

It don′t make sense
Life is unreasonable.

Trying to find my holy grail
I am still searching for meaning in my life.

I'd rather smoke an L
I prefer to have a blunt/joint of weed.

Bone a skank and grab her poney-tail
I would rather have sex with a promiscuous girl and grab her hair while doing it.

God'll probably have me stop my foul behaviour
If there is a God, he would want me to quit my bad habits.

No more lounging, wasted
I wouldn't waste my time just lying around drunk/high.

Faded in a cloud of vapor
I would rather be surrounded by smoke and vapor.

Hanging with the crowd of angels
I would rather spend time with other party-goers and not be isolated.

Purging in a perfect world
I don't want to live in an ideal world where I have to be perfect.

Fuck that shit
I am not interested in any of that.

I wanna slurp gin and flirt with girls
I would rather drink gin and flirt with girls.

All my life I′ve been considered as the worst
I have always been treated poorly and as the worst person.

I′d feel my dick in church
I am sexually aroused even when in church.

Fingers under sisters' skirts
I have sexual misconduct when it comes to my siblings.

I live but in reverse, cursed
I feel like my life is a curse because of my behavior and life choices.

I′m an anomily
I am unique and different from others.

Mum probably wished
My mother probably regrets having me.

She'd practiced sodomy or swallowed me
She should have aborted me or prevented me from being born.

She don′t even love me
My mother doesn't even love me anymore.

Like she did when I was small
My mother used to love me when I was younger.

She should have used the pillow way
My mother should have smothered me with a pillow.

Before I learnt to crawl
When I was much younger.

Someone tell my loved ones
Please tell my close family and friends.

I ain't even worth the brawl
I am not even worth fighting over.

I took my money out the bank
I withdrew all my money from the bank.

And fucking burnt it all
I set all my money on fire.

I wonder if I die will anybody cry
I wonder if I have anyone who truly cares about me.

I don′t wanna know
I don't want to find out whether anyone cares about me.

I wanna go that's bottom line
I just want to go and die already.

The stress is building up, I can't
I am getting more and more stressed, and I cannot handle it.

Shit, I can′t believe
I can't believe that I am in this situation.

Suicide′s on my fucking mind
I have been contemplating suicide.

I cannot breathe
I can't breathe well because of the stress I am under.

I swear to God it feels like
I feel like God is punishing me.

Death is trying to squeeze my throat
I feel as though death is trying to kill me.

My demons keep on choking me
My inner demons are suffocating me.

Shit I don't need a rope
I don't need a rope to kill myself.

I need some coke
I need some cocaine as a coping mechanism.

I need a load of weed I can smoke
I need a lot of weed to smoke and relax.

Needles with dope
I also need heroin.

′Til I'm deseased from a seizure or stroke
I will just keep doing drugs until I die from a seizure or stroke.

See, when they burn me
When I am cremated.

Line my ashes up and snort ′em
People can snort my ashes when I am gone.

Don't act like you care
No one actually cares anyway.

′Cause my ass is unimportant
Because I am unimportant as a person.

And I'm sick of brothers lying
I am so tired of people lying to me.

I'm sick of bitches squawking
I am tired of hearing girls gossip and complain.

Matter fact, pshhh
Actually, I don't care anymore.

I′m sick of talking
I don't even want to talk anymore.

When he died I was just like, "Woah"
When Christopher Wallace (the Notorious B.I.G) died, I was quite shocked.

I would never wish death on nobody, you know what I′m sayin'?
I would never wish death on anyone.

′Cause there ain't no comin′ back from that
Once someone dies, they cannot come back to life.

But at the same time, you know
Although that is true.

You know I fell for his mums
I sympathize with his mother's loss.

Of course family and whatever, but you know
The family and friends of the deceased must feel much worse.

Things gotta move on
Life goes on, and things must continue forward.