Being Alone
Chris Carmack Lyrics

I finally got my feet wet
I have finally taken a risk and jumped into something new

Can I commit to this rising sea
Am I ready to fully devote myself to this new experience?

Or am I coming home?
Or do I need to retreat back to my comfort zone?

I feel like I got a freight train hit down on me
I am burdened with a heavy weight and it is taking a toll on me

But I'm somehow hanging on
Despite the difficulties, I am managing to stay afloat

I lay awake at night and dream of things that they can't see
I have secret aspirations and desires that others don't know about

Well, I try to reconcile all the plans they've made for me
I attempt to come to terms with the expectations others have placed on me

And they tell me realize my freedom while I'm on my own
Others encourage me to take advantage of my independence

But there's nothing free about being alone
However, loneliness comes with its own struggles and challenges

I have tried temptation, someone to have and to hold
I have sought out companionship and love to fill the void

I've tried medication, to fill the void in my soul
I have turned to drugs or other distractions to numb the pain of loneliness

I've tried contemplation, I thought I could think myself home
I have tried to meditate or reflect in order to find a sense of peace within myself

Most folks can change their philosophy
Others are able to adapt their way of thinking to better fit in or succeed

To get a leg up in the game
To gain an advantage in life

Me, I'm just stuck here with what I believe
I, on the other hand, feel limited by my own beliefs and values

And it ain't got no fancy name
My way of thinking doesn't have a trendy label or catchphrase

I don't trust myself with life's beautiful things
I am afraid to let myself fully enjoy the good things in life

My stone hands and heart can break whatever it builds
My defenses and emotional barriers can damage or destroy anything positive that comes my way