This Is My Version
Conor Maynard Lyrics

Four in the morning, staring at the ceiling,
It's very early in the morning and I find myself awake, unable to sleep, just laying in bed and looking up towards the ceiling.

On my own like I was last weekend,
Just like last weekend, I'm alone and without company.

You left and I guess you had your reasons, guess you had your reasons, yeah
You're no longer with me, and although I don't know why you left, I assume you must have had some good reasons for it.

I said things and I didn't really mean them,
I spoke without thinking and said things that I didn't truly intend to say.

Kept going 'til I saw your heart bleeding,
I kept talking and saying things until I noticed that I hurt your feelings deeply.

Ruined the only thing I ever believed in,
By hurting you, I destroyed the one thing that I had placed all my faith and trust in.

Ever believed in, yeah
It's something I've always held on to, and now it's gone.

And even though you're gone
Although you're no longer here with me.

I'm gonna pretend there's nothing wrong
I'll act like everything is okay even though it's not.

I'm fucking every girl that comes along
I'm using meaningless sexual encounters as a way to distract myself from the pain of losing you.

Anything is better than to face up to reality, oooh
I'm avoiding confronting the harsh reality of our breakup by indulging in meaningless, temporary pleasures.

This is my version of heartbreak
This is how I cope with the pain of losing you.

This is how I get over you
This is my way of moving on and putting our relationship behind me.

I don't wanna feel
I don't want to experience the pain of heartbreak and loss.

This is my version of heartbreak
This is the only way I know how to deal with the emotional pain of losing you.

And it's all I know how to do
This is the only way I've ever dealt with heartbreak and pain.

I don't wanna feel, like this anymore
I don't want to continue experiencing this pain and heartbreak any longer.

Clothes on the floor yeah the beds all mine and,
There are clothes scattered on the bedroom floor, and the bed is solely mine to occupy.

Staying out 'till the sun starts rising
I'm staying out all night until the break of dawn arrives.

Free as a bird but I'm still not flying
I have my freedom and can do as I please, but I still feel trapped and unable to move on from the past.

God, I'm trying, yeah
Despite everything, I'm trying my best to move on and overcome the hurt caused by our breakup.

I'm telling everyone there's nothing wrong
I'm trying to convince others that I'm doing fine and that there's nothing wrong with me.

Until I can believe you're not the one
Until I can finally accept that we're no longer together and that you're not the one for me.

This is my version of a heartbreak
This is my way of coping with the pain and sadness caused by the end of our relationship.