MY DISGUISE
Currents Lyrics


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There is nothing like the unfamiliar air
It brings me back to when this all made sense
Bitter, depressed, staring back at death
I'm pushing myself to the edge over what happens next
The pain, the cost,
Destruction of the thought
To take account for everything that I've lost
The change, we sought,
Compelling us to rot, I never said I'm the only one
Fight till there's nothing left
You have much more to give
You owe it to yourself
You owe it to yourself
There's nothing wrong with asking for help
In my head I rewind, falling away from my disguise
Am I dead or lost in time?
I'm trying to read through the feelings that lead me to the light
We say we feel alright, while we starve to feel alive
In my head I rewind, falling away, away, away from my disguise
Yeah!
There's nothing there to hold me back
I'm not defined by the things I lack
I often think of the nights I stared into your eyes
And you would tell me what it's like to want to die
I have the heart to forgive
But how could I forget the way you
shut me out when I chose to let you in?
Fight till there's nothing left
You have much more to give
You owe it to yourself
You owe it to yourself
There's nothing wrong with asking for help
In my head I rewind, falling away from my disguise
Am I dead or lost in time?
I'm trying to read through the feelings that lead me to the light
We say we feel alright, while we starve to feel alive
In my head I rewind, falling away, away, away from my disguise
Though we struggle, I trust that this war is not the end
My curse is not my crutch
My curse is not my crutch
I often think of the nights I stared into your eyes
And you would tell me what it's like to want to die
But now I know how you felt when you recalled those
Days you almost left this place, I finally feel your pain
The pain, the cost,
Destruction of the thought
To take account for everything that I've lost
The change we sought,
Compelling us to rot, I never said I'm the only one




We say we feel alright while we starve to feel alive
In my head I rewind, falling away, away, away from my disguise

Overall Meaning

The lyrics of Currents's song "My Disguise" showcase a deep sense of introspection and self-reflection by the singer. It starts with the admission that being in unfamiliar surroundings provides a sense of clarity that has been lost. The previous state of mind was one of bitterness, depression, staring at death's face, and pushing oneself to the limit in anticipation of what's to come. The singer seems to be grappling with the pain and cost of everything they've lost, struggling with change, and feeling compelled to rot. However, they are not alone in this, and others may also be fighting the same battles.


The chorus repeats the message of fighting till there's nothing left and owing it to oneself to keep going. There is no shame in asking for help, and the singer is trying to peel away their layers of disguise and uncover the real emotions that have been buried for so long. In this state of introspection, they realize that they have been starving themselves to feel alive, putting on a brave face when they are, in fact, struggling. The singer ends with the message that, despite the struggles, they trust that this war is not the end. They understand what it feels like to want to die, but they have the heart to forgive and let go of those who've hurt them.


Overall, "My Disguise" is a powerful song about owning one's struggles and being vulnerable enough to ask for help. It shows how introspection can lead to a sense of clarity and the strength to keep going.


Line by Line Meaning

There is nothing like the unfamiliar air
New experiences remind me of a time when things made sense.


Bitter, depressed, staring back at death
I am facing darkness and despair.


I'm pushing myself to the edge over what happens next
I am stressing over what my future holds.


The pain, the cost, Destruction of the thought, To take account for everything that I've lost
I am grappling with the consequences of what I've sacrificed.


The change, we sought, Compelling us to rot, I never said I'm the only one
We desired change, but it has led to our deterioration and I know I am not the only one.


Fight till there's nothing left, You have much more to give, You owe it to yourself, You owe it to yourself, There's nothing wrong with asking for help
Keep fighting even when you feel you can't, because you have more to offer and you deserve help when you need it.


In my head I rewind, falling away from my disguise, Am I dead or lost in time?
In my head, I am trying to escape my facade and questioning if I am still alive or if I have lost my way.


We say we feel alright, while we starve to feel alive
We pretend to be okay, but we are really struggling to find fulfillment.


There's nothing there to hold me back, I'm not defined by the things I lack
I am not limited by my shortcomings and have the power to overcome them.


I have the heart to forgive, But how could I forget the way you shut me out when I chose to let you in?
I want to forgive, but I can't forget how you hurt me for trusting you.


Though we struggle, I trust that this war is not the end, My curse is not my crutch, My curse is not my crutch
We are fighting through tough times, but I have hope that it won't be forever. My hardships do not define me.




Lyrics © O/B/O APRA AMCOS
Written by: Duane Cronkite, Brian Wille, Christopher Wiseman, Ryan Castaldi

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Most interesting comment from YouTube:

@pratikawaik4882

There is nothing like the unfamiliar air
It brings me back to when this all made sense
Bitter, depressed, staring back at death
I'm pushing myself to the edge over what happens next

The pain, the cost
Destruction of the thought
To take account for everything that I've lost
The change, we sought
Compelling us to rot, I never said I'm the only one

Fight 'til there's nothing left
You have much more to give
You owe it to yourself
You owe it to yourself
There's nothing wrong with asking for help

In my head I rewind, falling away from my disguise
Am I dead or lost in time?
I'm trying to read through the feelings that lead me to the light
We say we feel alright, while we starve to feel alive
In my head I rewind, falling away, away, away from my disguise

Yeah!

There's nothing there to hold me back
I'm not defined by the things I lack
I often think of the nights I stared into your eyes
And you would tell me what it's like to want to die
I have the heart to forgive
But how could I forget the way you shut me out when I chose to let you in?

Fight 'til there's nothing left
You have much more to give
You owe it to yourself
You owe it to yourself
There's nothing wrong with asking for help

In my head I rewind, falling away from my disguise
Am I dead or lost in time?
I'm trying to read through the feelings that lead me to the light
We say we feel alright, while we starve to feel alive
In my head I rewind, falling away, away, away from my disguise

Though we struggle, I trust that this war is not the end
My curse is not my crutch
My curse is not my crutch

I often think of the nights I stared into your eyes
And you would tell me what it's like to want to die
But now I know how you felt when you recalled those days
You almost left this place, I finally feel your pain

The pain, the cost
Destruction of the thought
To take account for everything that I've lost
The change we sought
Compelling us to rot, I never said I'm the only one

We say we feel alright while we starve to feel alive
In my head I rewind, falling away, away, away from my disguise



All comments from YouTube:

@NickLovesScreamo

I dont think this band realise how important they are to so many people, they talk so much about mental health/relationships etc and its helping me through so many dark times right now

@drkstrnd

I think they do

@poopguy6208

@@drkstrnd ive talked with brian before, he's a super humble dude and loves his fans so much and all of the guys know that what they do is important

@daegan7582

On the 30th of July I got to scream these lyrics to Bryan’s face with tears in my eyes. Their music has touched my heart. I appreciate them so much.

@geoffgardner8367

They truly are an amazing band, on my way to see them perform tonight!! No matter what dark times you are in, keep fighting dude <3

@pickleweed9342

Daegan that’s my birthday!

@br00talhonesty

This ep is gold

This band helped me love myself,
Value myself
Get over a girl that was toxic
And to remember that everything is okay no matter whAt

@SkookNasty

"We say we feel all right. While we starve to feel alive."

Fucking relatable.

@EnliveningPA

"My curse is not my crutch." Words to live by man.

@jorgeluna927

Metalcore is not dead.

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