Band members:
Tim Kasher – lead vocals, guitars, organ
Matt Maginn – bass, backing vocals
Clint Schnase – drums, percussion
Ted Stevens – guitars, backing vocals
Patrick Newbery – miscellaneous instruments
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What Have I Done?
Cursive Lyrics
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Holed up in a motel in El Paso
This was meant to be my great escape
But, I got lost along the way
Amongst free HBO (Court TV) and take-out
Going to write my Moby Dicks
More like scratching lyrics on paper plates
I spent the best years of my life
So what's there to write about?
What have I done?
What have I done?
So is this my destiny?
From starlight into eternity
The gods must be laughing down at me
Ha, ha, ha
Ha, ha, ha
A traveling salesmen at twenty years old
Stranded in Ann Arbor with a flat tire
And I watch the sun sadly set
Any younger, I may have wept
Much older, I wouldn't notice
But I was out there in the world
Yeah, then the world, it passed me by
I was telling everyone back home
That I was taking it by storm
Instead, I watched it from the roadside
What have I done?
What have I done?
So are these the best tales I can spin?
A boy waiting to begin
A man with no memoirs
What have I done?
What have I done?
You're young and you're going to be someone
Then you're old and you're ashamed of what you've become
Well, take a look around you
You're preaching to the choir
Oh, oh, oh
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The lyrics of the song 'What Have I Done?' by Cursive tell the story of a man who is in his mid-life crisis and looking back at his life with regret. He has spent a year holed up in a motel in El Paso, Texas, in the hope of finding escape from the problems of his life. However, he has found himself confined to the four walls of the room with only court TV and take-out food to keep him company. He had plans to write a novel, perhaps even his own 'Moby Dick,' but only ends up scribbling lyrics on paper plates.
He reflects on how he has wasted away the best years of his life, waiting for the best years of his life, only to realize he has nothing to show for it. He is haunted by the question of 'what have I done?' and wonders if this is his destiny - to live in the oblivion of eternal darkness. He muses on his past as a young salesman stranded in Ann Arbor with a flat tire and how watching the sunset set made him realize time is fleeting. He feels that he has missed too many opportunities, and there are no great tales left for him to spin.
In the final parts of the song, he acknowledges that his situation is not unique, and every person has their own regrets. He realizes that he is preaching to the choir, and there is nothing unique he can say about his life that has not been said before. He ends the song with the same question that haunts him, 'What have I done?' What makes the song relatable is its theme of coming to terms with regret, missed opportunities, and the realization that there is no way to change the past.
Line by Line Meaning
A year now and nothing much has changed
It's been a year since I left, but I'm still stuck in this motel and haven't made much progress in my life
Holed up in a motel in El Paso
I'm stuck in a motel in El Paso and feeling trapped
This was meant to be my great escape
I thought leaving my old life behind would be freeing and exciting, but it hasn't turned out that way
But, I got lost along the way
I became overwhelmed and unsure of my direction in life
Amongst free HBO (Court TV) and take-out
I've been stuck in this motel room, wasting time watching TV and eating takeout
Going to write my Moby Dicks
I had big plans to accomplish something great, like writing a masterpiece, but it hasn't happened
More like scratching lyrics on paper plates
Instead of writing something great, I'm only writing lyrics on scraps of paper
I spent the best years of my life
I wasted the best years of my life hoping for something better
Waiting on the best years of my life
I keep waiting for something great to happen, but it never does
So what's there to write about?
I haven't accomplished anything worth writing about
What have I done?
I feel like I haven't accomplished anything meaningful in my life
So is this my destiny?
I'm starting to wonder if my life is just going to be mediocre and unremarkable
From starlight into eternity
My life feels like it's stretching out forever, with no end in sight
The gods must be laughing down at me
I feel like the universe is mocking me for my lack of success
Ha, ha, ha
This is my bitter laughter in the face of my failures
A traveling salesman at twenty years old
I set out on my journey full of promise and ambition, but it hasn't worked out
Stranded in Ann Arbor with a flat tire
I hit a snag and it's kept me from moving forward
And I watch the sun sadly set
I feel like I'm letting life pass me by
Any younger, I may have wept
If I were younger, I would have been more emotionally overwhelmed by my situation
Much older, I wouldn't notice
If I were older, I wouldn't have as much time to correct my mistakes
But I was out there in the world
I have ventured out to try and make something of myself, but I haven't succeeded
Yeah, then the world, it passed me by
I feel like my life has already peaked and now I'm just going through the motions
I was telling everyone back home
I'm trying to convince myself and others that I'm doing better than I am
That I was taking it by storm
I bragged about my successes, but really I was struggling
Instead, I watched it from the roadside
I was an observer of life, not an active participant
So are these the best tales I can spin?
I'm questioning if my life stories are worth telling if they are all about failure
A boy waiting to begin
I haven't yet attained my dreams, and I'm starting to think maybe these dreams weren't even worth pursuing
A man with no memoirs
I haven't accomplished anything worth remembering or writing about
You're young and you're going to be someone
People tell you when you're young that you have your whole future ahead of you, but often that promise turns out to be empty
Then you're old and you're ashamed of what you've become
As you grow older, you start to realize that maybe you didn't achieve as much as you wanted to and that realization is painful
Well, take a look around you
I'm reminding myself to be present and accepting of where I am in life, even if it's not where I hoped to be
You're preaching to the choir
I'm trying to remind myself of things I already know and don't need to be told
Oh, oh, oh
This is my sad realization that I haven't accomplished enough
What have I done?
I'm questioning whether or not I've accomplished anything meaningful with my life
What have I done?
I'm asking this question again to reinforce my feelings of sadness and disappointment
What have I done?
With each repetition of this question, I am sinking further into despair
What have I done?
I can't think of anything I've accomplished that I'm truly proud of
What have I done?
I'm repeating this question like a lament, wondering what my life has amounted to
What have I done?
This is my final expression of the pain and disappointment I feel about my life
Lyrics © ROUGH TRADE PUBLISHING, Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd.
Written by: Matthew Ryan Maginn, Ted James Stevens, Tim Kasher
Lyrics Licensed & Provided by LyricFind
Alfonso Cabrera
A year now and nothing much has changed
Holed up in a motel in El Paso
This was meant to be my great escape
But, I got lost along the way
Amongst free HBO (Court TV) and take-out
Going to write my Moby Dicks
More like scratching lyrics on paper plates
I spent the best years of my life
Waiting on the best years of my life
So what's there to write about?
What have I done?
What have I done?
So is this my destiny?
From starlight into eternity
The gods must be laughing down at me
Ha, ha, ha
Ha, ha, ha
A traveling salesmen at twenty years old
Stranded in Ann Arbor with a flat tire
And I watch the sun sadly set
Any younger, I may have wept
Much older, I wouldn't notice
But I was out there in the world
Yeah, then the world, it passed me by
I was telling everyone back home
That I was taking it by storm
Instead, I watched it from the roadside
What have I done?
What have I done?
So are these the best tales I can spin?
A boy waiting to begin
A man with no memoirs
What have I done?
What have I done?
You're young and you're going to be someone
Then you're old and you're ashamed of what you've become
Well, take a look around you
You're preaching to the choir
Oh, oh, oh
???
What have I done?
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Juanocha92
Well take a look around;
YOU’RE PREACHING TO THE CHOIR.
I’ve broken the fuck down multiple times hearing that specific part of the song.
Thank you Cursive, thank you so much.
The Man Himself
This song never gets old ❤️🙏 it just gets better with time 😭
Alfonso Cabrera
A year now and nothing much has changed
Holed up in a motel in El Paso
This was meant to be my great escape
But, I got lost along the way
Amongst free HBO (Court TV) and take-out
Going to write my Moby Dicks
More like scratching lyrics on paper plates
I spent the best years of my life
Waiting on the best years of my life
So what's there to write about?
What have I done?
What have I done?
So is this my destiny?
From starlight into eternity
The gods must be laughing down at me
Ha, ha, ha
Ha, ha, ha
A traveling salesmen at twenty years old
Stranded in Ann Arbor with a flat tire
And I watch the sun sadly set
Any younger, I may have wept
Much older, I wouldn't notice
But I was out there in the world
Yeah, then the world, it passed me by
I was telling everyone back home
That I was taking it by storm
Instead, I watched it from the roadside
What have I done?
What have I done?
So are these the best tales I can spin?
A boy waiting to begin
A man with no memoirs
What have I done?
What have I done?
You're young and you're going to be someone
Then you're old and you're ashamed of what you've become
Well, take a look around you
You're preaching to the choir
Oh, oh, oh
???
What have I done?
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Weezer Fanatic
Thanks man
salsa
@Weezer Fanatic prego
Katani
??? parts sound like
Tell me tell me
No, no, no
Oh tell me, tell me
Oh no, baby now
Rocketensky
Oh tell me darlin
Nononono
Oh baby now
Paul Byersmith
@Rocketensky this is correct
SkyMagnet
This album is really good. This song hits different.
Luca Rocha-Trevino
I spent the best years of my life waiting on the best years of my life