Wishful Thinking
D Lyrics

These thoughts up in my head
The thoughts in my mind constantly trouble me

Come haunt me, wishing I was dead
These thoughts torment me, making me desire death

Can't talk up to all my friends
I am unable to share my struggles with my friends

Don't wanna give them any stress
I don't want to burden them with my problems

I wish this is the end
I hope that all of this will come to an end

And In the end I start again
But in the end, I find myself beginning anew

Can't tell if I be cursed or blessed
I'm uncertain if I am cursed or blessed

With wishful thinking then
However, I find solace in wishful thinking

I believe I can Fly
I have faith in my ability to soar

But I never thought that I gotta sacrifice
But I never anticipated that I would have to give up

My wings for embracing the high of lifes
My ambition and aspirations in order to pursue worldly pleasures

Now I just wanna put a halo inside
Now I simply desire to create something pure and noble

My reach to a ring world in my mind
To push myself towards an idealized fantasy world

Cuz I just wanna own my Masters, Chief
Because I yearn for complete control and ownership over my artistic works

Life's Spartan, it's Greek to me
Life is challenging and incomprehensible to me

Imma keep Roman like Italy
I will persevere like the ancient Romans did, just like Italy

Falling so far from the tree
I have deviated greatly from my upbringing

All my buds point and say 'It'll leave,'
My friends suggest that my pursuit will ultimately fail

Probably hiding facades I keep
I am likely concealing the false personas I maintain

Dropping so they're not stopping me
I continue to progress despite their attempts to hinder me

So Art thou entertained I preach
So, are you entertained by what I have to say?

From behind the mask, my coffin's on the scene
While hiding behind a facade, I am present and active

With the Way that I Cruise I don't think I'll see
Given my current lifestyle, I doubt I will ever understand

How my hundred round Toms help me leap
How my relentless determination allows me to progress

To the Top and Gun for the green
To strive for success and pursue financial wealth

Don't you tell me things'll get better
Don't try to convince me that things will improve

When you never had to go make a million bets and
Because you never had to take as many risks and face as many challenges

Could only ever fold up after getting success
You only experienced defeat after achieving success

Looking at the black and white it came up red
Reflecting on the outcomes, they turned out to be negative

I don't wanna hear about your guilt trips thems
I don't want to listen to your attempts to burden me with guilt

Never took off y'all be too plain I guess
You never achieved great success, maybe because you lacked uniqueness

Landing in a place where opportunity lesser
Ending up in a situation where there are fewer opportunities

Winging everyday never helped me settle
Being spontaneous and taking risks every day didn't bring me peace

But this is a dream, isn't it?
But maybe this is all just a dream, right?

And I'm waking up inside my visions
I find myself experiencing my visions as reality

My memories getting so vivid
My memories are becoming exceedingly clear and detailed

That Sometimes I wish that I didn't live in it
To the point that sometimes I wish I didn't have to live in them