forgive me
Dark Half Lyrics

Break out inside of me
I feel imprisoned by my mental struggles and I want to break free from them.

Hold it inside of me
I try to hide my pain, anxiety and addiction from others and keep it all inside.

Break out inside of me till I'm dead
I feel trapped and want to escape my inner turmoil even if it means ending my life.

Hoping reality finds me some sanity
I'm searching for a sense of clarity and mental stability in the real world.

I take a walk outside to remind myself, I'm not the only one living in this hell
Going outside helps me realize that others also have hardships and difficulties in life.

I know I'll probably need some help cause I can't take it
I acknowledge that I cannot deal with my struggles on my own and I might need professional help.

I walk a couple of blocks to the liquor store, I know I've been down this path before
I resort to alcohol to escape my problems and this is a familiar pattern for me.

Lost so many friends to addiction but I still can't shake it
Despite seeing the destructive effects of addiction on others, I still can't overcome my own addiction.

Should I pray to a god that I don't see?
I am unsure if there is a higher power that can help me through my pain.

Should I fake a smile when you all see me knowing if you knew the real me you'd drown me out like jason?
I feel like I have to put up a facade and hide my true self because I fear rejection from others.

And I can't seem to love myself I guess, staring at the ugly I possess
I struggle with self-love and have negative thoughts about myself.

Hoping you'll forgive me for the mess, I'm finally at peace
I seek forgiveness from others for my mistakes and hope to reach a state of inner peace.

Noone could save me, I'm finally at peace, noone could save me
I have accepted that ultimately, no one can save me from my struggles but myself.

Couldn't take it
I reached a breaking point and couldn't withstand the pain anymore.

In my time alone, oh then I find this fear, visions of your face slowly disappear
When I'm alone with my thoughts, I feel fear and my memories of you start to fade away.

You don't know you killed me, do you?
You hurt me so deeply that it feels like a part of me has died, but you may not even realize.

You don't know I die just to spite you?
My pain and suffering feels like a way to get back at you for how you hurt me.

I waited by the phone, my vision is not so clear, this poison calls my soul
I wait by the phone hoping to hear from you, but my clarity of thought is clouded by my addiction.

I really wish you were here, but it seems like all I am just fades away
I long for your presence, but my struggles make me feel like I'm disappearing.

Ashamed now the sinners talk with each other, walk with one another
Those who are ashamed of their sins seek solace and companionship with others like them.

Now drug out the needles, two sided people please come together
Those who have two-sided natures caused by addiction need to unite to overcome it.

Can we find a reason for peace this evening? Oh I'm crying mother
I hope we can find a way to bring peace and prevent more senseless violence, which causes mothers to cry.

We're blinded for a reason, it's called fighting demons, let's conquer ourselves first
Our struggles with addiction and mental health issues cause us to be blinded, but we need to overcome them and conquer ourselves first.

Not harm one another, kill one another, choke one another
We need to stop hurting each other physically and emotionally to move forward.

No more crying mothers, don't take our brothers, we war with each other
We need to stop creating heartache for mothers, siblings and those around us by fighting and warring with each other.

It's such a saddening thing to see, we can't trust one another
It's disheartening that we cannot trust those around us due to our struggles and pain.

And if you see what I do see, then you know why we suffer
If you understand the struggles I go through, then you would know why we all suffer and why it's difficult to overcome.