Lesley
Dave Lyrics

Look
Let's take a closer look at this situation

They say the universe, it works in a strange way
The universe operates in mysterious ways

And it must be true because, we ain't from the same background or same place
Our different backgrounds and origins confirm this

But me and Lesley ended up on that same train
Despite our differences, Lesley and I found ourselves on the same path

I'm talking everyday, I used to wake up around seven or eight
Every day, I had a routine of waking up early

To catch the 906 from Norbury Station
Taking the 906 bus from Norbury Station

Two different worlds in the same location and
We come from different worlds but are in the same place

One day we ended up speaking
Eventually, we started talking to each other

And I would talk about college, she would talk about meetings
I would discuss my college experiences while she talked about work meetings

And how she's planning on leaving
Lesley expressed her plans to leave her current situation

How she hates what she does but she needs it
Although she despises her job, she feels dependent on it

I asked her what she was doing, it's the weekend
Curious about her weekend plans, I inquired

And she said, she said
Her response was

I don't know myself
She feels lost and uncertain about her identity

I don't know myself no more
She has lost connection with who she used to be

She used to be the life of the party for true
Her vibrant personality made her the center of attention

And now she going out hardly ever
She rarely goes out anymore

Her man got her in the yard forever
Her controlling and possessive partner confines her to their home

And her friends wanna help but it's hard to tell her
Her friends want to support her, but it's difficult to communicate with her

Hard to let her know that her man's possessive and aggressive
It's challenging to inform her about her partner's controlling and abusive behavior

And she can't even see it, but for them it's clear as day, she's in a situation
She remains blind to the situation, but her friends see it clearly

Her friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative
Lesley's friend, Hannah, dealt with a manipulative partner

So she could see it from a mile off
Hannah could easily spot the signs

Turtleneck jumpers, makeup around the eye spots
Hannah noticed the physical and emotional signs of abuse

All the signs were there
Every indication pointed to an abusive relationship

But Lesley made it seem a light affair
Lesley downplayed the seriousness of the situation

Said it wasn't right to share
She believed it wasn't appropriate to discuss her relationship

Her boyfriend, he was a mystery man
Her boyfriend remained an enigma

I didn't know much about him, but he's been in the can
I had limited information about him, except for his time in prison

Name's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasoning
His name is Jason, and he's a troubled person without any logical behavior

To be honest, I don't know what Les' sees in him
Honestly, I cannot understand what Lesley finds appealing in him

'Cause she's a good girl with a sweet heart
Lesley is kind-hearted and generally well-mannered

But they've both got demons and a deep past
Both Lesley and Jason have troubled histories and personal struggles

You know opposites attract, apparently
People say that opposites tend to be drawn to each other

I never heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh
She never mentioned anything about her family in all our conversations

He was all that she had
Jason was the only person she considered as family

Until they had an argument and he stopped calling her back
Their argument led to him cutting off communication with her

And I don't know if there was more to the story than that
I'm unsure if there were additional details to the situation

'Cause she plays things down but according to that
Lesley tends to downplay events, but given the circumstances

He went missing one day in the morning he ran
Jason disappeared one morning, running away from their problems

She's doing overtime, struggling affording the flat
Lesley works extra hours to make ends meet and afford their apartment

'Til she, lost her job it fucked all of her plans
However, she lost her job, disrupting all her future plans

Couldn't pay the rent, borrowing and calling for cash
Unable to cover the rent, she resorts to borrowing and asking for money

But Hannah she was there for her, cared for her
Hannah stood by Lesley's side, offering care and support

When I saw Les' she told me
When I saw Lesley, she confided in me

"I don't know myself
Lesley expresses her loss of identity and confusion

I don't know myself no more"
She feels disconnected from who she used to be

Les' saying, "I got nothing to live for
Lesley expresses feelings of hopelessness and despair

It's been raw, but David, I ain't never been this poor
Her situation has worsened to a point where she is extremely impoverished

There's no income, my boyfriend left me
Lesley has no source of income, and her boyfriend abandoned her

So how the fuck am I going to survive when this kid's born?"
She is worried about how she will support herself and her unborn child

I said, "It's a blessing as mad as it is
I try to reassure her that despite the difficulties, having a child is a blessing

And Les', I never even knew you were having a kid"
I express surprise at learning about her pregnancy

Bro, she's four months pregnant, young and neglected
Lesley is four months into her pregnancy, feeling alone and disregarded

Single but I don't think she wants to accept it
Although single, Lesley struggles to come to terms with her new status

So she's still texting ex's trying to get this
She attempts to rekindle relationships with her former partners

Back on track but I don't think that she gets it
She fails to realize that her focus should be on herself, not her exes

It's emotional obsession, clinical depression
Her actions stem from emotional obsession and clinical depression

Life is a lesson
Life is filled with valuable lessons

And you ain't got to sit and cry
You don't have to dwell and cry about it

And Lesley, living in this gift called life
Lesley should embrace the preciousness of life

There's no better gift than the gift of life
The most valuable gift we have is the opportunity to live

So, can you handle it?
Are you ready to face it?

But that changed her perspective
However, something shifted in her outlook

Late in December, her baby's expected to drop
Her due date is in December, approaching soon

She's accepted, excited, electric, pumped
She has come to terms with her pregnancy and feels enthusiastic

Only got to wait a few months
She only needs to wait a few more months

Her and Hannah had lunch
Lesley and Hannah had a meal together

Told her she's pregnant
Lesley revealed her pregnancy to Hannah

And they're the closest of bredrins
Lesley and Hannah are extremely close friends

So she didn't stunt to tell her, I think that it's an error
Lesley hesitated to inform Hannah, considering it a mistake

You ain't a mum for a day, you're a mum forever
Becoming a mother means a lifetime commitment

Whatever, and you and Jason break up whenever
Ultimately, Lesley and Jason's relationship can end at any time

If I'm honest that's something you should have done together
Honestly, they should have made that decision jointly

She doesn't know that her and Jason are going out again
Unaware of Lesley and Jason reconciling their relationship

And Jason doesn't know that Lesley's carrying a child for them
Jason remains oblivious to Lesley's pregnancy

She had daydreams of settling down with Jason, better 'cause now they're together it's wild
Lesley fantasized about a stable future with Jason, but their relationship is currently chaotic

Feeling like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em
She feels the urge to inform her friends about recent developments

'Cause while she's letting him down but most of them are never around
Although she's disappointed in Jason, her friends are often absent

She calls Hannah the next day
The following day, Lesley contacts Hannah

Still tryna figure out the best way to tell her that she's getting back together with an ex-flame
Lesley struggles to find the right approach to inform Hannah about reconciling with an ex-partner

So she left her a voicemail
Lesley recorded a voicemail for Hannah

Like "Yo Hannah, it's Les' can you call me back?
The voicemail message starts with "Hey Hannah, it's Lesley. Can you please return my call?

I wanna talk about the baby, you, me, Jason, all of that
Lesley desires a conversation with Hannah about the baby and their complex situation

I've been feeling like I need to get my aura back
Lesley longs to regain her lost sense of self

I used to be so fucking confident
She reminisces about her previous self-confidence

But these days, I swear that-
But lately, I feel like-

I don't know my self
Lesley reiterates her feeling of not knowing herself

I don't know myself no more
She no longer recognizes who she has become

It's 3:30 Lesley was meant to get a scan
At 3:30, Lesley had a scheduled scan appointment

But today I think she's going home early
However, today she plans to leave work early

Tryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid
Lesley wants to have a conversation with Jason about their child

Addressing any reservations
She wishes to discuss any concerns he may have

Have that conversation
She hopes for a meaningful conversation with Jason

Middle of the summer and it's raining
Despite being in the middle of summer, it is raining

Waiting at the train station
She waits at the train station

Hella cancellations
There are a significant number of train cancellations

So she gets a taxi, sitting in a backseat
Unable to take the train, she takes a taxi and sits in the backseat

Blue jean jacket and a maxi
She wears a blue jean jacket and a maxi dress

Actually, tired and her legs are aching
In truth, she is fatigued and experiencing leg pain

Touched the destination
She arrives at her destination

Way faster than the cab driver's estimation
The journey was quicker than the cab driver anticipated

She put the key in the door
She inserts the key into the door lock

She, couldn't believe what she see on the floor
She is in disbelief at what she sees on the floor

Some size five trainers, raging
There are women's size five trainers on the floor, causing anger

Tears in her eyes, but it's cool 'cause they must be the neighbors
She has tears in her eyes, but she assumes the trainers belong to the neighbors

And Jason's in the bedroom fully naked
Jason is in the bedroom completely undressed

Lesley running up the stairs but she's making noise
Lesley hurries up the stairs, making a commotion

And she can hear Jason's voice
She can hear Jason's voice

Saying "Hide in the closet"
Jason instructs her to hide in the closet

But he's made his choice
However, he has already made his decision

So, she bursts in saying "What kind of person would cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?"
She enters the room and confronts Jason about his infidelity

Jason, saying "What the fuck, you're pregnant? What the fuck?
Jason expresses shock upon learning about the pregnancy

You weren't even gonna tell me, I mean what the fuck?
He questions why she didn't inform him earlier

What do you want from us?
He demands to know what she wants from him and their relationship

Nah, you ain't in love, you just wanna love"
He dismisses her claim of being in love and believes she only wants his affection

Lesley telling Jason "I don't wanna love
Lesley declares that she doesn't want love

I don't want a you and I, I don't want an us
She expresses her desire to end their relationship

And also, I don't wanna talk loads
Additionally, she doesn't want to have extensive conversations

One more line before I dash like Morse code"
She wishes to express one more thought before leaving quickly, like Morse code

Open the wardrobe
She opens the wardrobe

And Jason's on the edge
Jason is on the edge of the situation

"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me, slimmer than me
He admits his insecurities, wanting to compare Lesley to his affair partner

Maybe your baby's similar to me
He wonders if the baby will resemble Lesley

Maybe you wanted someone thicker than me, fitter than me
He questions if Lesley desired someone with a different physical appearance

To satisfy you quicker than me
He speculates if he failed to provide satisfaction

I got your baby in my stomach and you did this to me
Lesley reminds him that she is carrying their child, making his actions unforgivable

What did I ever do to you for you to finish with me?
She wonders what she did to deserve being abandoned by him

I didn't believe my girls but they were thinking of me
She regrets not heeding the concerns of her friends, who were looking out for her

And give it to me, the wardrobe, give me the key"
She demands the key to the wardrobe, wanting to access something inside

I was pulling up the door but Jason's bigger than me
She tries to unlock the wardrobe, but Jason is physically stronger than her

Literally, I remember viscerally
She recalls the situation with vivid physical sensations

Jason pulling from behind me now he's gripping on me
Jason grabs her from behind and tightly holds onto her

White flashes, eye gashes, when he's hitting me, see
She experiences a series of quick, painful blows to her face, resulting in gashes

I just wanted to disappear I wasn't living for me
She desires to vanish, as she feels her life lacks meaning

Physically I shut the fucking doors quick as can be
She manages to lock the doors rapidly to protect herself

He's outside asking why I made him do what he did
Jason stands outside, questioning why she forced him to act violently

Using a kick to open up the room that I'm in
He kicks the door forcefully to gain entry into the room she is hiding in

I'm feeling afraid, barricaded, with a chair in the handle
She experiences fear and places a chair against the door handle as a barricade

I'm hearing sirens but I just wanna run away but I can't
She hears police sirens and has the desire to flee, but she cannot escape

Jason's gone by the time police are comin'
When the police arrive, Jason has already fled the scene

They saw that ain't no one else in the house
The police realize no one else is present in the house

And feds are running through the door shouting
The police burst through the door, shouting commands

"We have reports of an argument with a woman"
They inform Lesley that they received reports of a altercation involving a woman

There's blood all over the floor and it's splattered onto the wall
The police observe blood stains on the floor and walls

Lesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds
Lesley lies on the bed, attempting to communicate with the police officers

She's deep in the stress and his meter's above her head
She is overwhelmed by stress, and her vital signs are alarming

If anything, she couldn't even say anything
She is unable to articulate her thoughts or speak properly

But she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is
She experiences intense pain in her abdomen

So, they call an ambulance, Lesley didn't plan for this
The police call for an ambulance, realizing Lesley never expected this situation

Police are in the room tryna find the missing piece of the puzzle
The police search the room for clues to complete the puzzle of what occurred

Until they stumble on something that's kind of random
Eventually, they come across something unexpectedly

It's a phone in the wardrobe
They discover a phone hidden in the wardrobe

They had five missed phone calls from Jason and also a couple other numbers
The phone shows missed calls from Jason and a few other unfamiliar numbers

So they thinking that it's no help
Initially, they believe the phone provides no useful information

Until they play the voicemail like "Yo Hannah, it's Les' can you call me back?
They decide to listen to the voicemail, which starts with "Hey Hannah, it's Lesley. Can you please return my call?

I wanna talk about the baby, you, me, Jason, all of that
The voicemail message includes Lesley's intention to discuss the baby and their complex situation

I've been feeling like I need to get my aura back
Lesley expresses her desire to regain her lost sense of self

I used to be so fucking confident
She reflects on her past self-confidence

But these days, I swear that-
But recently, I feel like-

I don't know my self
She reiterates her feeling of not knowing herself

I don't know myself no more
She no longer recognizes who she has become

She felt sick to her stomach, she started panicking
She experiences intense nausea and anxiety

Mind rattling, tryna understand what Hannah did
Her mind is in turmoil, trying to comprehend Hannah's actions

Battling the shame 'cause the situation embarrassing
She struggles with shame due to the embarrassing situation

She's tryna fathom it betrayed by her own garrison
She tries to comprehend the betrayal by her close friend (Hannah)

Meanwhile, she's on the bed tryna manage this
At the same time, she lies on the bed, attempting to cope with the situation

Piercing pain in the stomach, she couldn't handle it
She experiences sharp pain in her stomach, finding it difficult to bear

Now she's waiting for an ambulance
She waits for the arrival of the ambulance

Yeah
Yes

And I know she's strong, but when I heard about what happened I was over-shocked
I acknowledge her strength, but when I learned about the incident, I was extremely shocked

Her nose was gone, her jaw line shattered and rocked
Her nose was severely injured, and her jaw was broken and damaged

They said her baby was the reason she was holding on
According to others, her unborn baby provided her with the motivation to endure

She dozing off, doctors getting no response
She starts to fall into a drowsy state, and the doctors struggle to elicit a response

Her heart rate slowing down and they don't know what's wrong
Her heart rate decreases, and the medical staff is uncertain about the cause

Picked her up, got her out the home and onto the stretcher for good measure
They lift her up, carry her out of the house, and place her on a stretcher as a precautionary measure

But she fading out, oh
However, she is losing consciousness

She took damage to the brain and now she's in a coma as we speak
Her brain suffered injuries, and she is currently in a coma

But I ain't sure if she can make it out
I am uncertain if she will recover from this

You see this time that I'm taking out to tell you the story is more than a song or track
I want you to realize that this narrative is more than just a song

It's a message to a woman with a toxic man
It serves as a message to women in relationships with abusive partners

I'm begging you to get support if you're lost or trapped
I implore you to seek help if you feel lost or trapped

I understand that I can never understand
I acknowledge that I will never fully comprehend

And I ain't saying that it's easy but it must be right
I'm not claiming it's easy, but it must be the right decision

Some of your sisters, aunties, mums or wives
There are women in your life, such as sisters, aunts, mothers, or wives

Are fucked aside and they will never touch on why
They are suffering in silence, and their struggles are not addressed

I'm touched 'cause I've seen women that I love though like-
I am deeply affected because I have witnessed loved ones go through similar experiences

Cry little red tears through a bloodshot eye
I have seen them shed tears and exhibit signs of exhaustion and pain

This shit's awful, no matter what culture it ain't normal
This situation is terrible and is not considered normal in any culture

Men try and twist it, make it seem like it's your fault
Some men attempt to shift blame onto the women and make them feel at fault

In that train full of people that you're taking
In a train surrounded by people that you interact with

How many Lesley's are running from their Jasons?
How many women like Lesley are escaping from their abusive partners named Jason?

Angel without wings
A person who embodies angelic qualities but lacks visible wings

Like the day without the night to bring her peace
Compared to a day without the night, which provides tranquility

A song without a voice
A song that lacks a vocal component

A spark without a flame
A spark that exists without igniting a flame

A child without a name
A child who is unnamed

Oh, it's just wrong
It is simply incorrect or unjust

Like an ocean without a shore
Comparing the absence of a shore to an ocean

A soldier without a war
A soldier who lacks a conflict to fight in

How can we do this anymore?
How can we continue in this manner?

A song without a voice
A song that lacks a vocal component

A spark without a flame
A spark that exists without igniting a flame

A child without a name
A child who is unnamed

Oh, it's just wrong
It is simply incorrect or unjust

Well, we've made a massive amount of progress in this last year, haven't we?
We have made significant progress in the past year, haven't we?

Feels like a long journey
It feels like a lengthy and arduous journey

And I must say it's been a pleasure, to watch you mature and grow in thought
I must say, it has been a pleasure to witness your personal development and intellectual growth

And in your career and life
Both professionally and personally

You've opened up immensely
You have become significantly more open and vulnerable

I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions
I would be dishonest if I claimed not to miss these therapy sessions

But you know, you can never stop learning about yourself
However, you should always remember that self-discovery is an ongoing process

So you're always welcome
You are always welcome here

I'm just happy you're at a place now where you feel you understand your emotions
I am delighted that you have reached a point where you feel you have a grasp on your emotions

And are in control
And that you have gained control over them