Deaf Havana was formed when the original members met at the King's Lynn campus of The College of West Anglia. The band's roots can, however, be traced back much further with Ryan Mellor, James Veck-Gilodi and Lee Wilson all attending Smithdon High School and playing together in various local scene bands. At college, these members were joined by Tom Ogden and Sebastian Spitz. This early lineup saw Veck-Gilodi singing and Mellor taking guitar and vocal duties. The name "Deaf Havana" came from former guitarist Sebastian Spitz, however the name itself has no literal meaning. The band wrote songs and a demo, White Lines But No Camera, was recorded in August 2006 at The Lodge, Northampton. The band toured this lineup until Chris Pennells replaced Spitz. Pennells was formerly a member of the band Something About Dave. Around the same time, Mellor handed over guitar parts to Veck-Gilodi, and took on the lead role.
In late 2006, the band began writing songs for their debut EP, entitled Evangeline. Two songs were roughly recorded, titled "The Smiles Were Forced" and "Where It Begins", which were uploaded onto the band's Myspace page. The EP was soon recorded, with "The Smiles Were Forced" being dropped from the EP's track listing. "Tell Me More Georgie Boy" is the only song from any previous release to make it onto Meet Me Halfway, at Least, and is now called "Another Day in This House".
Beginning in October 2007, the band began work on new songs, which eventually were released on It's Called the Easy Life. On 21 June 2008, the band announced signing a deal consisting of one EP and two albums with Wolf at Your Door Records owner Kevin 'Wolfie' Horak, as well as the recording date for said debut EP, now titled It's Called the Easy Life. The EP was eventually recorded by Jonny Renshaw from Devil Sold His Soul and was mixed by Matt O'Grady (You Me at Six, Architects) and released in October 2008. The EP received strong reviews from various musical publications, following which the band begin to receive some recognition.
On 25 May 2009, the band entered the studio to record their debut studio album, Meet Me Halfway, at Least, with producer Matt O'Grady. The album was released for pre-order from Wolf at Your Door Records on 7 September 2009, and was released on iTunes and shops on 5 October 2009. Two singles have been taken from this album. "Friends Like These" was released, with B-side "Hey Baby, This Is Our Song", on 17 August 2009, for digital download. A video was also released for this single. Their second single, "Nicotine and Alcohol Saved My Life" was released on 15 March 2010, also via digital download. The single contains a remix of "Friends Like These" by Essex band Kenai. Its music video was first shown on music channels and online from 22 February 2010.
In 2010, just prior to the mini tour with All Forgotten, the band announced that Mellor would not be embarking on these tours, due to personal circumstances, with Max d'Albiac from Brides replacing him. Mellor left the band on 10 May 2010, due to the same personal problems that caused him to pull out of 2010 tours. Deaf Havana decided to continue as a four piece and a replacement for Mellor was not sought.
The band began the follow-up to 2009's Meet Me Halfway, at Least in early 2010. They released a new demo track on Myspace and Facebook, entitled "My Life Is Average". On 13 August 2010, the band released a new demo track through their Facebook page entitled "Home Sweet Home".
On 20 May 2011, the band released the first song, called "The World or Nothing", from their untitled second album. The song was not released as a single, but the song is accompanied by a video made from footage taken at Hit The Deck Festival, directed by Jon Stone. The first single from the album was confirmed to be "I'm A Bore, Mostly" on 30 August 2011. It was played on BBC Radio 1 by Zane Lowe and the following week by Sara Cox. The title of the album, Fools and Worthless Liars was made public on 23 September 2011. Deaf Havana also released a music video for the single on 11 October 2011, which accumulated over 20,000 plays on the day of release. They then supported fellow British rockers You Me at Six on tour that month. Fools and Worthless Liars was released on 7 November 2011, coinciding with London Barfly and Norwich Arts Centre release gigs. The album peaked at number 1 on the UK Rock Album Chart.
The band re-recorded an alternative version of Fools and Worthless Liars which was released on 22 October 2012. The Fools and Worthless Liars Deluxe Edition album reached number 51 in the UK Albums Chart (reaching number 28 mid-week). Lead singer, James-Veck Gilodi, expressed his views about his personal influences in the Fools and Worthless Liars Deluxe Documentary saying that he "wanted to do something that was more musical interesting" and record something that was "truer" to the bands actual influences. After playing the St Pancras Station Festival, from which the band thought "went well" and was "thoroughly enjoyable", the band set about re-recording each song on Fools and Worthless Liars hoping to show off their musicianship that may not have come across on the album by using different instruments, sounds and genres.
In October 2012, Deaf Havana began composing new material to be featured on their third album. On 25 January 2013, the band announced that the writing process was complete and that they would enter the studio a week later. It was rumoured, during the highly successful An Evening With Deaf Havana - Unplugged that the new, yet currently unnamed, album would be released "around September". However, no precise date was set or confirmed at this point. It was later revealed in 2012 that the new album would be entitled Old Souls and was to be produced by Lee Batiuk. It was announced to be released on 16 September 2013. Moreover, the band created a feature-length documentary, entitled English Hearts, which was released as a CD/DVD combination on the deluxe version of Old Souls. The feature documented the history of the band, in their own words, and was directed by Jon Stone, a director who had previously filmed the band performing " The World or Nothing" at Hit the Deck Festival.
The band received several high-profile radio plays in the lead up to the album release whilst the band also aired several previews through social media such as Facebook and Twitter. The song "Boston Square" was premiered by Radio One DJ Zane Lowe as his Hottest Record in the World on 14 May 2013. This release which was accompanied with an interview with James Veck-Gilodi. The band coincidentally announced their first partnership with YouTube music video service Vevo, and released the corresponding video for "Boston Square". The band followed up the positive feedback by releasing the track "Speeding Cars" on 18 July 2013, and track which also received positive feedback. On 1 August 2013, the band released another track, entitled "Kings Road Ghosts", despite the band acknowledging "they might get into trouble" for releasing the track early. On 8 August 2013, the band were again invited Zane Lowe's Radio 1 show to premiere their new single "Mildred (Lost a Friend)" as the Hottest Record in the World. Matt Veck-Gilodi supplied the interview on the behalf of the band and was interviewed by Radio 1 DJ Huw Stephens, who was deputising for Zane Lowe.
Ahead of their UK tour in November 2015, Deaf Havana released the track "Cassiopeia" from their fourth album, which was originally set to be released in 2016.
In July 2016, the band released the single "Sing" and announced that their album would be released in early 2017 on So Recordings. During their set at Reading and Leeds 2016, the band announced that the album is titled All These Countless Nights and announced its release date as 27 January 2017. Shortly after their Reading and Leeds appearance, the band announced their first UK tour in over 2 years.
On 9 October, the second single from the album, "Trigger", premiered on BBC Radio 1 as Daniel P Carter's Rockest Record. The song had originally premiered in 2014 on the band's European tour, at which time the band had planned to record new material but were dropped from their record label, BMG.
Following their Top 5 album artist=Deaf Havana]All These Countless Nights, Rituals was written as a challenge taken up by James Veck-Gilodi (Vocals) & Phil Gornell (Producer) to subvert the band's writing process, and present songs representative of the band in present.
Rituals is the result of throwing out the 'Deaf Havana rulebook': first; James picked the song titles, second; he wrote the tracks that fit the theme of those titles, third; everything was written on the computer, then the band came in to play all the parts. Working like this felt backwards to James, who previously only written songs on his acoustic guitar, with continuous input from the rest of the band. They set themselves a deadline of April to finish writing, and if any of it was any good, they would make it available by August. No more waiting half a decade for people to finally hear new music.
A recurring theme on the album is one of struggle and redemption. The music is in turn with introspective and joyous, with help form the London Contemporary Voice Choir, who feature on five tracks. The band performed with the choir at their intimate show at London's Union Chapel for the War Child charity as part of the Brit Awards gigs.
The theme of redemption ties into the art the band have wrapped into the album cover, a series by the visual artist Wolf James entitled 'My Love Is Lethal (A personal series dedicated to Letting Go)'.
On 25 November 2021, the band released a statement that while they intended to break up in early 2020, instead James and Matthew will continue on as a duo, with Lee Wilson and Tom Ogden leaving the band.
The Present is a Foreign Land was announced on 21 January 2022 for a 15 July 2022 release; with the album's first single, "Going Clear", releasing the same day.
Anemophobia
Deaf Havana Lyrics
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And how my lungs can't find the oxygen to form a single breath
That doesn't get caught in my throat, with all the words I couldn't say
I pray that things are getting better...
I still worry about the weather, and I'm sick to death of rain
And these panic attacks do nothing for my tired swollen brain
My days aren't getting better, and I'm still numbing the pain
Cause i'm holding out for a saving grace, to show me the error of my ways
I really need a change
I'm not a pessimist but sometimes hope is missed or missing
I haven't felt so fucking drained, I need a break
I caught a glimpse of my reflection and didn't recognise my face
I left a note at home explaining how I'm sorry that I left
I just needed to be alone for a while to realise I'm a mess
I pray that that things are getting better but I won't hold my breath
Cause i'm holding out for a saving grace, to show me the error of my ways
I really need a change
I'm not a pessimist but sometimes hope is missed or missing
I haven't felt so fucking drained, I need a break
I'm not quite there but I'm on my way
I'm still forgetting names and faces, I need to get away
From this place, 'cause my outlooks' changed
Along with how I speak and I'm really not the same as I used to be
I'm always living in my head and I can't remember when, I last felt alive
Cause i'm holding out for a saving grace, to show me the error of my ways
I really need a change
I'm not a pessimist but sometimes hope is missed or missing
I haven't felt so fucking drained, I need a break
The lyrics of Deaf Havana's song Anemophobia address the struggles of anxiety and depression, as well as the hope for change and healing. The title of the song refers to an irrational fear of wind and is used metaphorically to represent the fear and uncertainty that the singer is experiencing. The opening lines, "I worry about the weather, and the pressure in my head," immediately set the tone for the song - one of apprehension and unease. The singer is struggling to breathe properly, both physically and metaphorically, and is unable to articulate thoughts and feelings.
Throughout the song, the singer expresses their desire for things to improve and evoke a more positive outlook. They are holding out for a "saving grace" and hope that they will eventually find a way out. The line, "I caught a glimpse of my reflection and didn't recognise my face," suggests a loss of identity and self-awareness, while leaving a note at home highlights the need for solitude and space to work through personal issues.
The chorus serves as a call for change, which is at the forefront of the singer's mind. They are not a pessimist, but they acknowledge that hope may be missing in their life at this point. The lyrics are a reflection of the internal battles that an anxious or depressed person may face, but they suggest that overcoming such struggles is possible. The song ultimately concludes with the idea that change is a process, and that the singer is on their way to healing.
Line by Line Meaning
I worry about the weather, and the pressure in my head
I am anxious about the climate, and the weight I feel on my mind.
And how my lungs can't find the oxygen to form a single breath
I struggle to breathe, and it makes me feel suffocated.
That doesn't get caught in my throat, with all the words I couldn't say
I am unable to vocalize my thoughts without getting choked up.
I pray that things are getting better...
I hope that my situation is improving.
I still worry about the weather, and I'm sick to death of rain
My concern for the climate has not decreased, and I am tired of the constant downpour.
And these panic attacks do nothing for my tired swollen brain
My panic attacks only worsen the exhaustion and pressure I feel in my head.
My days aren't getting better, and I'm still numbing the pain
My days remain difficult, and I am using coping mechanisms to deal with the emotional discomfort.
I lost my mind and all my hope in feeling fine again
I have given up hope of ever feeling like myself again.
Cause i'm holding out for a saving grace, to show me the error of my ways
I am relying on some external force to guide me towards self-improvement.
I really need a change
I strongly desire a shift in my current situation.
I'm not a pessimist but sometimes hope is missed or missing
Although not naturally negative, I struggle to find hope in my circumstances.
I haven't felt so fucking drained, I need a break
I am completely exhausted and require a break from the intensity of my emotions.
I caught a glimpse of my reflection and didn't recognise my face
When I looked at myself, I felt disconnected from the person in the mirror.
I left a note at home explaining how I'm sorry that I left
Before leaving, I wrote a note apologizing for my absence.
I just needed to be alone for a while to realise I'm a mess
I isolated myself to contemplate my struggles and acknowledge that I am not in a good place.
I pray that that things are getting better but I won't hold my breath
I maintain hope that there is improvement, but I am not blindly optimistic.
I'm not quite there but I'm on my way
I am still struggling, but I am making progress towards feeling better.
I'm still forgetting names and faces, I need to get away
My memory is fuzzy, and I require space to clear my head.
From this place, 'cause my outlooks' changed
I need distance from my current environment, as it no longer aligns with my mindset.
Along with how I speak and I'm really not the same as I used to be
My speech and personality have undergone changes that have left me feeling like a different person.
I'm always living in my head and I can't remember when, I last felt alive
I am consumed by my thoughts and am struggling to remember what it feels like to be truly present in the moment.
Contributed by Madelyn I. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
@JoshySkillz
nearly 10 years and still one of my fav albums
@anubzzxd9496
Essa música já me fez chorar, a letra mais linda que já vi amo demais essa banda!!
@mariadallacourt5483
Melhor época ❤️
@Daniellehasahitlist
this is the best album!! the lyrics really say a lot and you really get to connect with the band, how they feel and how this life is treating them
@xxxxsonnyxxxx
God damn I've been reading album lyrics online & it's scaring me how much they read my mind and all the things I'm afraid to admit to everyone including myself. I need to buy this album tomorrow wow! Actually feeling a little down but in a good not alone way ha ha love this song so much!
@Topdoggie7
Universal trauma.
@kerulainfranca7327
nostálgica , melhor música da vida 💕
@OSdahl
Amazing stuff. James is KING
@rowenasucks
I really don't understand how a band can be this fucking good!
@gexista
Words can't explain how much this song relates to what I'm living through right now ..