Diary of Dreams is a darkwave project from Düsseldorf, Germany. The lead si… Read Full Bio ↴Diary of Dreams is a darkwave project from Düsseldorf, Germany. The lead singer and founding member Adrian Hates has produced most of the albums by himself or with minimal help from others. He rarely uses a full band, except when he is on tour.

Adrian Hates was originally a classically trained guitarist and pianist, and subsequently bassist of Garden of Delight. He initiated the Diary of Dreams project in the late 1980s, taking the name from one of his early classical guitar compositions, 'Tagebuch der Träume'. The first album, 'Cholymelan', appeared in 1994 on the Dion Fortune label.

Encouraged by this success, Adrian formed his own label Accession and released a string of albums over the following years, building a loyal fanbase each step of the way. The second album 'End of Flowers' was released in 1996, expanding on the darkwave sound of the debut. 'Bird Without Wings' followed a year later, whilst the more experimental work 'Psychoma?' arrived in 1998.

The first sign of consolidation came in 1999, when a compilation album 'Moments of Bloom' appeared, containing two reworked tracks from each album. The next two albums 'One of 18 Angels' and 'Freak Perfume' (plus its companion EP 'PaniK Manifesto') made greater use of electronic rhythms, resulting in greater club play and wider recognition for the band.

Their 2004 'Nigredo' (a concept album inspired by a mythology the band designed themselves) saw a move back towards the more subtle, sparse concepts of old, but still featuring bursts of their more recent, dance-oriented sound. Songs from the Nigredo tour were later released on the live CD 'aLive' and the companion DVD 'Nine In Numbers'. The next Diary of Dreams album 'Nekrolog 43' was released in 2007, offering a greater variety of moods and concepts than previous works. Adrian Hates claims to be influenced, both lyric wise and artwork wise, by the German 1909-1935 expressionism and the "beauty of ugliness" in the course of his work.

The ninth album entitled "(if)" was released on March 13, 2009.

Discography

Albums

* Cholymelan (1994) – re-released in 1999 with four bonus tracks
* End of Flowers (1996)
* Bird Without Wings (1997)
* Psychoma (1998)
* Moments of Bloom (1999)
* One of 18 Angels (2000)
* Freak perfume (2002)
* Dream Collector (2003) (originally a limited South African compilation - later given wider release)
* Nigredo (2004)
* Alive (2005) – live album
* Nekrolog 43 (2007)
* (if) (2009)
* Ego:X (2011)
* Dream Collector II (2012)
* the Anatomy of Silence (2012) - acoustic album
* Elegies in Darkness (2014)
* Grau im Licht (2015)
* reLive (2016)
* hell in Eden (2017)

Singles and EPs

* O' Brother Sleep (2001)
* AmoK (2002)
* PaniK Manifesto (2002) – EP/mini-album
* Giftraum (2004)
* Menschfeind (2005) – EP/mini-album
* The Plague (2007)
* King of Nowhere (2009)

DVDs

* Nine in Numbers (2006)

Homesick
Diary of Dreams Lyrics

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We doubt with all our heart
And regret the things we did
Everything is said and done
We pretend to be alone

Can we avoid the next step we do
Can we feel without even trying
Can we whisper when we scream

Is it my silence that you bring to me

What I can say to you
Will never change a thought
I whisper my good-bye to turn my back on you

In endless speeches day by day
We promise every word we say

We trust the ones we know
To reject who need us most

Too blind to see the grey
That you carry in your eyes

Overall Meaning

The lyrics of "HomeSick" by Diary of Dreams explore themes of doubt, regret, and loneliness. The opening lines suggest a sense of reflection and remorse for past actions. The singer questions whether they can avoid making similar mistakes in the future, and whether they can feel genuine emotions without putting in any effort. The line "Is it my silence that you bring to me" suggests that the singer's silence contributes to the distance and disconnect they feel in their relationships.

Line by Line Meaning

We doubt with all our heart
We have deep uncertainty and lack of faith

And regret the things we did
We feel remorse for our past actions

Everything is said and done
All matters have been concluded and settled

We pretend to be alone
We feign solitude despite our inner emotions

Can we avoid the next step we do
Is it possible to prevent our forthcoming actions

Can we feel without even trying
Can emotions arise effortlessly within us

Can we whisper when we scream
Is it feasible to communicate softly amidst chaos

Is it my silence that you bring to me
Does my quietness invoke a particular response from you

What I can say to you
The words I can express to you

Will never change a thought
Will never alter a single mindset

I whisper my good-bye to turn my back on you
I quietly bid farewell and distance myself from you