Ekkstacy began creating music during high school, taking influence from film, and artists including Elliott Smith, The Drums, Bon Iver, and Bedroom. His music primarily involved youtube beats, in which he sang over. He released his debut EP Negative in November 2021, with the single "I Walk This Earth All by Myself" becoming what is considered to be his most popular song. He released the album Misery in September 2022, a more rock and new wave inspired album than his previous release.
christian death
EKKSTACY Lyrics
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I called this morning
I've seen it all before
I'm ripping you to shreds (To shreds)
I'll destroy everything you've ever said
I just wanna die, I just wanna kill myself
I don't give a fuck about anyone else
I hope there's a pistol in my mouth
I just wanna die, I just wanna kill myself
I'm lying on the floor
Wondering why you won't see me anymore
My heart's so sore (So sore)
Don't wanna see the world
Don't wanna explore
I just wanna die, I just wanna kill myself
I don't give a fuck about anyone else
I never leave my house when I die
I hope there's a pistol in my mouth
I just wanna die, I just wanna kill myself
The lyrics to EKKSTACY's song "Christian Death" depict a person in a state of deep despair, longing to end their life. The singer expresses feelings of hopelessness and a lack of connection with the world around them. They reach out to someone, "knocking at [their] door," and admit to having felt this way before, suggesting ongoing struggles with mental health.
The lyrics convey a sense of anger and frustration, with the singer wanting to "rip [the listener] to shreds" and destroy everything they've ever said. At the same time, they express a desire to be left alone, as indicated by the lines "Don't wanna see the world, don't wanna explore."
Overall, the song explores themes of mental illness and suicidal ideation, with the singer feeling isolated and disconnected from those around them.
Line by Line Meaning
I'm knocking at your door
I'm desperately seeking your attention and validation
I called this morning
I've tried to contact you multiple times, but you won't answer
I've seen it all before
I've experienced heartbreak and rejection many times
I'm ripping you to shreds (To shreds)
I'm angry and hurt, and taking out my frustration on you
I'll destroy everything you've ever said
I'll discredit and dismiss anything you've ever told me
I just wanna die, I just wanna kill myself
I feel hopeless and overwhelmed, and can't see a way out except death
I don't give a fuck about anyone else
I feel isolated and disconnected from others, and don't care about their feelings
I never leave my house when I die
I've become so emotionally paralyzed that I can't even face the outside world anymore
I hope there's a pistol in my mouth
I want to end my life in the most violent and dramatic way possible
I'm lying on the floor
I'm physically and emotionally exhausted
Wondering why you won't see me anymore
I can't understand why the person I care about has abandoned me
My heart's so sore (So sore)
I'm experiencing intense emotional pain
Don't wanna see the world
I'm overwhelmed by the pain and suffering in the world, and can't face it anymore
Don't wanna explore
I've lost all sense of curiosity and wonder, and can't find joy in anything anymore
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[Verse 1]
I'm knocking at your door
I called this morning, I've seen it all before
I'm ripping you to shreds (To shreds)
I'll destroy everything you've ever said
[Chorus]
I just wanna die, I just wanna kill myself
I don't give a fuck about anyone else
I never leave my house
When I die, I hope there's a pistol in my mouth
I just wanna die, I just wanna kill myself
Verse 2]
I'm lying on the floor
Wondering why you won't see me anymore
My heart's so sore (So sore)
Don't wanna see the world, don't wanna explore
[Chorus]
I just wanna die, I just wanna kill myself
I don't give a fuck about anyone else
I never leave my house
When I die, I hope there's a pistol in my mouth
I just wanna die, I just wanna kill myself
[Outro]
I just wanna die, I just wanna kill myself
I don't give a fuck about anyone else
I never leave my house
When I die, I hope there's a pistol in my mouth
I just wanna die, I just wanna kill myself
@exhz
whole album is insane
@gospelpreacher6345
Jesus loves you and makes a way, He gives peace that words cannot describe and no drugs can replicate.
@ZzzBliss
@@gospelpreacher6345 lol
@Mike.325
Facts
@7174.
Favorite song off the album
@backup4692
This song is comforting to me, I relate to the lyrics but I know I'm to much of a wuss to do anything to myself...so I cope with it through music
@XayPon
i dont think thats coping m8. get help
@sunnyking6609
Music is the best medicine sometimes despite that this song legitimately chanting suicide I've yet to actually commit the act myself(don't plan on to but again the music helps thats why)
@kolychannel2894
make them feel betterLet him be people have their own ways to n
@marioaldape7147
What did Johnnny silver hand say “put that iron in your mouth”