Eyes Closed
Ed Sheeran Lyrics

I know it's a bad idea
I acknowledge that what I'm planning to do is not good for me.

But how can I help myself?
I can't seem to resist the temptation despite knowing it's not good for me.

Been inside for most this year
I've been staying inside for the majority of this year.

And I thought a few drinks, they might help
I believed that having a few drinks would make me feel better.

It's been a while, my dear
It's been a long time, my beloved.

Dealin' with the cards life dealt
I've been trying to cope with what life has thrown at me.

I'm still holdin' back these tears
I'm trying not to cry even though it's difficult.

While my friends are somewhere else
My friends are not here with me.

I pictured this year a little bit different when it hit February
When February came, I had imagined this year to be different than what it turned out to be.

I step in the bar, it hit me so hard, oh, how can it be this heavy?
When I entered the bar, I was hit hard with the realization of everything that's happened, and it feels incredibly heavy.

Every song reminds me you're gone and I feel the lump form in my throat
Every song I hear reminds me that you're no longer here, and it makes it hard for me to swallow.

'Cause I'm here alone
I'm here by myself without you.

Delusion is here again
My mind is playing tricks on me again.

And I think you'll come home soon
I have this delusional belief that you'll come back home soon.

A word brings me right back in
Just a simple word can send me spiraling again.

Then it's only me that's in this room
When that happens, I feel like I'm the only one in the room.

I guess I could just pretend
I suppose I could try to pretend that everything's okay.

The colors are more than blue
I'm trying to see things in a brighter light.

But I lost more than my friend
The loss runs deeper than just losing a friend.

I can't help but missin' you
I can't do anything but miss you.

No one is ever ready
Nobody is ever truly prepared for something like this.

And when it unfolds, you get in a hole, oh, how can it be this heavy?
When the situation becomes real, it feels like I'm falling deeper into a hole that's too heavy to carry.

Everything changes, nothing's the same, except the truth is now you're gone
Everything has changed, but the truth is that you're not here anymore.

And life just goes on
Despite everything, life continues.

They're shutting the bar, they're cleaning the floor
The bar is closing, and the janitors are cleaning the floor.

And everyone is already home
Everyone else has gone back to their homes.

But I'm on my own
I'm still here by myself.

Still dancin' with my eyes closed
I'm still dancing with my eyes closed.

'Cause everywhere I look, I still see you
Your absence is still very much felt everywhere I look.

Time is movin' so slow
Time seems to be moving at a slow pace.

And I don't know what else that I can do
I don't know what else I can do to ease the pain.

So I'll keep dancin' with my
So I'll continue to dance with my eyes closed.

Eye-eye-eye-eyes
My eyes.

Eye-eye-eye-eyes closed
With my eyes closed.

Oh, I keep dancin' with my
Oh, I continue to dance with my eyes closed.