Deeper
Ellee Duke Lyrics

Mmh-hmm, Mmh-hmm, hmm
Expressing agreement or understanding in a contemplative manner

Is not that I don′t believe in therapy
I do believe in therapy, but...

But I'm payin′ someone 150 dollars an hour
...I find it hard to justify paying so much money for therapy

To sit in a chair and stare at me
...where all I do is sit and be watched

Waiting for me to say somethin', but I don't wanna say nothin′
...and expected to speak up, but I choose to remain silent

Why do you wanna know? I grew up in a religious home
I question the therapist's intention to understand me because of my religious upbringing

And most of the things I′ve done, my parents don't even know
My parents remain unaware of a significant part of my life and experiences

Been so depressed from all the shame
I have been deeply affected by the feeling of guilt and embarrassment

Livin′ two lives with just one name
I have been leading a double life, yet using the same identity

I sing in church, they say you convert the whole world
People in church believe that with my singing, I can influence and change the world

When you become a famous singer
This is expected to happen once I achieve fame as a singer

Then I drink, and I smoked, and I lost my innocence
However, I have engaged in behaviors like drinking and smoking, which have tainted my purity

Before I had a ring in my finger
These actions happened before I committed to a long-term relationship or marriage

I used to wanna please you and show you I'm in love
In the past, my desire was to make you happy and prove my love for you

But all I really want is to be loved
But deep down, my true longing is to be loved and accepted for who I am

For the me you don′t see 'cause I′ve hid her so well
I want you to know the hidden parts of me that I have concealed effectively

But I just want you to know me deeper
Ultimately, my desire is for you to understand and know me on a more profound level

It's not that I don't believe in God, but
I have faith in God, yet...

Sometimes I think about it all and this feels like a lot and I know
...sometimes I find it overwhelming and burdensome, and I acknowledge that

That you think it′s wrong to have my questions and my doubts
I am aware that you disapprove of my uncertainties and inquiries

But hey, isn′t that what life is all about?
However, isn't it natural for life to involve questioning and seeking answers?

I was so stuck when I thought I had all the answers
I was trapped in my own narrow-mindedness when I believed I possessed all the solutions

Got so caught up, that I forgot what really matters
I became so consumed with trivial matters that I lost sight of what is truly important

Forgave myself for being a self-destructive disaster
Eventually, I forgave myself for the self-sabotaging behavior and destructive choices

And then I turned to a new chapter
Following that, I embarked on a fresh phase or stage in my life

(I want you to know me) I sing in church, they say you convert
I sing in church with the expectation that my singing will lead others to convert

(I want you to know me) the whole world when you become a famous singer
It is believed that once I achieve fame as a singer, I will have the ability to influence the entire world

(I want you to know me) I drink, and I smoked, and I lost my innocence
However, I have indulged in drinking and smoking, causing me to lose my purity and innocence

(I just want you to know me deeper) before I had a ring in my finger
These actions occurred prior to me entering into a committed relationship or getting married

I used to wanna please you and show you I'm in love
In the past, my desire was to make you happy and prove my love for you

But all I really want is to be loved
But deep down, my true longing is to be loved and accepted for who I am

Without me, you don′t see, 'cause I′ve hid her so well
You fail to see the real me because I've successfully concealed her

But I just want you to know me deeper
Yet, my ultimate intention is for you to truly understand and know me on a deeper level