I Loved You
Ellee Duke Lyrics

I notice when you're kissing me
I am aware of the toxicity of our relationship

Taste like poison
Our relationship is harmful like poison

Even though it's bad for me
I know that our relationship is unhealthy

I'm still enjoying it
But I cannot resist the temptation to continue

Falling in a downward spiral and I
Our relationship is making me spiral out of control

Hate it love it at the same damn time
I simultaneously love and hate our relationship

I think you're the devil
I believe that you are the cause of my destructive behavior

Make me want to sin
You tempt me to do things I know are wrong

Showin' up like knock knock
You arrive unexpectedly

Let me in
And I cannot resist letting you back into my life

It's gonna get real ugly
I know that our relationship will end badly

When you break my heart
And you will inevitably hurt me deeply

Cuz now I'm all addicted to the dark
But I am already addicted to our negative relationship

But you've got me where you want me
And you have complete control over me

I don't even know how this happened
I cannot explain how I fell into this trap

When I've tried to walk away
Even though I tried to leave you

Haunt my memory
You still remain in my thoughts and memories

Don't look at me
I cannot even bear to face you

I know I need to get my head straight
I am aware that I need to break free from our toxic relationship

Should I go to work or fling myself into the ocean
I feel torn between my obligations and my desire to escape

At least then I would be free instead of frozen
I feel trapped like a bird in a cage

I want to feel alive
But I long to break free and live a fulfilling life

Oh oh
A cry of despair

You make me want to sin
You continue to tempt me towards destructive behavior

But you've got me where you want me
Again, you have complete control over me