Arose
Eminem Lyrics

If I could rewind time like a tape
If I had the power to go back in time

Inside a boombox, one day for every pill or Percocet that I ate
For every pill or Percocet I consumed, I wish I could go back in time one day

Cut down on the Valium, I'da heard everything
If I had taken less Valium, I would have been more aware and attentive

But death is turning, so definite, wait!
Death is approaching and unavoidable, it cannot be stopped

They got me all hooked up to some machine
I am connected to a life support machine

I love you, Bean, didn't want you to know I was struggling
I care about you, Bean, and I didn't want you to witness my pain and difficulties

Feels like I'm underwater submerged like a submarine
I feel like I am trapped and suffocating, unable to breathe freely

Just heard that nurse say, my liver and kidneys aren't functioning
I just overheard the nurse telling me that my liver and kidneys are failing

Been flirtatious with death, skirt-chasing, I guess
I have been dangerously close to death, taking risks and pushing boundaries

It's arrivederci, same nurse, just heard say they're unplugging me
It's goodbye, the same nurse just informed me that they are going to disconnect life support

And it's your birthday, Jade, I'm missing your birthday
Today is your birthday, Jade, and I regret not being able to be there for you

Baby girl, I'm sorry, I fucking hate when you hurt, Hai
I apologize, my dear daughter, it hurts me deeply to see you in pain, Hai

And sweeties, thank you for waiting to open gifts
Thank you, my darlings, for patiently waiting to open your presents

But, girls, you can just open 'em
But, girls, you can go ahead and open them now

Dad ain't making it home for Christmas
I won't be able to come home for Christmas

Wish I had the strength to just blow a kiss
I wish I had the strength to send you a kiss as a gesture of love

I go to make a fist, but I can't make one, I'm frozen stiff
I try to clench my fist, but I am unable to move, paralyzed with fear

I yell, but nothing comes out, I'm crying inside, I shout
I scream internally, unable to express my emotions outwardly

My vocal cords won't permit me, I scream, but it's not aloud
My vocal cords are damaged, preventing me from screaming audibly

You put your arm around Mama to calm her, wow
You console Mama by embracing her, and it amazes me

I just thought about the aisle I'll never get to walk us down
I suddenly realized that I won't have the chance to walk you down the aisle

Never see you graduate in your caps and gowns
I won't be able to witness you graduating, wearing your caps and gowns

It's 'bout to be 2008, how's this happening now?
We are about to enter 2008, how did this happen to me at this moment?

I got so much more to do
There is still so much more I want to accomplish

And, Proof, I'm truly sorry if I let you down, but this tore me in two
Proof, I deeply apologize if I disappointed you, but this situation has shattered me

The thought of no more me and you
The idea that we won't be together anymore

You gave me shoes, Nikes like new for me for school
You provided me with new Nike shoes for school

Doody, I'm trying, but you, you were the glue that binded
Doody, I'm making an effort, but you were the one who held us together

So many things, time, I'd give anything to rewind it
There are so many things I would do anything to go back in time and change

I had to walk down my halls and constantly be reminded
I had to walk through the halls of my life and constantly be confronted with reminders

By pictures, all on my walls and I couldn't sleep at night 'cause
Seeing pictures on my walls haunted me, making it difficult to sleep at night

That image burned in my brain of you on that table
The image of you lying on that table is etched into my mind

Me falling across your body, not able to stand to save you
I collapsed onto your lifeless body, unable to summon the strength to save you

God, why did you take him?
God, why did you choose to take him away from us?

I'm tryna keep his legacy alive, but I'm dying, where's Nathan?
I'm struggling to preserve his memory, but I'm also feeling my own demise, where is Nathan?

Little ladies, be brave, take care of your mother
My daughters, be strong and support your mother

Smile pretty for pictures, always cherish each other
Always put on a happy face for photographs and never forget the love between you

I'll always love ya, and I'll be in the back of your memory
I will always love you, and my memory will linger in the depths of your mind

And I know you'll never forget me
I am certain that you will never forget about me

Just don't get sad when remembering
Just try not to become saddened when recalling our memories

And, little bro, keep making me proud
And, little brother, continue to make me proud

You better marry that girl 'cause she's faithfully down
You should marry that girl because she is dedicated and committed to you

And when you're exchanging those sacred vows
And when you are reciting your wedding vows

Just know that if I could be there, I would
Just know that if I had the chance, I would be present

And should you ever see parenthood, I know you'll be good at it
And if you ever become a parent, I have confidence that you will excel

Oh, almost forgot to do something, thank my father too
Oh, I almost forgot to do something, I need to thank my father as well

I actually learned a lot from you
I actually gained valuable lessons from you

You taught me what not to do
You taught me the things I should avoid

And, Mom, wish I'd have had the chance
And, Mom, I wish I had the opportunity

To have one last heart-to-heart honest and open talk with you
To have a final conversation filled with heartfelt and honest dialogue

Doody, I see you, I go to walk to you
Doody, I see you, I try to walk towards you

And I can feel my soul leave my body and float across the room
I can sense my soul departing from my physical body and drifting away in the room

Nurses lean over the bed, pulling tubes out
The nurses lean over my bed, removing the tubes attached to me

Then the sheet over my head, shut the room down
Then a sheet is placed over my head, signaling the end of my life in that room

Girls, please don't get upset, I see them cheeks soaking and wet
Girls, please don't be saddened, I can see your tear-streaked cheeks

As you squeeze hold of my neck, so forcibly, don't wanna let
As you tightly grip my neck, desperately refusing to let go

Me go, pillow drenched, emotional wrecks
Don't let me go, your tears soak the pillow, leaving us emotionally devastated

With every second, each closer to death
With each passing second, we come closer to the end of my life

But suddenly I feel my heart begin to beat slow then a breath, machines go
But suddenly I feel my heart slowing down, followed by a breath, and the machines stop

Must've guessed the cheat codes to this shit
I must have figured out the secret codes to cheat death

I'm trying to rewind time like a tape
I am desperately trying to turn back time like rewinding a cassette tape

Find an escape, make a beeline, try and awake
I'm searching for an escape route, trying to make a quick and direct path, attempting to wake up

From this dream, I need to re-find my inner strength
I need to awaken from this dream and rediscover my inner resilience

To remind me, even if a steep climb I must take
To remind myself that even if I have to face great challenges, I must persevere

To rewrite a mistake, I'm rewinding the tape
To correct an error, I am rewinding the tape of my life

(I don't want it!)
(I don't want this!)

I'll put out this last album, then I'm done with it
I will release this final album, and after that, I am finished with my music career

One hundred percent finished, fed up with it
Completely finished, no longer willing to tolerate it

I'm hanging it up, fuck it!
I'm giving up on it, forget about it!

Excuse the cursing, baby, but just know
I apologize for the profanity, my dear, but understand

That I'm a good person, though they portray me as cold
I want you to know that I am a kind-hearted individual, despite the cold image they depict of me

And if things should worsen, but I bet you they won't
And even if things get worse, but I believe they won't

I'm pledging to throw this methadone in the toilet
I promise to discard this methadone medication by throwing it in the toilet

Shred these old letters I wrote
I will tear apart and dispose of the old letters that I wrote

All that old pathetic loathing, closing credits can roll
All the old, pitiful self-hatred can come to an end, like the closing credits of a movie

I'm proud to be back
I am proud of myself for making a comeback

I'm 'bout to, like a rematch, outdo Relapse
I am about to surpass my previous album, Relapse, like a rematch where I exceed expectations

With Recovery, Mathers LP2
With the albums Recovery and The Marshall Mathers LP2

Help propel me to victory laps
They will contribute to my success and allow me to celebrate accomplishments

Gas toward 'em and fast forward the past
I will accelerate towards my goals and leave the past behind

Consider the last four minutes as
See the final four minutes of this song as

The song I'da sang to my daughters
The song I would have sung to my daughters

If I'da made it to the hospital less than 2 hours later, but I fought it
If I had arrived at the hospital less than 2 hours later, but I battled against death

And came back like a boomerang on 'em
And returned unexpectedly, like a boomerang, to prove them wrong

Now a new day is dawnin'
Now a new day is beginning

I'm up, Tuesday, it's mornin', now I know
I'm awake, it's Tuesday morning, and now I realize