Going Through Changes
Eminem Lyrics


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I'm going through changes
I'm going through changes

Lately, I really feel like I'm rollin' for delf like Philly
Feel like I'm losing control of myself
I sincerely apologize if all that I sound like
Is I'm complainin', but life keeps on complicatin' and
I'm debatin' on leavin' this world this evenin'
Even my girls can see I'm grievin'
I try and hide it but I can't
Why do I act like I'm all high and mighty
When inside I'm dyin'? I am finally realizin' I need
Help, can't do it myself, too weak
Two weeks, I've been havin' ups and downs
Goin' through peaks and valleys
Dilly-dallyin' 'round with the idea
Of endin' this shit right here
I'm hatin' my reflection
I walk around the house tryna fight mirrors
I can't stand what I look like, yeah
I look fat, but what do I care? I give a fuck
Only thing I fear's Hailie
I'm afraid if I close my eyes
That I might see her, shit

I'm going through changes
I'm going through changes

I lock myself in the bedroom, bathroom, nappin' at noon
Yeah, dad's in a bad mood, he's always snappin' at you
Marshall, what happened that you can't stop with these pills?
And you've fallen off with your skills and your own fans are laughin' at you
It become a problem you're too pussy to tackle? Get up
Be a man, stand, a real man woulda had this shit handled
Know you just had your heart ripped out and crushed
They say Proof just flipped out, homie just whipped out and bust
Nah, it ain't like Doody to do that
He wouldn't fuckin' shoot at nobody, he'd fight first
But dwellin' on it only makes the night worse
Now I'm poppin' Vics, Percs and Methadone pills
"Yeah, Em, tight verse, you killed it"
Fuckin' drug dealers hangin' 'round me like yes men
And they gon' do whatever I says when I says it
It's in their best interest to protect their investment
And I just lost my fuckin' best friend, so fuck it, I guess then

(I'm going through changes)
Don't know what I'm gonna do (I'm going through changes)
But I just keep on going through changes

My friends can't understand this new me, that's understandable
Man, but think how bananas you'd be, you'd be an animal too
If you were trapped in this fame and caged in it like a zoo
And everybody's lookin' at you, what you want me to do?
I'm startin' to live like a recluse
And the truth is, fame's startin' to give me an excuse
To be at a all-time low, I sit alone in my home theater
Watchin' the same damn DVD of the first tour
The last tour he was still alive
And it hurts so I fast forward, sleeping pills'll make me feel alright
And if I'm still awake in the middle of the night
I'll just take a couple more, yeah, you're motherfuckin' right
I ain't slowin' down for no one, I am almost homeward bound
Almost in a coma, yeah, homie, come on, dole 'em out
"Daddy, don't you die on me, Daddy, better hold your ground"
Fuck, don't I know the sound of that voice? Yeah, baby, hold me down (daddy)

(I'm going through changes)
(Daddy)
Don't know what I'm gonna do (I'm going through changes)
But I just keep on going through changes

Wake up in the hospital, full of tubes
But somehow I'm pullin' through
Swear when I come back I'ma be bulletproof
I'ma do it just for Proof, I think I should state a few facts
'Cause I may not get a chance again to say the truth
Shit, it just hit me that what if I would not've made it through?
I think about the things I woulda never got to say to you
I'd never get to make it right, so here's what I came to do
Hailie, this one is for you, Whitney and Alaina too
I still love your mother, that'll never change
Think about her every day
We just could never get it together, hey
Wish there was a better way for me to say it
But I swear on everything, I'd do anything for her on any day
There are just too many things to explain, when it rains
Guess it pours, yes, it does, wish there wasn't any pain
But I can't pretend there ain't, I ain't placin' any blame
I ain't pointin' fingers, Heaven knows I never been a saint
I know that it feels like we just pissed away our history
And just today I looked at your picture, almost if to say
I miss you subconsciously, wish it didn't end this way
But I just had to get away, don't know why
I don't know what else to say, I guess I'm

(I'm going through changes)




Don't know what I'm gonna do (I'm going through changes)
But I just keep on going through changes

Overall Meaning

The lyrics to Eminem's song Going Through Changes take the listener on a journey through the rapper's state of mind as he struggles with addiction, depression, and the loss of his best friend, Proof. He admits to feeling like he is losing control of himself and considering ending his life, even though he knows he needs help. Eminem depicts himself as a recluse who is trapped in fame, and whose friends cannot understand his new persona. The lyrics show a deep sense of pain and regret as the rapper reflects on his relationship with his family, friends, and the loss of loved ones.


One of the most interesting aspects of this song is its sampling of Black Sabbath's "Changes" in the chorus, which was written by Ozzy Osbourne as a tribute to his wife. The song was produced by DJ Khalil, who has worked with other notable artists such as Jay-Z and Kendrick Lamar. The song was also featured on Eminem's seventh studio album, Recovery, which was released in 2010 and was a massive commercial success.


Line by Line Meaning

Lately, I really feel like I'm rollin' for delf like Philly
Eminem feels like he's losing control of himself.


Feel like I'm losing control of myself
Eminem feels like he's losing control of himself.


I sincerely apologize if all that I sound like Is I'm complainin', but life keeps on complicatin' and I'm debatin' on leavin' this world this evenin'
Eminem is apologizing in advance if he sounds like he's complaining, even though he's dealing with many problems and considering suicide.


Even my girls can see I'm grievin'
Even Eminem's loved ones can see that he's grieving.


I try and hide it but I can't
Eminem tries to hide his grief but can't.


Why do I act like I'm all high and mighty When inside I'm dyin'?
Eminem wonders why he tries to act confident when he's actually suffering inside.


I am finally realizin' I need Help, can't do it myself, too weak
Eminem acknowledges that he needs help and that he's too weak to handle his problems alone.


Two weeks, I've been havin' ups and downs Goin' through peaks and valleys Dilly-dallyin' 'round with the idea Of endin' this shit right here
Eminem has been struggling with ups and downs for two weeks, and has been seriously considering suicide.


I'm hatin' my reflection I walk around the house tryna fight mirrors I can't stand what I look like, yeah I look fat, but what do I care? I give a fuck Only thing I fear's Hailie I'm afraid if I close my eyes That I might see her, shit
Eminem hates what he sees in the mirror, is afraid of his daughter seeing him this way, and is afraid of seeing his deceased friend when he closes his eyes.


I lock myself in the bedroom, bathroom, nappin' at noon Yeah, dad's in a bad mood, he's always snappin' at you Marshall, what happened that you can't stop with these pills? And you've fallen off with your skills and your own fans are laughin' at you
Eminem locks himself in rooms and sleeps at odd hours due to his depression, his father is always angry, and people are criticizing him and his decline in musical ability.


It become a problem you're too pussy to tackle? Get up Be a man, stand, a real man woulda had this shit handled Know you just had your heart ripped out and crushed They say Proof just flipped out, homie just whipped out and bust Nah, it ain't like Doody to do that He wouldn't fuckin' shoot at nobody, he'd fight first But dwellin' on it only makes the night worse Now I'm poppin' Vics, Percs and Methadone pills "Yeah, Em, tight verse, you killed it" Fuckin' drug dealers hangin' 'round me like yes men And they gon' do whatever I says when I says it It's in their best interest to protect their investment And I just lost my fuckin' best friend, so fuck it, I guess then
Eminem talks about his addiction to drugs, the death of his friend Proof, and the people who enable him despite knowing that he has a problem.


My friends can't understand this new me, that's understandable Man, but think how bananas you'd be, you'd be an animal too If you were trapped in this fame and caged in it like a zoo And everybody's lookin' at you, what you want me to do?
Eminem reflects on the pressure of fame and how it has changed him, and how others would feel in his position.


I'm startin' to live like a recluse And the truth is, fame's startin' to give me an excuse To be at a all-time low, I sit alone in my home theater Watchin' the same damn DVD of the first tour The last tour he was still alive
Eminem is isolating himself due to his fame and has been watching the same DVD of his first tour, which reminds him of the past when his friend was still alive.


And it hurts so I fast forward, sleeping pills'll make me feel alright And if I'm still awake in the middle of the night I'll just take a couple more, yeah, you're motherfuckin' right I ain't slowin' down for no one, I am almost homeward bound Almost in a coma, yeah, homie, come on, dole 'em out "Daddy, don't you die on me, Daddy, better hold your ground" Fuck, don't I know the sound of that voice? Yeah, baby, hold me down (daddy)
Eminem talks about his addiction to sleeping pills and his fear of dying, but he also acknowledges the support of his daughter and asks her to hold him down.


Wake up in the hospital, full of tubes But somehow I'm pullin' through Swear when I come back I'ma be bulletproof I'ma do it just for Proof, I think I should state a few facts 'Cause I may not get a chance again to say the truth Shit, it just hit me that what if I would not've made it through? I think about the things I woulda never got to say to you I'd never get to make it right, so here's what I came to do Hailie, this one is for you, Whitney and Alaina too I still love your mother, that'll never change Think about her every day We just could never get it together, hey Wish there was a better way for me to say it But I swear on everything, I'd do anything for her on any day There are just too many things to explain, when it rains Guess it pours, yes, it does, wish there wasn't any pain But I can't pretend there ain't, I ain't placin' any blame I ain't pointin' fingers, Heaven knows I never been a saint I know that it feels like we just pissed away our history And just today I looked at your picture, almost if to say I miss you subconsciously, wish it didn't end this way But I just had to get away, don't know why I don't know what else to say, I guess I'm
Eminem reflects on his near-death experience and talks about his love for his daughter, her mother, and his deceased friend Proof. He acknowledges the mistakes he's made and the pain he's caused, but still wishes there was a better way to express his feelings. He misses his loved ones and wishes things could've ended differently, but doesn't know how else to cope.




Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group
Written by: Terence Michael Butler, Anthony Frank Iommi, John Michael Osbourne, William T. Ward, Marshall B. III Mathers

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Toby Parkinson

The sound of the chorus the third time with the ambulance and heart monitor with the faint sound of a heartbeat is so haunting, this period was the lowest of the low for Eminem and a very overlooked part in his life, for all we know he could’ve succumbed to his drug overdose and he may have not been alive today, it’s one of my many blessings that I’ve counted that Eminem is still here and sober ❤️ amazing and underrated song

William Runner

Poor Eminem! I'll pray for him.

Jade Sylvestre

The sound of the chorus the third time with the ambulance and heart monitor with the faint sound of a heartbeat is so haunting, this period was the lowest of the low for Eminem and a very overlooked part in his life, Wow just wow... Truly amazing and underrated song.. The love for his kids and their mom never seize to amaze me.. FOREVER WILL BE MY FAVORITE ARTIST

TM, Charms

Being here trying to handle my father's death as a single mother

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Adela Dvorak

oh my god... im literally crying

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It's July 2022 ! let's see how many legend and fans are stills listening to this masterpiece........💞❤😍💫〽️

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